(A) I'm crazy about dancing.
Out for two days back surprisingly did not see the door of the notice board: power outage for a day. After getting up in the morning to open the computer only to know that there is no electricity, wait until 10 o'clock is still the same, and even the water also stopped by the way. They went out to see what was going on. Looked at the notice board: 6:00 am to 9:00 pm. Maintenance. How can I spend this hot day without water and electricity? It's a full day, how can I spend it? The first thing you need to do is to get out of the car, and stay in the house.
In the house pacing back and forth, why not find something to do, clean up the house, no water is also a waste of time. Look at what can not do, rather than dry anxious to read a book! Bought a bunch of books have not had the energy to read, time is a lot, just can not concentrate to read it one by one. Why not take advantage of today to practice, quietly read. So brought a thick pile, there are ten books, slowly turning, see which one can be to their taste, to pass the difficult time.
About an hour or so ago, I was just browsing through the pages. Suddenly heard the sound of ticking in the water pipe, is it water? So it flew to check. The water flow is very thin, only in the bathroom low water pipe there, the kitchen water pipe even the shadow of water. Rushed to use a basin to this very rare water next, ready to cook at noon with, the family did not even a drop of water. The good thing is that the water is small, but not intermittent, after receiving a basin of water pipe will be silent, not even a drop of water will not give again. Good, after all, received some, so that the noon can not starve. This pipe water is also a real humane, in the critical time is like the Goddess of Mercy to the earth to throw rain like, let a person warm.
Midday cooking, and then sleep, and then books, and then doze off, and then woke up when it was 5:00 pm, turn on the lights or no bright meaning. Cooking and eating, it's 7pm and still no light. It's getting darker, and the vision in the house is a bit blurry. It's time to go out and let off some steam. Should I go for a walk or learn to dance with the girls at the door? Either way, I can't stay inside anymore, so fine, let's go learn to dance!
I don't know why, but in the three years since I've lived here, I've always thought of myself as an outsider, not wanting to fit in at all, and having a very stubborn rejection of the people here. Don't like this place much less the people. The good thing was that this was a new neighborhood, and there weren't too many people living here. One building had a third of the occupancy rate. At night the lights of the stars are twinkling.
Here between the city and the countryside, shopping is not very convenient, if you buy fresh things to take the car more than half an hour to dozens of kilometers away. Just the usual food can be purchased in the neighborhood. After I came here to set up my house, I didn't have a good feeling about this place, and I always thought that I would leave this place someday. Although the house was very cozy, I couldn't stop myself from wanting to leave, and I left the place in 2011 without a second thought, and in the past two years, I haven't missed it at all. It seems to have nothing to do with me.
Now my son is in school here and has to live here. In the past three years, I have hardly interacted with anyone, and I don't know anyone in the neighborhood. In fact, this is good, I want to be quiet and alone, do not want to have anyone to disturb, just like the practice of the dojo, do not want to let any one to destroy my aura. Three years, just like this quietly pass the days. From summer to fall, and from the snowy winter transition to spring.
Living in such an environment, it is surprising to feel a sense of beauty, first of all, the house insulation here is made very thick, winter is not cold, summer is not hot. The house fell into the four seasons constant temperature of the perfect residence.
Outside the door of the road is also constantly changing, a straight road across the north and south, bright lights at night, I do not know when the door of the business in the increase, the emergence of a lot of different stores, the roadside is full of a variety of objects, restaurants are also a one after another lush up.
A 1000-meter road has four groups that dance at night. The sound of music is rising and falling, the majority of people here in the northeast, dancing almost all of the northeast rice-planting song, the red fan dance of a red color. The number of people is growing. I like the simplicity of the activity, it doesn't take a lot of brain power, just a mechanical movement of the legs. For several years these dancers seemed to have nothing to do with me, and no matter how beautiful the music was, it still didn't interest me. The insensitivity of the dance steps makes me distant from the dance, although I like the melody, but when learning the trivial dance steps, a kind of serious frustration, so that I do not have a bit of self-confidence, simply do not learn to stop adding to the trouble.
Why do you want to learn to dance tonight? Is it afraid of loneliness, want to socialize with people, or want to go and dance to a challenge? I don't know why, tonight I want to go dancing, is to learn is also interested in. In order not to let themselves spoil the fun, directly then stood up to the dancing crowd, haphazardly follow the dancing arms, anyway, no one knows me, I am not afraid of what others think of me.
For the dance I more or less a little basic, not so afraid, as long as you can step on the drums, the heart is still very happy. I've learned a few square dances at home with my dance group, but I'm not in the mood to learn them all, and I'm not interested in doing so. Now at home, such a tempting environment, do not learn is really a pity.
Tonight's dance is very good to learn, Jiamusi happy fitness exercises, like radio gymnastics, simple and easy to remember, as long as you look at other people to do can be, the action of the cervical and lumbar vertebrae more activities, looking at the lively and interesting. A little bit of zombie dance flavor, but after the activity feels relaxed. When the legs forward stirrups a bit like the Mongolian dance, this dance combines a lot of folk dance in it, let me learn once and then like.
In the beautiful melody of the dance arms, feet with the drums back and forth, suddenly feel the dance is a very beautiful entertainment, can let themselves indulge in it. I've seen my shadow swinging back and forth under the lights, and a sense of pride came to me.
In fact, sometimes the pleasure of looking for is so simple, without realizing it will find the fun. Look around the people are almost all over the age of the people, dancing that kind of joy and ease so that they are happy with this. Every evening they gather together, and it's a real pleasure to be together.
Tonight there is an endless interest in the heart of the dust of the love of the activities of the love of lively cells and hooked out, very seriously follow them to dance, the original feeling is very difficult to learn the steps, and tonight, surprisingly, do not attack and break. It seems that as long as the heart to learn, there is nothing that can not be learned. Along with the dance music one by one, until someone shouted: the call. Only to be reluctant to return home.
Tonight suddenly let my dormant mind have a revival of the feeling, in those cheerful melody as if to see the young full of vitality of their own. I'm crazy about dancing, and I'm going to do it tomorrow night!
Buy two more red fans, and dance along with the group! Let the heart roll with the dance music too.
Dance softly.
I didn't realize that I had stepped into the ranks of middle-aged women. This seems to be a little bit of psychological discomfort, but look at the mirror of the bloated fat himself, and then look at the tall son, had to sigh: how time passes so quickly? How so fast can be old, not yet enjoy a few days? The face of reality have to believe, but the heart is still young.
I don't know when people call themselves a change, when from sister to aunt. The first time I heard a little upset, but looking at the tender face, when that little tiny doll grew so high? Time is unconsciously counting the people a little bit, this is a small child has been a teenager, like a serial, a wobble more than ten years have passed.
Nowadays, I always want to mix in the ranks of the middle-aged and elderly, as if they have a great sense of `superiority' with their age. I'm not sure if I've ever been in the same place before, but I'm not sure if I've ever been in the same place before.
In the past, there was no interest in twisting the rice-planting song, feeling that the dance was ugly, a group of old ladies with a face full of folds in the street with a smile twisting, jumping, and secretly think, this group of old ladies really will play. But it's not pretty, and I don't want to see it.
Now the night is the era of square dancing, as long as it is a densely populated place, there is that spontaneous dancing crowd, in the street is also a good-looking scenery. I don't know why I have not been able to generate interest in the dance, but there is a kind of obsession with music. I liked the music, but I couldn't coordinate my steps. When the craze for ballroom dancing first started, I actively participated in it. However, due to the fear of shyness and fear of not being able to learn, I have been wandering between knowing and not knowing, my copying ability is too poor, and I have been afraid to take that step. I would only watch from the side, but I didn't dare to implement it. At that time is the lack of bold attempts.
After a number of years and friends to learn square dancing, no matter how my friends teach me, I can never coordinate my legs, always feel awkward, after a few nights of practice, to the end of the boring. When my friends went dancing, my only excuse was that I couldn't learn. It felt like it was a very cerebral thing to do, and it didn't hurt to learn or not to learn.
In this unfamiliar environment, there is no other entertainment program in the evening except walking on the road. A group of old ladies at the door every night flashing a big fan, twisting the big rice-planting song, the cheerful music has been drifting a long, long way. I just like to listen to the music, I do not like anything else.
Time in the unknowing past year, the door every night to repeat the dance scene. One day my son and I said, "Why don't you go outside to dance? Every day nestled in the house." I said that is the old man and woman in the dance rice-planting song, I do not like.
A day of idleness, go out and turn, suddenly saw the door more than a stall, a few women walking on stage, a serious modeling look, suddenly let me have a trace of interest, they looked up, the beginning of the look is okay, on the action of a few look more and more boring, simply do not look at home.
And after a number of days, in skating, suddenly feel outside seems to be lively, everywhere is a hawker, everywhere is a restaurant, light barbecue on four or five, the original silent street seems to be a night lively. Listening to the music, it seems that a lot of singing, one after another, the sidewalk occupied by people, are practicing dance. Upon closer inspection, there were four, each different from the other. Two fan dances, one social dance, and one square dance. One of the largest, the number of people up to a hundred people, a small street people from where to gather here?
Accustomed to a person living alone, really do not want to contact outsiders. The person closed himself in his own space, living "hide in a small building into a unity, tube it spring and summer and fall and winter," the autistic life. There is only one attitude towards everything outside - rejection. In the year of autism, at first I could entertain myself, but in the last period of time, I felt that life was tasteless, and I was tired of life and lost my confidence. I don't want to perish in my own negative world. I am also actively changing my attitude towards life. The only way to do this is to go out and integrate into the outside world. The only shortcut to get out there is - go dancing.
I am no less repulsed by dancing than I am by people.
It is not as if I am rejecting dance as I am rejecting people. But in order to survive, I have to get into the environment, and I can relax my mind and have a close contact with the people in the dance class.
And so it was with fear and trepidation that I joined the team to learn their dance. Although my legs and feet were a bit rusty, I felt that it was not as difficult as I had imagined after I really got into it.
Watching them dance the fan dance is really beautiful! Red fan thick surface in their hands back and forth flapping, brilliant like the sky clouds. I bare hands in the back of the team, very hard to follow step by step, suddenly I feel I seem to live with the music, the body light, really beautiful! It was my greatest wish to have a fan, so on the second day I received the coveted pink fan in the hands of the leader.
The hand holding the fan dance, a moment will feel the hands of sleepy, watching the elderly a fan in their hands up and down, the use of the flexibility of the free let me envy, perseverance is victory. Followed these old people slowly enjoy their dance, feel very beautiful. I was watching from the outside, but now I am enjoying it from the inside. Their footsteps are very brisk, although the figure is no longer slim, but there is a sense of relaxation on everyone's face. Neat team, consistent pace, and the heart to dance with the music.
The music can be a source of inspiration as well as a source of wisdom, and there is a rare sense of ease and relaxation in music. Busy day of people in the music of the dance and the brain tightly combined, so that the brain in the world of the complexity of the clamping to a pleasant and refreshing. A few days in the dance music to feel the beauty of the dance, feel the learning to bring me physical and mental pleasure, but also with the music of the ups and downs of the changes in the shape of the fan.
Suddenly, I feel that dancing is so beautiful, why do I reject it like that? This can make the soul of the beauty of the peace of mind rejected thousands of miles away, but also really will not enjoy life, will not go to enjoy the beauty of life. Always in a bad mood as an excuse to avoid the rhythm of this beauty, to their own and the dance is not related to the denial of all. In fact, dancing can change the negative state of mind. Let yourself live up, give yourself a hope.
Previously, I heard that the sound of loud music will want to escape, more reluctant to go into. Now in this noisy music I learned to follow the music walk, can wholeheartedly put themselves into the world of dance, so this noise has become a kind of beautiful enjoyment.
Sometimes people's consciousness is very strange, when you do not like that thing, is to turn a deaf ear, or even a deep disgust, just like the disgust of a person, hate when she was covered with shortcomings, simply nothing. When you like it, you will love it, that is, the shortcomings will also become advantages, simply the whole body is a treasure, good are shining like gold. This is the dialectical relationship between rejection and acceptance.
The sound of the music in my dislike of the environment, hear the loud sound of my heart will beat uncomfortable. But now standing next to the stereo, with the music swinging body, the sound seems to spread, no longer so deafening. Instead, it feels like a spiritual pleasure. And from the songs that I hear and get new songs, that tune that lyrics make me memorable.
In a group of elderly people I saw their passion for life, the pursuit of beauty, for their age, learning to dance can be said to be a very difficult thing. But looking at their skillful movements, the fun of learning a new dance, can be described as where there's a will there's a way. Interest is the best teacher, and I know that this is the passion that radiates from the fervent hope for life, which allows them to feel the joy of acquisition in the world of dance. In the world of dance is getting younger and younger.
Dancing is about the coordination of brain, eyes, hands and feet, and you can't have one without the other. I am always tired of myself, and driven by this group of enthusiastic old ladies, I want to inherit their spirit of not being afraid of challenges, and continue to exercise.
Dance lightly, dance lightly with the red fan, gently in the music to take away their own irritation, so that they gently enjoy the dance to bring me joy.