The lyrics are simple:
Wow! It feels so poetic.
It seems to be talking about my current life, learning a little here, learning a little there, doing a little here, doing a little there, and my life is so screwed up by myself.
I remember a Danish philosopher named Kierkegaard. He said that most people have no self-awareness and no coherent concept. They are not based on mental characteristics. Their lives are either naive or trivial and boring. One minute they did something good, and the next they did something ridiculous. They went back and forth like this: they were desperate in one afternoon, and maybe three weeks later, they were desperate again.
This is what I am now. I don't know what I want to do or what kind of person I want to be. It looks good every day, but I feel something is missing.
I thought for a long time, but I didn't think clearly what I missed. Later, I thought about what I didn't want to do and what I shouldn't do to see what I can do now.
For example, online games, poker and mahjong, wine and meat entertainment, etc. , are consuming their own time, low value.
Now, I quit playing games, seldom play cards and seldom go out to socialize. But I still don't know what I want to do and what kind of person I want to be.
Maybe I know, such as reading and writing, fitness and healthy eating. These are all right, which can make me grow up, but sometimes they are not so comfortable and make people want to resist. But adult life is inherently painful, and growth is also painful. Do you think you shouldn't have pain and can't accept it? Maybe this is the root of my pain.
Just like Roman Roland's famous saying: There is only one kind of heroism in the world, and that is to love life after seeing the truth of life clearly.
Life is painful, just like the wind will blow my hair. I must learn to accept and adapt to what I can't change, but I can't accommodate and indulge.
Then try to change what can be changed, be patient, that's all.