The distortion of the soul and the misery of the spirit are connected with the ups and downs of life, the memories of failure and self-mockery. .....
Life of a Fool is the last work of Ryunosuke Akutagawa. Yes, the representative writers of Japan's new trend of thought committed suicide several times. Although he finally committed suicide, he was happy.
It is bad to look back on Akutagawa Ryunosuke's life. His mother was crazy, his father abandoned him, his first love was blocked, his friend was crazy and hospitalized, his family was burdened, his body was weak, and his spiritual partner was missing. He was always in panic and madness. ...
And this book "A Fool's Life" can also be said to be Akutagawa's autobiography, which alludes to his life, a tragic life. Before Akutagawa Ryunosuke committed suicide, he left the manuscript to his good friend Masao Kumei. He is convinced that his friends know themselves better than anyone else and can peel off my skin and see my stupidity.
This book probably has some small frameworks to follow.
Ryunosuke Akutagawa was born on 1 March, 8921day. His biological father, Shinhara Minzo, has rich experience in dairy industry, and was brought up by his uncle Zhang Dao Akutagawa, who changed his surname to Akutagawa. The Akutagawa family has lived in Koizumi-CHO, our hospital for generations. It is a gathering place for literati and poets in the Edo era, full of strong Edo literati atmosphere. Ryunosuke Akutagawa grew up in the atmosphere of literature, art and fine arts, and he had long been exposed to China's novels, European and American literature and literary works in the Edo era.
Her mother's name is Fu, a girl from the declining Akutagawa family. Seven months after her birth, she went crazy because of the shadow of her eldest daughter's death.
Finally, it can be related to Japanese folk superstition. The age matching of 42-year-old men and 33-year-old women is called "the year of Ernie", which means that bad things will happen in life, but there is another saying that "the former Eritrea" is even more horrible, which means that disasters will occur the year before the year of Ernie. So the year before Akutagawa was born, his elder sister died of meningitis, and his mother could not get out of the shadow of the death of her eldest daughter. She was insane and crazy, and then she fell ill and died.
Akutagawa Ryunosuke often thinks about whether people who love each other suffer together on the second floor of a house that is strangely tilted because of the terrain.
That coffee shop is quite small. His senior said, "Nothing, just want a ride." This sentence makes people feel a little headache, but it also makes people feel happy.
He was ill, turning over an English dictionary in the sea breeze and fumbling for words with his fingers. My mind imagines the shortness of life, and once again imagines the East Indian palm trees that bloom only once every 70 years. Maybe the real sea is not afraid of waves.
One autumn night after a rain, under an iron bridge in the suburbs, a carriage full of goods was parked. People come and go, and a Dutchman Van Gogh with his ear cut off comes to mind. Perhaps this is a vivid and sudden scene of nature.
Once, in order to finish a short story set in the dynasty, Akutagawa's friend said, "There are not enough bodies." Akutagawa had already prepared the answer: "If there are not enough bodies, I will kill people without malice."
He read Natsume Soseki's book under the big oak tree. At that time, Akutagawa was Natsume's most proud student and the most dazzling star in the literary world.
19 14 in the summer, 22-year-old Ryunosuke Akutagawa fell in love with a talented girl named Yayoi Yoshida, but she was strongly opposed by her family and was forced to give up her love, fulfilling the selfishness of her adoptive parents. The woman Akutagawa likes needs to love him from the heart and understand and appreciate him in poetry, songs and literature. I have been thinking more than once that if he and his first love finish what they started, if ... maybe he will be mentally tortured for the rest of his life, and he will not necessarily commit suicide.
1917 in may, 25-year-old Akutagawa published his first collection of short stories, rashomon. At this time, he was in the corner of a small town, looking at the vast market. People and cars were dyed rose, and the night gradually passed and the day gradually brightened. This is the happiest time in his life and the third month when he met his teacher.
You can see "King Kong" there, right?
1916 65438+On February 9th, Natsume Soseki passed away. He walked into the platform of a new railway station in the wind after the rain, and there was a telegram in his coat pocket that said "the teacher was critically ill". The wind after the rain scattered the workers' songs and his feelings.
19 18, Akutagawa married Tsukuba, who was 19 years old. The day after the wedding, Akutagawa complained about his wife's carelessness and waste in front of the daffodil potted plant that his wife bought him. It's really bad.
Akutagawa and his wife, in Shadow of the Big Banana Leaf, respected each other and raised three children together.
This sentence seems very sad.
Shining moonlight and scarlet birthmark
For 29-year-old Akutagawa, life is not happy at all.
His shackles are called family burdens. 1965438+ Akutagawa became a member of Osaka Daily News Agency in March and left Kamakura in April.
19 19, Akutagawa, who has just been married for one year, cheated on the singer Xiumaozi, who is two years older than him. Xiumaozi is selfish, a social butterfly in the literary world, and deals with many men. 192 1 year, Xiumaozi gave birth to a baby and told Akutagawa that it might be your child. At that time, the punishment for adultery in Japan was very serious. Akutagawa was afraid of being locked up. He tried his best to get rid of the entanglement, but he also suffered from severe neurasthenia.
What happened later also responded to what I said at the beginning.
There is a cock ink painting that shows personality, which is a painting by Gu Longyi. But what is commendable in his life is that the painter visited him after a week or so.
In the square, it was already dark. Under the clear silver sky, the windows of several buildings are lit. After getting on the bus together, she held his hand tightly and said I don't regret it.
When his wife gave birth to the earliest boy, he smelled the baby like a mouse's son and couldn't help thinking, "Why did you give birth to this boy?" Born in this world full of pain? And why does this boy have to bear the fate of being a father like me? "
Strindberg, like him, wrote a similar lie in the letter sent to the countess and gave a wry smile unconsciously.
He looked at the mountain at the end of the street in spring and replied without hesitation, "Well, it's beautiful!" " "
The smell of cow dung wafted from the country road in the sun, wiped the sweat and climbed the steep road. Both sides of the road are filled with ripe wheat fragrance.
From this bottle with fine lines, he realized the beauty of modeling.
It is raining outside the bedroom window. Wen Zhulan's flowers seem to rot in the rain, and her face still looks like in the moonlight. "Do I love this woman?" I asked myself, "I still love her."
It tastes like ripe almonds. He paced in the ruins, smelling the rotting bodies in the hot summer, and it tasted good.
Her sister's house and her half-brother's house were burned to the ground, and his brother-in-law Nishikawa Feng was also in slow motion because of perjury ... "If only they were all dead." He stood in the ruins, lost in thought.
He wrestled with his half-brother and went into the corridor. A zinnia plant in the yard glowed red under the rainy sky, which I still remember.
The great hero is Lenin of Russia.
1926, 34-year-old Akutagawa, I don't know when he began to like the open space.
This is very similar to the funny doll standing in the suit shop. A person stuck in reality and ideals. Natural pessimism has created his character, and it has also caused the reality that his tragedy cannot be changed.
これはだろぅか Life. This may be life.
"Creative desire is vitality after all, right?" He didn't answer. The spike of Miscanthus is as red as a volcano, and he has a feeling of jealousy about the volcano. ...
After suffering from neurasthenia and other diseases, Akutagawa's creativity began to decline from prosperity, and Jiang Lang's remarks appeared in the literary world, which made Akutagawa, who had always regarded creativity as his life, more miserable. He was physically and mentally exhausted and haggard, and unconsciously lost interest in life.
He moved, trying to kill the cruel desire of women. This is the daughter of a madman.
Numerous images of him were reflected in the mirror on the wall of the cafe, and he was silent.
He suffers from insomnia, stomach cramps, enteritis, palpitations and other diseases. The source of the disease lies in the society he despises!
"Can you see a boat there?"
"This is a ship with its mast broken in two."
When he wanted to sleep alone again, he tried to kill himself. He tried to record the time it took him to commit suicide with his pocket watch, but the pain he felt was only 1 minute for 20 seconds, and then he could hear the rude cry of the rooster.
Tiwan's famous poems of East and West.
His brother-in-law was suspected by the police of trying to cheat insurance, and committed suicide by lying on the track because he could not pay off the usury. Akutagawa felt that the days ahead were like the wilderness in the sunset, with no hope at all. He is getting old, just like Swift used to see, a tree withered from the top. ...
He has a crush on his wife's best friend Pingsongzi, but he has no love and has never touched her body. They fell in love in spirit.
They met for "double Platonic suicide".
She handed him a bottle of potassium cyanate. "As long as we have this, our strength will be strong."
After he finished writing A Fool's Life, he happened to find a swan specimen in an old furniture store. It stood with its neck upturned and even its yellow feathers were eaten by insects.
He recalled his life, tears and sneer welled up in his heart, and his only way out was to go crazy or commit suicide. He wandered alone in the street in the twilight, determined to wait slowly for the God who would destroy him.
The bad news came that my friend went crazy and picked rose petals everywhere to eat.
Akutagawa remembered a Songkato bust he gave to his friend a few years ago, which was made by Russian writer Nikolai Gogol. Nikolai Gogol finally went crazy.
When he got home, he added another paragraph to his novel A Fool's Life, which recorded the last state of his life: the hand holding the pen began to tremble, and the saliva unconsciously stayed. Nothing can sober him up except 0.8 mg of verona. Even so, it's only half an hour or an hour. Wandering in the darkness beside time is like supporting yourself with a thin sword with a broken blade as a crutch.
At this point, the stage of Akutagawa Ryunosuke's life has slowly come to an end. Akutagawa laughed that his life is a fool's life, but why is this "stupidity" not naive and sober? Isn't it the yearning for warmth and freedom?
? Q: What is a tragic life?
A: Is it full of pain and unwillingness? I don't think there was a struggle.
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? Written in 202 1.0 1.28? Heqing Haiyan