Since 16 years ago, when I left home to work here, it has been 6 years without realizing it. A long life may be 6 years is nothing, but he is already a young man into middle age.
6 years of time from not accustomed to gradually become accustomed to. The daily rice has become steamed buns, white noodles; daily light has become salty; even the local language also hold the seven or eight, if not carefully differentiated will not think I am a foreigner from a thousand kilometers away.
The life of the integration is easy, the heart of the tolerance is very difficult. Because I am a passer-by, my root is not here, and my spiritual home is not here.
The company's colleagues are very friendly to me, and also very concerned about my daily life, is their concern to help me through the most difficult stage of adaptation. But I still lost a whole 20 pounds, right down to weight loss.
The daily work is not smooth sailing, but it is also not shocking. 6 years of time to complete an elementary school, a middle school, three neighborhoods of the construction task. It's not much of an achievement, but listening to the children read aloud, watching the owners return to their homes after a busy day's work, warming up and getting together for dinner, the heart is still inevitably a little proud.
The daily activity track is three points and one line (company, construction site, dormitory) and occasionally on the supermarket to purchase some daily necessities, the whole range of activities in the diameter of no more than one kilometer. The days are very plain, very single and very lonely.
The next shift back to the dormitory is usually willing to go out again. The wife's nagging, the daughter's laughter is missing. The only thing that accompanies you is the glowing fluorescent lights and the projection of your own shadow under the lights. Less angry, less some of the fireworks of life, leaving behind an endless night and loneliness.
The company has a lot of colleagues, basically local people. The company has a lot of colleagues, basically all local people. After work, basically all of them go back to their own homes, and there are also and friends get together and drink. The company's main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers, so that they can enjoy the best of both worlds.
When you are alone, the flow of time is slowed down by the silence of the environment. Some people say that a person can find himself alone, but day after day, I became more and more confused, and even lost themselves. Inside, I kept asking: what is the point of coming to such an unfamiliar place without friends and family, and enduring the never-ending loneliness day in and day out?
The company arranged for my dormitory is still very good, two rooms and one hall. The company's decision is based on the fact that the company's products and services have been well received by the public and the public. The company also has a well-organized kitchen, so you can improve your own food from time to time, and do something you want to eat in your hometown.
The door to the other room is basically closed. When I occasionally open the door to ventilate the room, it's basically just full of dust. Although it is dirty, although every time I will silently clean it, but I have no desire to clean it within myself.
It's not that I don't love cleanliness, but I always feel that it doesn't belong to me. The dormitory is my residence, but it is not a home. The dormitory is a shelter from the wind and rain, but it lacks warmth and companionship.
Occasionally, when I am really lonely, I will go out of the dormitory to take a stroll. Looking at the street that big hand holding small hands of happiness, embracing and sitting in murmuring couples, but also the popularity of the square dance. Everyone's face is full of satisfaction and happy smile. Time flows, the street stall vendors are busy packing up their belongings, hurrying to their homes, because their families are waiting for him.
Looking at the scene in front of me, I can't help but feel frustrated and lost. It's as if you're displaced from these images, and you're so out of place. Every time I come here, will be full of sadness silently back to the dormitory, because I envy everyone on the street. I can't stand the temptation of that kind of fulfillment and happiness. You can only silently comfort yourself alone, and your wife and daughter are waiting for you to go home.
There have been times when I've thought about leaving here and going home without a second thought. However, the middle-aged himself less youthful young man more less than the courage and capriciousness of the hands do not do. In order to daughter's growth, in order to the monthly mortgage can only silently bear all, although it is difficult. The most important thing to remember is that it is not easy to find the best way to get the most out of your life, but the best way to get the most out of your life.
"Alone in a foreign land for a foreign guest every festive season double homesickness" such a sentence in the absence of a long time away from home is incomprehensible. As the saying goes, "A house of gold and silver is not as good as a house of grass". Because that's home, there is a home where there is happiness in order to feel at ease.
Outside the world again you are just a guest, the lights are only a flash in the pan.
Home is the inner guide, but also the inner trip is the home of the soul.