What kind of experience is a bad relationship with your father?

When I was a child, I was afraid of my father and worshipped him. I always feel a little proud when I mention my father When I grew up, I found that my father was not as perfect as I thought, and there were even some places that people looked down upon. But he still pretends to be a parent in front of you as always. He always educates you and causes disgust. From the beginning of forbearance to the sudden outbreak, one is to maintain the dignity of being a father, and the other is to prove that he is very independent. The two sides do not give in to each other, and exchanges are getting less and less. What's more, I was still fighting with my father when I was dreaming!