The confidant Astronaut Age 24 Occupation Computer programmer
QQQ, Qin told me that he has a boyfriend, let me bless her. Received this message, the heart has a kind of indescribable flavor. In the afternoon, a person with a guitar played the two of us are very favorite song --- "meet", the sound of the piano melodious, still can not stop me from the past memories.
Key sentence 1
"Who I met will have what kind of dialogue, I waited for him in the future, I heard the wind from the subway and the sea of people, I lined up to take the number plate of love". Qin seemed to want to use this song to tell me something, but neither of us said anything, just a strange feeling arose in our hearts.
Key Verse 2
Qin didn't cry or make a scene, she just gently dried the tears at the corners of my eyes with her fingertips and kissed me with her warm lips. Everyone can accuse me of being a complete and utter heartbreaker, but no one can stop me from loving someone.
Loving my little sister
Qin was one grade below me. At that time, she ventured into our class's alumni directory and left her QQ, saying that she wanted to get to know our group of senior brothers and sisters. I added her as a friend without much thought.
I'm not a big fan of chatting, but I'm an exception to the rule. Chatting seems to be a part of my life, and the first thing I do when I get back to my dorm room is to turn on my computer and look for that familiar avatar. Although most of the talk is about college life, but the two people talk about it, not paying attention, it is pulled into the middle of the night. I already had a girlfriend at the time, and I was very careful to cross that line.
One day, Qin suddenly sent a message to me, asked me if I was free, to help her move two boxes, I did not hesitate to go, at that time in my eyes, she was just a very chatty schoolmate. In her dormitory downstairs, I met Qin for the first time, she is a very compassionate girl, eyes deep and penetrating, the first look, let me like this girl, is the kind of brother and sister love.
I helped Qin move the boxes upstairs, and she thanked me all the way, making me feel embarrassed.
Being accidentally bumped into by my girlfriend
Just when the two of us were talking and laughing and walking down the stairs, in the doorway, accidentally bumped into my girlfriend, she did not say anything on her lips, but I felt the displeasure on her face, and hurriedly said goodbye to Qin.
We were in the last semester of our third year of college, and everyone was desperately trying to get all kinds of certificates for future employment. The girlfriend is no exception, she enrolled in the senior interpreter, with the examination date is getting closer, her temper becomes more and more grumpy, often something to find my fault, this time to catch my pigtail, a war is inevitable.
The day I argued with my girlfriend for a long time, very late to the dormitory, in fact, my girlfriend in front of people always show a bird-like appearance, in the eyes of others, we are the most beautiful and the happiest pair. However, whenever you are with me, your girlfriend always looks like she is being unreasonable, and you have to cope with pressure from all sides, but also have to cope with your girlfriend who may explode at any time, and I really feel very tired.
Like usual, I am all tired to open the computer, just on the QQ, I saw the qin gave me a message, "Am I in trouble, give you trouble, sorry." Understanding is the lovely thing about Qin, just in this moment, my good feeling towards Qin added a few more points.
Three days later, my girlfriend and I got back together, and the premise of the good, of course, is that I give in, and is to make amends and apologies, almost did not pour tea to admit fault. This kind of breakup, has become our routine, for which I have long been accustomed to. The only thing that hasn't changed is that I still love my girlfriend, although I can't tolerate her capriciousness and irrationality, but loving her has become a habit in my life.
A song to draw close to the feelings
Since the girlfriend knows the existence of the piano, in order to avoid unnecessary conflicts, I deliberately keep a distance from the piano, although, a back to the dormitory to open the computer has become my habit, but I am always in the way of incognito log in, the piano's avatar began to be bright, not long, but also into the dark, I don't know, she is no longer on the QQ, or the same as me, invisible, perhaps, she sensed that I am not the same, but the same way, the same as me, the same as me. I'm not sure if it's because she's no longer on QQ, or because she's just as invisible as I am. Perhaps she sensed my deliberate avoidance.
That day, my girlfriend and I again for some small things to talk, mood is very depressed, want to find a friend to talk about, I thought of the piano, I opened the QQ, not long, the piano's "avatar" bright. Qin did not ask me why so long not on QQ, just said to play a song for me to listen to, "I met who will have what kind of dialogue, I waited for him in how far the future, I heard the wind from the subway and the sea of people, I lined up with the love of the number plate. Qin seemed to want to use this song to tell me something, but neither of us said anything, just a strange feeling arose in our hearts.
The following days, I have been playing this song "Meet" in the dormitory, slowly I feel like this song, especially its lyrics, I tried to write down the score, in the QQ video chat, I play the guitar while gently humming this song, the net line that end of the qin, moved to tears. The relationship between us started from there and underwent a subtle change.
The afflicted see true love
Summer vacation soon came, the girlfriend intends to go home, I sent her to the train station, all the way to the speechless, I don't know what to say, perhaps my feelings have begun to slowly derailed. On the platform, my girlfriend received a large bag of snacks I bought, urged me to call and send a message to her every day, and when you have time to help her collect some sound information, commanding tone as in the past.
Possibly because I was busy with exams and experiments a while ago, I fell ill the day after my girlfriend left. The brothers in the dormitory had long gone back home, leaving me alone, stumbling to the school infirmary, the doctor gave me some medicine and an IV drip, when a person is sick, he especially longs for the concern of friends. I thought of Qin, I sent a message to her, ten minutes later, Qin's figure appeared in front of my eyes, just in that moment, my thought line of defense completely collapsed.
Qin is a very careful and thoughtful girl, she helped me to buy water, but also from the dormitory to bring a pillow, so that I can lean on the pillow comfortable. At dinner, I did not have an appetite, I could not eat anything, she also specially ran to the school, bought the skin eggs and thin meat porridge. I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to do this, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it in a few days.
Under her care, my illness soon got better, and I intended to pack my bags and go home. That day, Qin ran to the dormitory downstairs to look for me, down the stairs, I was very nervous, I can not say what the reason, in order not to be familiar with people bumped into, to avoid unnecessary trouble, I pulled her to a secluded corner. Qin told me she liked me and I felt my heart drop, I couldn't refuse her hug even though I was saying no.
Choosing to run away
In order to paralyze myself and to give more time to think things through, I chose to run away, and I left the school with my backpack on, and I told Qin that I was going back home to Anhui. In reality, I still stayed in the city, I got an internship in an advertising agency, and my busy schedule tossed me around so much that I didn't have time to sort out the thousands of things that were going on between me and Qin and my girlfriend.
Two months later, I returned to school with two thousand dollars in my pocket. My girlfriend was also back, but it just seemed like we had become strangers to each other after not seeing each other for two months. I spent two hundred dollars to treat my girlfriend to a buffet, she seemed to be unable to lift her spirits and looked very worrying, the closer the exam time, the more nervous she was. I reassured her that the big deal was to take the test next year. I don't know if it was this comment that annoyed her, she cried and said, it's the fourth year of college, if you don't take the exam, you won't have a chance, she kept complaining about me, only know how to muddle through, don't know how to get ahead.
I didn't argue anything because it was futile. So I excused myself to get a drink and left my seat, and just then my cell phone rang. I saw Qin's avatar, then remembered, had used the phone to take a picture of her, but also set her photo as her text message caller ID, I immediately grabbed the phone, my girlfriend originally did not care about my cell phone, but saw my abnormal behavior, but alert, a grabbed my cell phone, Qin's photo is like a handful of hay, completely provoked his girlfriend, she stood up angrily, glared at me, "You're doing this to me? "That's how you treat me." With that she threw her phone hard on the floor, the restaurant was quiet then, all eyes were on me, I didn't explain anything and pushed her out of the restaurant.
Breaking up with my girlfriend
That night, I thought a lot, I reread the text message that Qin sent me, she said she would wait for me until one day I would choose her, tears have unconsciously stayed down. Perhaps, my girlfriend and I can never go back to the past, between us in addition to quarrel or quarrel, long ago can not find when we were together that sweet.
I decided to break up with my girlfriend, at first, the qin did not care, the split between us, has long been part of our relationship. But Qin did not expect is that I this time is the iron heart, the whole seven days, we did not meet and did not call, the girlfriend felt the seriousness of the situation, but she did not look for me, but everywhere and people crying, said I am not, so all the spearheads are pointing at me, I became "the world's first negative", I find girlfriend, told her the reason for our breakup, and then I will be able to find a new girlfriend, and then I can see her. I found my girlfriend and told her that the reason we broke up was not the intervention of the piano, but that we could not find that kind of feeling between us anymore. My girlfriend didn't scold me or beat me, but kept begging me to give her another chance. My girlfriend has never been so weak in front of me, she has never called me names, she has never been so weak, looking at my girlfriend in tears, my heart softened.
That night, I found Qin, and I told her that I regretted not knowing her earlier, and that we were in the right place, met the right person, but not at a right time. Qin didn't cry or make a scene, but just gently dried the tears in the corner of her eyes with her fingertips for me, and kissed me with her warm lips. Everyone can accuse me of being a complete and utter heartbreaker, but no one can stop me from loving someone.
Perhaps, in the eyes of all people, all stories should have a happy ending, and I was forced to get back with my girlfriend for various reasons. I also know that right from the moment I got back together with my girlfriend, Chin's world completely collapsed. Since then, we seldom have contact with each other, perhaps we all want to let time to heal the heart of the trauma it.
But the story doesn't end here. Shortly before graduation, my girlfriend broke up with me because she had found a new home, and I accepted this reality calmly. Maybe this is all God's punishment for me, I had failed a person who loved me so much.
Knowing that Qin has a boyfriend, my heart is really indescribable, and I want to say that maybe I am not qualified to ask her to return to my side, so what I can do is just to silently bless her, everything is fine. The only thing she left me is my cell phone ringtone, the song we all like "meet".