The alley in my memory was really deep. When you look in from the outside of the alley, it's dark and there's no light at all.
Manlong had a childhood here, a green childhood. He misses it, and he told me that he likes that long dark alley, and he likes the days when there is no light.
I shook my head and said, "No, you can't like it, you have to get out of that alley, you have to, you have to."
Manlong raised his head, his half-length hair fluttering in the black wind, "Why can't I like it, what reason do I have not to like it. I was born under the bright sun, but grew up with black memories. Fights, brawls, bloodshed, injuries, inside the black memories, even the blood is dark red, that's all I have, all my memories. They didn't want me, and I gave up on them."
They, Manglong's relatives, a pair of perennially bickering parents, bickering as if no one else was there, bickering loudly and boisterously. In the midst of such bickering, Fullon stopped talking, stopped going to school, stopped even smiling, and eventually almost stopped coming home. But he would always wait for me at the intersection where I turned the corner at the end of study hall, and slowly fade into the darkness after escorting me to the brightly lit streetlight. Manglong's expression was in the shadows, I couldn't see it clearly, but I understood very well what kind of symbol it was.
"Come on home! Silver Silver. Don't tell your family that you're constantly
with me, then you won't be free."
Manlong is only two years older than me, yet he has already experienced the sorrows of the world. He only said that such a difference is only because I am a girl, he is a boy, but never never mentioned, I have a happy parental care, but he is often accompanied by black memories. Fullon seems to have no resentment, just really not a smile.
Second, the growing pains of injury
Ten years of time, black remains the same. Only the stars occasionally blinking flashes through the dazzling light, instantly faded.
When my fast-pulling head stood in front of Manlong, I only saw Manlong's eyes bright and dark. He took me into the long alley for the first time, this time the alley in the sunshine, showing a greenish-yellow face, and rustic and simple, full of Long's hand has been able to reach the high side of the alley wall, continue to the inside, you can explore what? Is it once lost or never forgotten? Is it impossible to start or never give up?
"Silver Silver, they really gave up on me, then, finally, I can also really give up on myself. Just, how did you come back again, and appear so truly in front of me." Fullon stood with his back to the sun, shadows cast on his face, stubbornly hardening his image. He had grown really tall, and I had to raise my chin to see his eyes.
"He hit her over the head with a bottle, and she pushed him down on the rocks, and she bled, and he died, and she was imprisoned, and she then couldn't stand the torture of captivity and killed herself, and so she died, too." Fullon opened and closed his lips softly, talking about his perpetually bickering parents, he didn't call them mom or dad, he just told the story of her and him.
I know. Manglong didn't hold a grudge, nor was he heartless, in fact, he buried them to the deepest part of his heart. Because it is hidden too deep, so you can not see that layer after layer of agitation of the pain.
Manlong, I would love to embrace you with the innate tenderness of a woman, you run, stop and stay ...... on the edge of pain and despair. You do not go in, you turn back. I am over here, outside the long alley, waiting for you, waiting for you, do you see?
At the other end of the alley, several men appeared, calling Manglong's name and asking him to come over.
Fullon spread out his palms, which had messy palm lines and rough palms. "I once held the hand of a girl in my place, and that momentary touch of skin has always sustained me." Said Manglong, clenching his palm again, "Now, I realize that what I hold tightly in my hand may be precisely what I cannot have."
"Fullon, I will be waiting for you at the mouth of the alley."
"Yin Yin, go back. Don't wait. I can't get out of my brothers' circle. I need to survive."
Turning away, Manglong has become less rigid, I clearly feel his has softened, I rushed at his back, a loud shout:
"Manglong, no matter what, we always have to smile and live. I can do it, you, too, must do it."
Yes, it must be done.
Third, sometimes lonely
"Yin Yin, --"
Outside the window was clearly Manglong calling me. The family did not speak, and their disapproval was clearly felt. However, I must go out to see Manglong, he never easily come to the door of the house of his own accord to look for me, what's more, I promised that I would wait for him at the entrance of the alley filled with sunshine, as long as he turns around, he will definitely see me.
It was raining outside, Manglong was standing in the rain, I walked over and took his hand, his hand was full of sweat and rain.
"What happened? Fullon." He looked at me and the corners of his mouth lifted upward gently, "Silver Silver, I can smile." "But your hands are shaking slightly, why?" "I just want to see you because, I miss you." "Come back if you miss me, I've been waiting for you."
This time Fullon didn't shake his head, much less run away. I reveled in his finally transformation.
"I've decided!" I said loudly, "I'm going to make the day it rains a day for both of us. Because, on this day, the cool Fullon smiled at Silver." Fullon pulled me closer and said, "Silver Silver, I want to live another life, a life with you present at all times, a life where I can leave my black memories behind, and you'll definitely stand by my side, won't you?"
"Yes, Fullon. As I promised, I will always be waiting for you in the Sunnylands, waiting for you to turn back, waiting for you to come back."
"Silver Silver, I'm scared to be by myself right now. It feels so lonely and helpless that way. I used to be beaten half to death by others without frowning, but now, when I think of you, I am afraid, afraid that I won't be able to see tomorrow's sun, and if I can't see tomorrow's sun, I won't be able to see you. My brothers all laughed at me, saying that I am sentimental and not like a man. Yin Yin, you will also laugh at me?"
I reached out and scraped the bridge of Manchu Long's nose. It was a gesture that I used to do to Manlong in the past. It was naughty, it was playful, and it was affectionate.
But seven days later, I had no news of Manglong, and he and his brothers seemed to have disappeared completely.
I stood outside the long alley, not daring to go in.
I stood outside that long alley, not daring to walk into it. Because, Fullon once said to me very sternly that I was absolutely not allowed to walk into the alley without him by my side.
So, seven days later is another seven days, seven days later is another seven days. The manlong disappeared in the moonlight, disappeared in the shadows, disappeared in the long alley.
Fourth, there are eyes in the fog
They came to me, and I had not seen any of them, but could always feel their presence. They were the ones who called out to Mangalong at the end of that long alley.
I walked past each of them, walking past them with a slow, slow pace.
"You're Silver Silver, aren't you." One of them, dressed in black, said, "If you see Manlong, please tell him that we will always be brothers, and in the future, we will not give him a hard time."
Until they dispersed, I was still standing in the same place. I knew clearly that something must have happened to Manlong. Although I can not go to guess with his kind of survival environment exactly what kind of things will happen, but, he is definitely something happened, Manchu Long's brother is still there, Manchu Long is not. So, has he gotten out of the circle of brothers? Or has he been wandering the world since then?
That time, from his brother, can be said to be the last time I get full of Long's "news". Until now, two years have passed, full of long still no news, a lot of time, I will be the last time the dialogue repeatedly recall, full of long said, he wants to change, although this change needs time, need strength. But he has decided to do it, and he will do it. No matter what, no matter when, anything is to smile, no matter where Manglong is at this moment, he will definitely be in insisting on what he wants to do, insisting on all the things he wants to change.
Silver Silver can do it.
Manlong, you must be able to do it too.