1
At the age of 43, Zhao Jing decided to have a second child.
This year, her husband, Wang Xinbo, had just been promoted to a higher position in his organization and was a real hand. Her daughter, Wang Xichen, is in her senior year at the best high school in the county, with excellent grades, and according to the results of the mock exams, there is no problem in getting into a major university.
And Zhao Jing herself is an elementary school math teacher, because of the attitude of rigorous and responsible, in the many years of teaching career has won the praise of students and parents.
Husband's ability, daughter's understanding, no matter which way it seems, Zhao Jing's family is a model family in the city. But as her daughter's college entrance exams approached, Zhao Jing became anxious. It's not that she's worried that her daughter won't do well in the exams, but that her family will fall apart.
The cause was a month ago.
As a result of urbanization, many places have expanded into new towns, and so has the county where their family lives. In order to bring popularity to the new town, the county government moved its office to the new town.
To make it easier to get to work and to be closer to their daughter's school, Mr. and Mrs. Zhao Jing bought a three-bedroom apartment in the new district and officially moved in a month ago.
The move came at a time when Wang Xinbo was in the early stages of his tenure, so Zhao Jing was the one who was busy with all the family's affairs. Because of this, Zhao Jing saw Wang Xinbo's diary when he was organizing the clutter.
When he was young, Wang Xinbo was a famous talent in this small town organization, writing reports for leaders at work and reading and writing poems at home after work.
He was not quite able to drink at that time, and did not like to socialize, his favorite thing is to read the book and write poems of inspiration in the diary, every write a book will be put away, saved a thick pile.
Because of this temperament, Zhao Jing took an immediate liking to him on a blind date. After the marriage, Wang Xinbo from the diary into weekly and monthly, and then never saw him write anything.
If it weren't for the move, Zhao Jing would have almost forgotten that her husband was once a literary youth. At the time, she looked at a big box full of books and hesitated whether to throw them away or keep them.
She casually flipped up the top book, wanting to find what her husband used to look like. As soon as she flipped it open, she was a little disappointed; it was full of running entries that looked like her husband's work memos. Just as she was about to close the notebook, she found a very small line on the title page: Rulan, when Chenchen finishes his college entrance exams, I will be free.
What does this line mean? At first, Zhao Jing didn't understand it, but when she did, she felt a chill on her back, her husband was ready to divorce her after her daughter's college entrance exams.
At that moment, she only felt a wave of dizziness, and no longer had the heart to organize any clutter. She lay on the sofa with her eyes closed, and her past life flashed before her eyes like a movie clip.
In fact, it didn't take long for the two to realize that their personalities didn't fit each other.
Wang Xinbo is an open-minded person who not only loves literature, but also loves all new things and has a strong desire to explore.
He was in a major university in Beijing on the university, during the university business, not only early to realize the economic independence, but also made a big city girlfriend.
If it weren't for his parents' fear that their only son would go too far, they would have tricked him into coming back with their lives on the line, and maybe he would have settled down in Beijing by now.
As for Zhao Jing, she has been a good girl since she was a child, listening to her family's advice on everything, studying for teacher training in the city yes, and marrying Wang Xinbo also. Such two people would not have come together if their fathers had not been extremely close comrades in arms.
In the father's set up, the two together not long after the marriage.
They also had a short sweet after marriage, when Wang Xinbo is still the youngest in the unit of the small section, talent has not been recognized by the leadership, do not have to work overtime often, and every day there is a large amount of time and Zhao Jing together.
Zhao Jing remembers that the happiest thing at that time was to make dinner with Wang Xinbo. Wang Xinbo was so smart that he could buy a recipe book and make a good meal, but she herself, being clumsy, could only give him a hand.
After dinner, they would go to the nearby park to walk around, when there was no square dancing, the park is very quiet, Wang Xinbo will sometimes tell her about the day job, and sometimes talk about the recent book, she told him how much of a headache those mischievous students in the school let her.
But the sweet days soon passed, and the words that could be said over and over again were pretty much said, deeper topics, Wang Xinbo mentioned, but Zhao Jing could not pick up.
Gradually, in the eyes of Wang Xinbo, Zhao Jing became a dull and uninteresting woman, and he no longer forced himself to fall in love with this kind of person.
Realizing that her husband did not love her was half a year after her marriage, Wang Xinbo's ex-girlfriend came to the city on a business trip and had dinner with the couple as an old classmate.
Zhao Jing was unaware of the two men's former relationship, but saw the signs in their conversation.
They chatted so passionately, not only remembering the past, but also talking about each other's current lives, many of which Wang Xinbo had never said to Zhao Jing.
Looking at her husband's glowing face, Zhao Jing was very sad because the light in his eyes never shone for herself.
Zhao Jing is not a person who is good at arguing, and after that dinner, she hid all her anger towards her husband in her heart. Wang Xinbo, on the other hand, didn't even notice the change in his wife and only felt that she had become unreasonable.
If it wasn't for the discovery that she was pregnant, Zhao Jing would have had no idea how the cold war would have ended.
2
Because of the three generations of the Wang family, everyone in the Wang family is full of anticipation for the little life in Zhao Jing's belly, and Wang Xinbo is even more so. Not only did he take over the affairs of the family, but he also bowed down to Zhao Jing and did everything he could, and for the first time, Zhao Jing experienced what it was like to be held by her husband in the heart of her hand.
After the birth of his daughter, although his mother-in-law was not very satisfied, Wang Xinbo was very happy, and voluntarily did a daughter slave.
From changing diapers and feeding powdered milk when she was young to picking up and dropping off her daughter when she grew up and tutoring her homework, he did it himself, and sometimes Zhao Jing couldn't bear to watch, thinking that her husband was pampering her too much.
But because of this, Zhao Jing is no longer worried about having nothing to say to her husband, and her daughter's growth has created a constant topic of conversation for them.
A few more years passed, and when her daughter was in first grade, someone told Zhao Jing that Wang Xinbo was particularly close to a certain woman, and reminded her to keep a close eye on her husband.
Wang Xinbo did come home late every day during that time, according to him, because his superiors came to inspect the unit, and the unit had to work overtime.
But Zhao Jing did not believe that she and Wang Xinbo had been sleeping in separate beds at that time, and their conjugal life was few and far between. She did not believe that a normal man could have no needs, and perhaps he was just not interested in her anymore.
So on a drizzly night, she followed her husband. She saw Wang Xinbo walk into the flat alone, and two hours later, walked out with a young woman, the two of them talking and laughing, walking to an intersection and then separating.
They didn't do anything out of line, but Zhao Jing saw that light in Wang Xinbo's eyes again, the same way he looked at his ex-girlfriend.
She then inquired about the woman's identity, her name was Rulan, a colleague of Wang Xinbo's, who had just joined the workforce not long ago, and the two of them spent time together and fell in love over time.
She took the information she had gathered and questioned Wang Xinbo, not realizing that he would readily admit it. He said their marriage was a mistake and now he wanted to right it. As long as his daughter was his, he could do without anything.
She didn't expect her husband to be so frank, not even an apology, and thought that in the past few years she had given birth to his children and taken care of the elderly, but in the end it was just a mistake in his eyes. She was very indignant and decided that she could not let him down so cheaply.
On a weekend, Wang Xinbo took his daughter to the zoo, and in the most lively tiger garden, his daughter stood on the tiger watching platform, looking at the king of beasts below, and suddenly said aloud to Wang Xinbo, "Dad, if you dare to divorce my mom, I'm going to jump from here."
The people next to us all looked at the father and daughter with surprise, and Wang Xinbo was also startled. Especially at his daughter's innocent face, a chill ran through his heart. Is this still his own daughter? No, at this moment she was a puppet in Zhao Jing's hands.
Wang Xinbo thought rightly that all this was what Zhao Jing taught her daughter. She knew that her husband's weakness was her daughter, so she took advantage of her husband's absence to tell her daughter about her husband's intention to find a stepmother for her.
The daughter, who has been favored and pampered since she was a child, naturally refuses to do so when she learns that her father's love will be taken away by someone else, and that's why she staged the scene at the zoo under Zhao Jing's tutelage.
In case his daughter really did something stupid, Wang Xinbo compromised, and he became a good husband and father again in the eyes of others, but this incident has always been like a thorn, y rooted in his heart.
Now, the daughter has half a year on the college entrance examination, the end of the college entrance examination, Wang Xinbo no longer have to worry about the impact of the family changes to the daughter, she has no control over her husband's weight, can not stand by and watch her husband abandon the family, to find the so-called "freedom"?
Zhao Jing was not willing to do so.
But at that moment she didn't know how to salvage the family, and could only put her husband's diary away, pretending that she had never seen it before.
3
"Sister, you quickly come to the hospital, our father just fainted at home!" Early in the morning, Zhao Jing received a call from her younger brother Zhao Lei, so anxious that she hurriedly asked for leave from school and rushed toward the hospital.
"What's going on?" When she arrived at the hospital, Zhao Jing saw her father already lying on the hospital bed with an IV drip hanging from his hand.
"The doctor said that our father has the precursor of a stroke, and has already prescribed medication, but he must still be hospitalized for a few days for observation." Zhao Lei replied.
A few years ago, after her mother's cerebral hemorrhage were father's care, and now her mother is just getting better, and her father's body is collapsing again. It was only in middle age that Zhao Jing felt this pressure of having an old man on top and a young man on the bottom.
"Right, where's brother-in-law, he didn't come with you?" Zhao Lei asked.
"He's on a business trip, he won't be back until next week." Mentioning this, Zhao Jing felt aggrieved, Wang Xinbo went out of town on a business trip for a week, and so far not a single phone call has been made to her, but it is her daughter who receives phone calls from him every night to supervise her studies.
"Then wait for brother-in-law to come back, you let him find an expert in this area for our father, consulting advice, he has such a wide range of contacts, surely know a lot of such people." Zhao Lei said.
"Got it, when he comes back I'll give him a word." Although there was anger in his heart, Zhao Jing knew that when Wang Xinbo was needed in life, he never dropped the ball, this point was his good.
"There's something else I want you to help beg my brother-in-law." Zhao Lei pulled Zhao Jing outside the hospital room and whispered to her.
"What's wrong with you again?" Zhao Jing frowned, this younger brother was never a relief, from school to work to marriage, there wasn't a single thing that he could handle on his own. If it wasn't for her and Wang Xinbo contributing money and effort, I'm afraid he would have accomplished nothing by now.
"I partnered with a friend to open an advertising company, and I want my brother-in-law to contact some business." Zhao Lei was all smiles.
"Open a company?" Zhao Jing was taken aback and questioned, "You don't look at your own skills, and you're learning how to open a company, can't you honestly work your shift?"
"You find me that crap job, only five thousand dollars a month, not enough to eat, not enough to drink, for this, my daughter-in-law and I are going to divorce!"
"You still have the face to talk about work, at first to find you a lot of good, you are either too tired, or too far away from home, for you to change the work of the matter, I and your brother-in-law how much anger, you are not unaware of, how to do it now and tired of it?" Thinking of her brother's indisputable appearance, Zhao Jing was furious.
"Sister, just help me one more time." Zhao Lei pulled Zhao Jing's arm and begged, "There are so many organizations and units, there must be places that need advertising agencies. As long as my brother-in-law is willing to ask and let me take on a small job of making publicity signs and issuing flyers, this company of ours will be able to do its job."
"Look at our father's face, the place where money is used is still in the future, and always let you bear the burden alone, I also look at the heartache is not. If I make a name for myself this time, and have money, then you won't have to worry about everything for us."
"You are this mouth is good to hear, one day if I and your brother-in-law divorced, I see you still heartache me!" Zhao Jing sneered.
"Look at what you said, brother-in-law is so good to you, and has just been promoted, how could he divorce you." Zhao Lei said.
"What do you know." Zhao Jing said helplessly.
Zhao Lei looked at his sister's face and said with a straight face, "Sister, it can't be serious. He Wang Xinbo just promoted and divorced you, this is called ingratitude, I as a brother-in-law the first can not spare him!"
"What are you yelling about!" Zhao Jing hurriedly heated, "I just casually said, you are serious. See what you can do, you can't spare him when you don't rely on him for anything."
But after all was said and done, her brother's words made her feel much better. She really feel much better. To say that the daughter is Wang Xinbo's soft underbelly, this brother is her soft underbelly. In the end, under her brother's softening, she still agreed to his request.
When Wang Xinbo came back, Zhao Jing told him about these two things, and without surprise, he was very quick to agree.
Sometimes Zhao Jing thought, husband and wife for so many years, they are not like lovers, but more like relatives. She, including her family, was dependent on him, and once she left him, it would be difficult for her to return to her current life.
4
"Rulan, when Chenchen's college entrance exams are over, I will be free." Wang Xinbo's words always surfaced in her mind from time to time, making her restless, obviously out of shape at work, and giving her students a series of mistakes.
"Ms. Zhao, do you have something going on at home lately?" Zhang Xianliang, from the same teaching team, asked her one day.
"No, why do you ask?" Zhao Jing's heart sank.
"I see that you're always dazed these days, like you have something on your mind." Zhang Xianliang said, with a probing look.
"Oh, it's not about Chenchen's grades, the boy has been a bit lax in his studies lately." Zhao Jing pulled an impromptu cover.
"In that case, your Chenchen's grades are so good, there's no need for you to worry blindly. Unlike the one in my house, since he started his first year of high school, he's been thinking about playing games all day long. Said what junior three is too hard, now want to relax relax." Zhang Xianliang had a son, two years younger than Zhao Jing's daughter, who was in his first year at the city's key high school.
"Boys well, playfulness is normal." Zhao Jing said with a smile.
Suddenly, as if she remembered something, she asked Zhang Xianliang: "I heard that your daughter-in-law is out of the month, how is she recovering now?"
"Aiya, don't mention it. She's recovering well, but it's me who's exhausted every day. I don't know what's going on, but she's even more petulant than when she was pregnant with her eldest, and last night she said she wanted to eat lychee at ten o'clock, causing me to spend most of the night wandering around the city."
"You're willing to do it, I don't think you'll be taking the homeroom this semester." Zhao Jing said. Since Zhang Xianliang's daughter-in-law gave birth to her second child, Zhang Xianliang had put off his original status as homeroom teacher.
"It's just too busy." Zhang Xianliang said helplessly, and then he changed his tone: "But busy as busy, every day when I go home and hear my little son babbling and shouting for his father, I feel that how busy is also worth it."
"They say men love their daughters, don't you feel pressured by your two sons now?" Zhao Jing said as she looked at Zhang Xianliang.
"I was worried before I gave birth, I always think it's better to have two sons and daughters, but when I gave birth, I didn't feel that way, it's like I'm back to my first time as a father. I don't want to do anything else now, I just want to earn more money in the future, to create a good living conditions for the two children."
Zhang Xianliang's words gave Zhao Jing some kind of revelation, and when the country just opened up to two children, Wang Xinbo also mentioned wanting a second child, especially a son, at his mother-in-law's persuasion.
But Zhao Jing refused because of her age, and Wang Xinbo never mentioned it again.
Now she thinks that if she can have a son, not only will she be able to secure her position in her in-laws' home, but she will also be able to win back Wang Xinbo's heart.
On the contrary, if she doesn't give birth to this second child now, it may be born by another woman in the future.
After making up her mind, she first went to the hospital for a physical examination. She called her mother-in-law to go with her, who was very happy to hear that her daughter-in-law was preparing for her second child, and quickly told Wang Xinbo, who was working, that he should cut down on socializing in the future and come home on time.
Wang Xinbo was surprised when he got the call, and instead of going out to dinner with his friends as usual, he had a long talk with Zhao Jing at home after work that night. That night, they talked the most since they got married.
Wang Xinbo said he was worried that having a second child at this time would affect his daughter's college entrance exams, while Zhao Jing thought it would be a good idea to let her daughter live in school, which would be conducive to her studies on the one hand, and on the other hand, she wouldn't be able to easily find out she was pregnant.
Wang Xinbo added that Zhao Jing is getting older and is worried that her body won't be able to cope. Zhao Jing retorted that there were many people around her who had children at the same age, and she had not heard of any accidents.
Wang Xinbo wanted to say something else, but everything he said seemed to Zhao Jing to be just an excuse to get away from her, and in turn she became more convinced that if she had another child, Wang Xinbo would never leave her.
She secretly went to her mother-in-law's house without Wang Xinbo's knowledge and cried that Wang Xinbo did not want a son.
She said that the Wang family has three generations of single heir, if she did not give him a son, then the Wang family will be extinct, and her mother-in-law will never be able to hold a grandson.
She knelt down and told her mother-in-law that she was sorry and that she was incapable of persuading her husband.
Her mother-in-law was infected by her, and like the time when she forced Wang Xinbo to return to the county seat, she once again tried to make him give birth to a child.
Wang Xinbo is a very filial person, this time he gave in again. He let his daughter to focus on learning in the name of her residential school, but also put an end to a few years of separate bed life, the two slept together again.
Because the results of her pre-pregnancy medical checkup weren't ideal, Zhao Jing paid a lot of attention to preparing for pregnancy this time. Not only did she go to bed early and get up early every day, run and exercise, and eat all kinds of nutrients, but she also asked Wang Xinbo to quit smoking and drinking, and cut down on socializing.
Shortly after, Zhao Jing became pregnant. The whole family was happy, except for Wang Xinbo.
But Zhao Jing, who thought she had control over her husband again, had no time to pay attention to her husband's emotions, and her main task now was to prepare for the pregnancy and wait for the birth.
5
It's true that the years have not been kind to her, and Zhao Jing, who had a smooth delivery with her first child, didn't expect her second child to be so hard.
She remembers that when she was pregnant with her oldest child, apart from the first three months when she had a hard time and vomited, the rest of the time she ate and drank like nobody's business. The labor went smoothly, and her daughter came out not long after she went into the delivery room.
And this time, it's been more than five months, and I'm still having a lot of pregnancy sickness, and everything tastes different when it comes to my mouth.
My mother-in-law had been cooking soup for her all day long, but she didn't have any appetite at all.
In order to keep the baby in the hospital, she was accompanied by her mother-in-law and her nanny.
Compared with her mother-in-law, Wang Xinbo's performance made Zhao Jing less satisfied. Although he took the initiative to hire a nanny for her, he also ignored her as a result. And not long after she became pregnant, he slept in a separate room from her again on the grounds that his snoring would affect her rest.
Afterward, he practically made the office his home, not only always coming home late, but also ignoring Zhao Jing when he got home, either playing with his cell phone or going straight into the bedroom and closing the door to sleep.
Zhao Jing knew that he was angry in his heart, but she pretended not to care, thinking that after the baby was born, it would all change for the better.
One night, Wang Xinbo came home drunk. Instead of going straight to his room as usual, he kicked open the door to Zhao Jing's room and pulled Zhao Jing, who was already asleep, to her feet. (Novel Name: "A High-Age Maternity's Second Child's Door of Life and Death", Author: Jiang Erqian. From:Read some stories every day to see more