First write about love, the most beautiful love.
Luo Qiqi has been in love with Zhang Jun since elementary school.
Both of them are neglected children at home, and the same loneliness makes them see each other.
Also disliked by the same teacher, also awakened by Mr. Gao's encouragement, and also find confidence under Mr. Gao's love.
When Luo Qiqi started to like Zhang Jun, I can't remember clearly. I only remember that sunny afternoon, at the riverside, Zhang Jun lay on the pebbles and fell asleep. Qiqi held up her hat and blocked the sunshine for Zhang Jun. In QIQI's heart, she said softly: "Zhang Jun, if you keep sleeping, I am willing to shield you from the sun all the time". When QIQI didn't realize it, Zhang Jun already woke up, he was sweet in his heart, pretended he didn't wake up, closed his eyes, and sneaked at QIQI. The pure love of young boys and girls, so beautiful.
Later, Zhang Jun has a girlfriend, wearing a big red dress, singing to Zhang Jun? The red dress, singing to Zhang Jun?
Later, Zhang Jun had a girlfriend, wearing a big red dress, singing ?
Later, Zhang Jun and his girlfriend broke up, coinciding with Qiqi's birthday, Xiaobo accompanied her to buy a skirt, white background on behalf of their own, red polka dots on behalf of the big red skirt (Zhang Jun's girlfriend), the bow at the waist with a little innocence. In order to celebrate her birthday, Li's cabaret was closed for one day, leaving the whole dance floor for QIQI and Xu Xiaobo. When the music started and Qiqi and Xiaobo danced, Zhang Jun and his big brother came in. At this time, Zhang Jun's heart, marveled at the beauty of Qiqi (my family has a daughter who is growing up), and at this time, Qiqi's heart is thinking: "Celebrate the breakup of Zhang Jun and the big red dress".
Later on, Zhang Jun silently protected Qiqi a few times behind her back. Every time Qiqi got into trouble and offended her big brother, it was Zhang Jun who made a big deal out of it. The hearts of young boys and girls are really hard to guess, a Lang intention, but pretend to be unintentional. A concubine has feelings, but pretend not to like.
The two of them meet each other every time in the "unintentional". Because I know that Qiqi will go to pay tribute to Mr. Gao every New Year's Eve, every year, Zhang Jun is ready to go, Qiqi arrived. Whenever QIQI saw Zhang Jun's motorcycle downstairs and wondered whether to go in or not, Zhang Jun appeared. Many, many years later, Qiqi realized that Zhang Jun wanted to see her and created so many "chance encounters".
The climax was at the Qingdao summer camp. Because of the excellent grades, Qiqi was sent to participate in the summer camp, and Zhang Jun specially for her to follow along. At the beginning, Qiqi all kinds of awkward, do not meet with Zhang Jun, do not sit with Zhang Jun, think Zhang Jun everywhere squeeze her, seven or eight buddies, because the two of them make trouble, make the atmosphere awkward. Later, the careful female classmates saw the clues, Zhang Jun took the initiative to sit with Qiqi, followed Qiqi without saying a word, Qiqi was angry, why do you have to follow the aggrieved, why do you have to let me make a fool of myself in front of everyone, why do you have to let me face you. In the end, Zhang Jun's attentiveness and thoughtfulness melted her heart, and the two of them finally got together.
"In the early morning of summer, a beam of sunlight shot in through the car window and shone on his face. The windows are dark blue, the light is filtered into different shades of blue, as the car moves, the deep and light blue are jumping happily, while he is extremely quiet, in a piece of crystalline mango swept leap, gorgeous light flow, he is peaceful, sweet sleep.
Suddenly, a scene from many years ago came back to mind, the brilliant summer sunlight spilling down through the treetops, the river rushing past, he lay on the boulder quietly asleep, the warm wind blowing across our fingertips, very warm, very cozy ......"
On the night before leaving Qingdao, looking at the view from the rooftop , he suddenly said, "I'm so happy."
I was surprised to look at him sideways, he said again: "I'm so happy."
I gradually realized what he meant and whispered, "Me too."
He violently held my hand and very loudly yelled to the sky, "When we get married in the future, come to Qingdao for our honeymoon."
? When I recalled this passage in the book, the innocent and sweet feeling of young boys and girls filled my heart so beautifully. It was too good to be trapped in and not to leave. Maybe that's why since ancient times the literati wrote so many beautiful chapters for the sake of love. Asked the world what is love, straight to call people life and death.
Unfortunately, the young Qiqi and Zhang Jun are too low self-esteem, too do not know how to love. Zhang Jun took care of QIQi carefully and held her in his heart. And QIQI thinks Zhang Jun is very handsome, many girls like and jealous. And when you are young, you don't know how to express your emotions correctly, you will only use gambling and testing to judge whether the other party loves you. Qiqi intentionally and Shen Yuanzhe close, to test Zhang Jun will not come to her; Zhang Jun intentionally and Guan He close, to see whether Qiqi care about him. This love, because both of them are too hard, and eventually farther and farther away. Break up time, the two hearts are reluctant, are very painful, just then too young. Ten years later, looking back, one by one details surfaced in the heart, tears blurred eyes.
After ten years, she only understood a truth, the heart wants to have to say it, people will know.
Qiqi reopened the wooden box sealed back then, one by one, each carrying childhood memories. She wrote a letter to Guan He:
Guan He:
I am Luo Qiqi, this is a letter that is many years late. It may no longer be necessary, but if I don't do it, I can't have peace of mind.
When Zhang Jun and I proposed to break up, I seemed to be full of care, with loud laughter and hilarity to force down the sadness, in fact, in my heart to him have their own did not notice the hatred, hate him to let down my feelings, hate him do not like me any more, hate him promised promises are turned into a lie, so I will intentionally in front of him as if nothing happened to smile, intentionally and Shen Yuanzhe go home with, intentionally let other people misunderstand! Shen Yuanzhe and I are in love. Telling him with actions, who cares if you like me or not? I am happier without you, and there are others who care about me without you.
But the sadness that was forcibly suppressed because it was never released, with the time slowly fermentation, the more I want to forget in turn, the more I can not forget, just I do not have the courage to turn back, can only go forward.
In the past few days, I was in my hometown, sitting in the campus where we used to study together, thinking back to these past things, I found that my resentment and sadness in turn slowly calmed down.
The breakup of Zhang Jun and I does have something to do with you, but it also has nothing to do with you. Maybe ten years ago, I said this sentence, you will not understand, but now I think you should understand what I mean. When young love, very sincere, but under the sincere is clumsy, because immature clumsiness leads to hurt and be hurt. The older you get, the more mature you will become in dealing with love, but the sincerity and clumsiness that characterize those first loves are only once, so as the years go by, all the harm will be gradually forgotten, and only the beauty is remembered.
The more I recall these days, the more sure I am that Zhang Jun has loved me wholeheartedly, and I am very lucky to have been loved by him like that. I lost him because I had loved him clumsily back then, and my pride, low self-esteem, sensitivity and stubbornness hurt him, not because of you.
Guan He, you don't need to blame yourself for my breakup with Zhang Jun, please forgive yourself."
And at the end of the story, Zhang Jun opened QIQi's folded Lucky Star and saw QIQi's words written on it:
"I'll tell you a secret, I don't like picking up stones, I just like picking up stones with you."
"You fell asleep on the boulder, I used my cool hat to help you cover the sun, as long as you are sleeping, I am willing to cover the sun for you forever."
"The first time I moved to you was that day with hail, you said you would protect me."
Zhang Jun immediately picked up his suitcase, drove rushed to the place where they grew up, came to the creek that carries their memories, saw a figure across the creek, wearing a white T-shirt, blue jeans, picking up a piece of stone, wiping it clean on his body, and threw it back into the water......
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The story of first love is too beautiful to break. Attached are a few photos taken back on campus with classmates at the end of July to commemorate the youth we once had.