The years have gone by, but the love is still there. After experiencing the bumps and bruises, I finally realized the significance of affection.
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(A) Insecure child
I've always known myself as an insecure, capricious, selfish child. Because I grew up without the affection and warmth I should have had, my mental journey has been quite hard. I have to learn to control my panic and irritability, and make a lotus appearance in the crowd, fragrant and elegant.
For as long as I can remember, my childhood, teenage years, and into adulthood, I've seen almost nothing but endless bickering and tirades between my parents or beatings of each other. They spent too much time living and complaining to care about the spiritual growth of my brother and me. So much so, that both of us lack the ability to communicate and get along with people normally.
Such a child, even if he is smart, his heart is not confident, low self-esteem. Because of the desire for warmth, desire for attention, so he had to go all the time to figure out other people's minds. Even if people a subtle look, unintentionally in his inner world can scrape up enough to overturn the world of the hurricane. This is the first time that I've ever seen a child in the world, and I've never seen a child in the world who has never been in the world.
I am such a child, even if the face of the old, the heart is missing that should enjoy the childhood, always refused to grow up. Over the years, the bumpy feelings, crazy love, rough self-inflicted injuries, so that I am bruised and battered. The softness and charm in front of people is actually covering up the deep fear in my heart.
I love a man, will be to forget themselves. The city, lowered eyebrows, prostrate in the dust, with almost slavish humility to please each other. But I don't know, love, like a duel. Both sides must be equal, otherwise, you do not even have the qualification to participate.
Easy to say love, easy to let go. But in every sleepless night with tears tossed to the thin morning sun. The first thing that you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots, and then you'll be able to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do this, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it, and I'll be able to do it.
Well, in the old age, read a lot of books, slowly understand some of the truth. Although some of the late, but not in vain to come to this world once. The parents are still there, the quarrels are still there, the grown-up children gradually understand their troubles and knots. The first thing I want to do is to make sure that I have a good understanding of what is going on in my life.
(2) Mother's Birthday
Yesterday, it was mother's birthday. I decided to take my husband back to the party this time. I called my mom and she was so happy that she didn't know what to say. She had been looking forward to this day for a long time.
My brother and I, because of a little dispute when I was young, although on the surface also get along. The heart is clearly cool. Although all so care about each other. As a child, the two people *** with the face of the parents fist and feet when the love has been like an ancient pine roots on the mountain, y rooted in each other's hearts.
At one time, they did not know how to express their love and how to get along with each other.
Hubby is also very excited. The factory took a vacation and dressed up properly. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes, and you're going to be able to do that. The first time I saw this is when I was a little girl, and it was a little bit of a joke. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on a new one, but I'm sure you're going to be able to get a good deal on a new one. It's him, this man, the lukewarm character embraces all my bad temper and the past.
Brother now has his own `private car, not very good, but also can. This year, a new forklift, a large transport truck, I have not seen so far, but also really proud of him. That year because of the fight, the lawsuit, and had to drag the relationship to go to the army of the teenager, now finally a big success.
I said to my husband, we also have three cars. He looked at me. One, bicycle. Two, battery car. Third, motorcycle.
Hubby laughed. Since that year, he reversed the car accident, then cut off the idea of driving. And I, although I have a driver's license, but the nature of the lazy, do not want to spend the few energy. Especially now that life has become more comfortable, I have started to lose weight. I had to buy a bicycle to exercise.
The first time I saw this, I had to buy a bicycle to exercise, and then I had to go back to the office to get a new one.
The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new car, and then you'll be able to get your hands on a new car.
Because of the mother's birthday, after many years of stalemate, the family once again reunited, lively sitting together. My sister-in-law pulled me, affectionately asked my brother, look, I wore high heels, we two who is high?
The younger brother laughed into a ball. By the way, remind me, the sister-in-law is very short, about one meter five or so. She was very pretty as a teenager, but had some trouble marrying because of her size. If I hadn't convinced my parents in the first place, they wouldn't have made it at all.
Hubby was there and laughed. Said, "Your sister's not tall, her hair is high.
He laughed at my new messy hair. Standard curly wool. The cheeky family, more lively than the Spring Festival. I saw my parents relieved and happy to stand there, like a chrysanthemum in the setting sun, a brilliant smile.
Where is the affection? Sometimes, do not wait for people to love you, you first touched people, they will slowly understand your love, will slowly return a clear spring to you. If the rain does not moisturize the earth, where will the earth open up so many embroidery to the earth?
(C) Square Dance
After the dinner, back home. Opened the computer, went to Baidu and searched. The first thing you need to do is to get a good look at the color of the skin and the color of the skin. Surprisingly, I found the mother they jumped. My lovely hometown, I am familiar with the environment, my naive mother, immediately in the screen one by one flow out. The mom in the dance can't stretch her arms straight because of years of hard work. But in front of the camera, she still dances with color. In another video, my dad, holding a hand gong, knocking vigorously. Tears flowed down my face in a flash. For the purest satisfaction and enthusiasm in their lives.
The time of my childhood has come back from the depths of my memory.
On rainy days, when I couldn't go out to work, my father used to play the bamboo flute, "The Water of Honghu Lake, the Waves Beat the Waves" for us to listen to. At that time, the still young mom, will use the clear and melodious voice to go and.
On New Year's Eve, my smart mom would make up her own couplets, and then my dad, who was a beautiful writer, would write them down and stick them on the wooden door.
On the afternoon of the Lantern Festival, mom rode more than ten kilometers to take us to the county town to see the lights in order to make us write beautiful compositions.
Those once-neglected warm times were all remembered at this time. I realized that my parents also have young, is life gave them too much hardship, too much labor, so that they do not have time to love, to feel the beauty of life. I also just realized that my childhood, but also hid so much sunshine in.
Unfortunately, I have been sad and resentment blinded by the mind, did not remember to live these warm.
Fortunately, my parents are here.
These are the first time I've ever seen a woman in the world who has been in the world for a long time.
Fortunately, we can still use this late repentance and care to make up for the mistakes made when we were young.
Father's essence, mother's blood. I remember that Buddhist allusion. A mother's milk is transformed from her own bubbling blood. Every child grows and thrives on this. Our growth depletes our mother's blood. And how much of it can we give back to them when we grow up?
The crow feeds, the lamb kneels. I too will repay my parents with such humility and enduring constancy.
As long as you are here, I will always be the happiest child in the world. I wish all the old people in the world can be happy in their old age! I wish all the families in the world harmony and fulfillment!