It's been half a lifetime since I've lived with so much to say, and it's been hidden in my gray hair
I remember the little feet, the fleshy mouth
All my life, I've given my love to him, just for the sake of saying "Mom and Dad."
Where did the time go? I got old before I could properly feel my youth.
It's a lifetime since I gave birth to children, and I've spent my whole life with the children's cries and smiles in my head.
Where did the time go? I didn't even get a good look at you before my eyes were blown out
Half a lifetime of work, and in the blink of an eye, all that's left is a face full of wrinkles
I remember singing this same song in the 2015 Little Parents series, and looking at the storyline in it, the year that my mom passed away, and I've forgotten a lot of the plot of the movie, but only remembered that my mom, the main character, had passed away. passed away, played this song, listening to listen to me cry, crying very sad, as the lyrics sung in the same, give birth to a child to raise a daughter for life, full of children cried and laughed, even to the end of his life, but also think of their own children, think about the children's future life, I remember that my mother from the disease to the death of more than four years, although I know that the lung cancer in the late stages, and know that sooner or later it will leave me, but also psychological preparation, but really to that day, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart, the heart of the heart. But really to that day, the heart can not accept, to face this fact, also had thought, after the death of mom, the next life how to live, but every time to think, will interrupt, that will really want to have a miracle, at least let my mom more with me, a home, call a mom, someone said yes, it's very good. But mom is still far away from me.
After the earthquake in 2008, mom's body is not very comfortable, the first symptoms are colds and coughs over and over again for a month, there has been no improvement, I said that this is not good enough to go to the hospital to take a CT lungs, to see if the lungs are not inflammation, the results went to the community hospital, a photo said that there is a shadow, and can not say what is the thing that said to go to the big hospitals to see the results go to the West China West, and did not find out why. Huaxi, did not find out why, did a puncture, the first did not succeed, and then do a second time, the money spent, or the same old cough, and finally went to the Cancer Hospital, met with an expert, in addition to the step to consider cysts, it is recommended to do surgery, but my mother is not willing to do, one is the body has not been good, for fear of accidents in the operation, and the second is that I have just got married, have not yet given birth to a child, and she has not yet become a grandmother, the old generation's idea is that it is possible to The idea of the old generation is to be able to see the next generation of their own children, life is perfect, after the expert said, not to do can also, first go to your local hospital to go to the infusion, the inflammation down, half a year to take a CT, as long as there is no change in the shadows, it is fine, remember to every six months to recheck. Mom chose not to do surgery.
In 2010, I gave birth to my daughter, that will be reviewed, said the shadow of the phenomenon of a little increase, I said to my mother, or you do the operation, recuperate for about 1 year, the body is good, good with granddaughter, mom also agreed, the results of the thought and the actual too different, the operation down, take a biopsy, the doctor said it is advanced lung cancer, lung resection of one side of one half. When I heard the news, I couldn't believe it, I didn't say it was a cyst, how did it become lung cancer, once I heard the word cancer, I would associate it with the countdown of life, which is a kind of mental torture for cancer patients and the fear of facing death, and for the loved ones as well, but my mom was very optimistic, and said that this life is worthwhile, from the time she got sick in 2008 to the time when she had the operation in 2010, this two years' time, my mom has become a good person in life. life, dancing social dance, square dance, play a little mahjong, follow the elderly association to travel, spend money to buy clothes, every day is very fulfilling, learned to put on light makeup, mom described as these two years, is the happiest, she put down, live into the way she wants.
2010 to 2015, which is more than four years, mom experienced radiotherapy and chemotherapy, the disease relapsed, and radiotherapy and chemotherapy, back and forth, to the end of terminal cancer, hair fall out, bought a wig, but also optimistic that finally do not have to comb your hair, the hospital into a hospitalization every year to go 2 to 3 times, the attending doctor joked that you are still alive, mom smiled and said, there is no way, the time is not yet up. Hades does not accept, and mom at the same time the operation of the group, more than 10 people, some in six months on the death, some in more than 1 year not more than 2 years also died, she was left alone. In the end, the cancer cells metastasized all over the body, and the life entered the countdown, mom said, people are destined to die, just the difference between early death and late death, these four years are also earned, but sometimes mom also complained about God's unfairness, especially during the radiotherapy period, what to eat and vomit, the psychological difficulties, and can't sleep peacefully, but to be able to eat, and all of a sudden it's good, then mom often said, do not be sick don't know! The first thing you need to do is to get a good deal of money to pay for the services you need, and then you can get a good deal of money to pay for the services you need.
Looking back at the mother's life, hard work most of his life, married a husband who does not love himself, but also a bit chauvinistic, and at all times to give the husband to give enough face, worry about everything, has been for the family to live, to live for the husband and the child, until their own illnesses in the past few years, living out their favorite look, do a lot of things they dare not try, make-up, dancing, wearing dresses, traveling, and so on, and so on. Traveling. Not beaten by the disease, but has been in the struggle, that even at the end of life, but also made a brave choice, the remains of the photo, the cemetery, including their own death to wear that dress, how to wear, etc., to see the people I want to see, ate want to eat duck, said what I want to say, although the disease is tortured, has always been optimistic about it, wrote so much today, to keep a memorial, mom, I really miss you, 5 years. Thinking of you tears still can not stop flowing down, you in heaven live well?