What does it feel like to be ignored by everyone around you, and what do you do about it, including good friends, relatives they ignore you?
In addition to silence, what else can be done, I found a problem, found from childhood, it seems that the elders around me do not like me, I remember when I was a child every time it rained my uncle's house roof leaks, the home is full of water flooded up, a little longer to walk in the inside of a particularly slippery, I was too much love when I was a child to fall, a good walk on a flat road will fall, every time I fell very painful, and then cried. Not to mention the water place, go to uncle's house several times in his home that leaky room slipped, and then brothers and sisters are laughing at me, would have been too painful to bear, no one to come to relieve even if everyone is laughing at me, I cried every time, and then once after the rain, my sister and brother ran to uncle's house to play, I also want to go, but my mother made me a pair of new cloth shoes, but also bought a new pair of towel socks, thick! It was very comfortable to wear, mom put it on me I was very happy, I wanted to run to my uncle's house to show my brothers and sisters at the first time, I wanted to share it with everyone, I just entered the first door when my aunt sat there and said loudly Little whoever is here, all of you don't pay any attention to her, don't play with her, she loves to cry a lot, she doesn't move at all, tell her to get out of the house. I was instantly emotionally low to the bottom, incredibly embarrassed, at that time should be in the appearance of about 5 years old, this scene profoundly stabbed in my heart, I was particularly sad, was happy to run to play, saw the aunt was trying to say to her that my mother bought me new socks, the words did not come out of her mouth, she has been that way, I was still cheeky to the door of the inner room to look at the older brothers and sisters there to play with the water, and thought that if they invited me to play with them, I would like to play with them, and then I would like to play with them. I'm not sure if it's a good idea, but I'm sure it's a good idea for me to be there and play with them.
But when I went to the door, my brothers told me to get out, not in his house, I almost cried, I looked back at the aunt, thinking she was just joking, and now my brothers so drive me, she should speak for me, but I did not expect that the aunt said you still want to cry ah, hurry up and go, do not cry in my house. At that time very very aggrieved, I do not know what I did wrong, in the end what happened? I was very disappointed and lost, but still wanted to stay and play, I said my mom told me to come, I was very trying to find a reason a strong excuse to stay, I said I didn't come with my sister just now because my mom gave me shoes to change, I thought that Auntie didn't welcome me because I didn't arrive at the same time as my sister, and I thought that if I had come with my sister, she might have run me over there to play, but she didn't look at me and said she didn't want to play with me. As a result, she did not even look at me, she said she knew you wore new shoes, what's the big deal, hurry back, a moment and cry in my home, then ask your parents to buy firecrackers to put to my family to wash away the joy, in fact, I cried twice in her home, once fell down my brothers to help me get up, I was all wet and still hurt, but also by the moment of the fall to the moment of shock so cry, loud first time they did not say anything, the second fall they I don't care about me, and then laugh and blame me for not being careful, just twice.
I especially want to cry, I just step by step awkwardly moved out of the door of her house, walked outside and also heard my brothers said that in the future, never pay attention to her, also not allowed her to play, my brothers to my sister and brother said that in the future, you two to come on it, not allowed to take her, or do not want to play with you, I am lost and a person went home, my mother said how do you come back? If you want to play, go and play some more. I also want to play but somehow people do not welcome me, I did not tell my mom about this, but I am not happy mom can see, she asked me what happened? I said aunt said don't want me to play in her house, she called me back, and then my mom didn't say anything, mom is also the kind of very simple and kind of people, no matter how other people treat her, she will be good to others, she will not even put other people's bad for her at all in the heart of the matter, so many years are like this.
? But that time the aunt said every word I remember very clearly to this day, as well as her tone of voice and action, as if I did something hurtful, since then I never dare to go to her home, I am very afraid of aunt and uncle, afraid that they will kick me out, so I grew up introverted is entirely due to the surrounding environment, I do not know why the elders do not like me, so every time my sister and brother go to the house, I will not be able to go to the house. I don't know why the elders don't like me, so every time my sister and brother went to my uncle's house to play, I felt especially lonely at home alone, I didn't want them to go to my uncle's house, but children want to go to a lively place, they went, and I was alone at home, catching a half-large chicken and talking to the chicken alone, and playing alone, which is especially sad now, when I think about it. So I have a very special feelings for this kind of animal chicken, I have always loved chickens, every time I walk behind the uncle's house to hear a lot of children in his house is very lively, I especially want to go, but do not dare to go, just hold my chicken in the vicinity of his house has been wandering, or quietly squatting in the dam of his house to hide there, at any time to observe, until my sister and brother in the uncle's house to play enough to go home, I just In fact, there were many times in this process that Uncle saw me and he called me to go inside to play, but I said I was not going to go, I was just going to play here for a while and I was going to go home. So until later grew up, everyone is still laughing at me as a child like to hold a chicken all day long to play around every day to the chicken talk, in fact, only know why, it is strange, then those chickens were I hold around, they do not struggle not escape, just let me hold play, so I now see the chickens, ducks and geese I want to pounce on to hold a little bit, wherever there are feathered fowls and birds of prey I am very fond of. This is the feeling of being ignored and disliked, low self-esteem, fear, cowardice, but now it doesn't matter who loves to ignore who ignores, I don't care about anyone's attitude and opinion of me, only don't care about it won't be hurt.