I know, my memory is always awake, never dare to snooze, as if afraid to open the eyes of sleep you will disappear. My dreams, loaded with those once sweet. My arms, filled with the fragrance of spring flowers; exudes the warmth of summer; pockets full of fruit on the autumn branches; sprinkled with a touch of warmth of the winter sun. The world with you always makes me full of fantasies and happiness, like a bird that doesn't know how to get tired and sing every day.
This is Ann's mind and Ann's song. It is just that she has already drifted away with the autumn leaves ......
I.
When I saw Ann again, she was already lying in the ward filled with the smell of Lysol water. The white bed, the white quilt reveals her pale cheeks, a pair of once clear big eyes no longer have the usual radiance.
She smiled faintly at me, she was still sleeping, and I didn't dare to look at her pallor again. Tears slid down the corner of my eyes, I do not believe that such a beautiful and kind Ann, will be hovering on the brink of death, God why not more favor such a weak woman.
An An's sister has also cried into tears, the doctor told An An's days are numbered, she is waiting, waiting for the man she silently keep the appearance.
Ten years of looking at each other, ten years of keeping each other, where is the paradise of Ann?
Hurried footsteps, the door of the ward was pushed open. A middle-aged man appeared in everyone's sight, dark skin, full of vicissitudes of the face mixed with tiredness. At this moment, only An An suddenly opened her eyes, tears crossing her pale cheeks. Perhaps because of too much excitement, a burst of rapid coughing, a mouthful of blood sprayed out of her mouth.
Ann's sister intended to go to call the doctor, was Ann swinging feeble gestures to stop. The man rushed to Ann's hospital bed in big strides and grabbed Ann's hand tightly. There was a silence as everyone else exited the hospital room.
"It's my fault for keeping stopping my sister from seeing him." Ann's sister sobbed.
The man's name is Xiao Lin, a northwestern man thousands of miles away. He is Ann ten years ago met online, the network as a medium, time and space to cut the network love affair.
Every time An An mentions Xiao Lin, her face is always a splash of splendor, like a flower blooming smile. And every time I have teased her: "Silly, fooled to see you find who to cry to." Ann always look sweet: "I'm willing to be cheated ah!"
Secondly,
Although An An is a girl who grew up in the north, she is a southern girl's temperament. It's not too much to say that she's delicate, graceful, and beautiful, and even for those who aren't familiar with her, at first glance, An An is the version of the great lady in their eyes. An An walk floating, not charming not vulgar always smiling face, eyes seem to speak, through a clear spirit like spring water penetration.
When my son was eight years old, Ann was still the day of the sky.
"An An, my son is eight years old, you can catch a little tight ah, or the two of us do in-laws more and more less chance!" At that time, I realized for the first time that there was a man named Xiao Lin in An An's world. To be honest, An An really let me feel a little sudden, to her personality, should not be a lonely and chaotic to seek emotional support people. I speculate Xiao Lin in the end what kind of man, actually captured An An never because of love opened the door of the heart?
Xiao Lin is the love of An An's online encounter, people say that meet is also the need for destiny, otherwise how will not early or late will meet at a certain moment?
Because of the **** the same hobby, they both like poetry, it is also An An when the "umbrella in the clouds ruthless" poetic, and let a person think that the name of eccentricity attracted Xiao Lin's eyeballs. At that time Xiao Lin's work is very busy, only online access to information only occasionally on QQ, he did not have any friends, that day is also a whim by chance chaotic search, accidentally bumped into the An An's "umbrella in the clouds without feelings". Perhaps An An held that ruthless umbrella, is to wait for Xiao Lin to hold up it? The life was originally colorful, and the emergence of the network and the rise of a variety of elements added to the life.
Because of the busy work, neglected his wife, Xiao Lin's wife began to complain, quarrel. Later on, the development of even quarrels are not even strangers, Xiao Lin lived a home, but no home warm life. For the sake of his son, Xiao Lin chose silence. Silence, perhaps only silence is the best release. From then on, Xiao Lin put all the time into the work, forget the work, he did not want to idle, idle, he was afraid that one day may fall silent and to the edge of the collapse. His good friend gave him a QQ number, so he can relax from time to time and see the outside world.
Three
Since the world of An An, Xiao Lin's world began to have a wonderful, but also mixed with a little bit of helplessness.
An An is as quiet as her name suggests, and it is this quiet girl that makes Xiao Lin's heart ripple. Marriage, family, work has been exhausted ` he, as long as it is the moment of chatting with An An, he can actually forget all, like An An always quietly listen, An An never ask about his privacy. He said, she listened. He asked, she answered. Every time we chat, it's so enjoyable, every time we just hate that the time is too short. The two of them don't even need to meet, almost the same time online. The first time I saw this, I was able to see that the whole world had been in a state of flux, and I was able to see that the world was in a state of flux.
An An is a meticulous girl. From time to time a short message: "There began to cool down, remember to add clothes to keep warm."
"It's been hot there for a couple of days, so pay attention to preventing heat stroke." Each pass short message, the information age passes far away from the thousands of mountains and rivers of attachment.
Xiao Lin also began to become know how to care: "Your body is not good, their usual attention."
"Busy work, can not take care of you, take care of yourself." This end of the Anan, read will wet his eyes.
Ten years, how many deep and shallow memories, cohesion of two people how much love. Do not see each other, but cherish each other remember each other know, ten years, how many days and nights of expectation, the end of the world does not forget. The first thing you need to do is to get a good understanding of what you're doing and how you're doing it.
Four,
People have feelings, years of ruthlessness.
There is a kind of love, there is no commitment but you grasp very tight. There is a love that has no skin but is held by your heart. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes, and then you'll be able to get your hands on a new pair of shoes.
But the sky is the limit, the silent Anan guarded a love at the same time, but waited for the pronouncement of the late stage of stomach cancer.
The yellow leaves can't resist the autumn wind, a piece of the withered pieces. The most favorite fall Ann, in the late fall of a sunset about me to go to the countryside to listen to the wind to see the falling leaves, when I heard her tell me that she has been late gastric cancer after I was shocked, but she is extremely calm. Ann said: "Life as a leaf, from the spring began to germinate, to summer slowly through the sun and wind and rain, until the fall of the defeat is the law of nature."
She looked to the northwest as she spoke, gazing y. There is expectation, there is reluctance, there is a hint of sadness across her eyes, I know she has a deep attachment, looking at her, I turned my eyes that are already full of tears.
"Ann, are you dying to see him?" I asked her as I tried a little to adjust my mood pretending to show a smile.
"He said he would come to see me in the spring of next year, but I'm afraid I can't wait, I'm afraid I can't wait, I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get away." An An still showed a faint smile, I know that behind that smile is hidden misery.
"Give me his phone, I told him the truth." Ann refused.
"He just happens to have a job right now that he can't get out of, so let's just go with it." An An had a calm face, still looking at the northwest direction. At this time, the setting sun has already hidden, twilight.
V.
Pieces of yellow leaves like the wings of the autumn fluttering, Ann with a smile with the autumn wind drift away.
Xiao Lin seems to be much older, he asked for the consent of An An's family, accompanied by them to bury An An in the vast sea. Xiao Lin is grateful to me for telling him the news of An An's serious illness, when his hoarse sobs, let me heartbreakingly accompanied him to cry. A man's tears at this moment is crying their love?
Xiao Lin is in love with An An, but can only be far away from each other. A man who still has a marriage to survive, can not give Ann any commitment and happiness, ten years can only be silent cherish each other, he said as a man he is a failure, he can not give the people who love him is also the people he loves happiness. I said Ann never blamed him, he moist eyes.
The day after An An left, I helped An An's sister to organize An An's relics, a plain and elegant seems to have been very old white background blue heart-shaped pattern of the box caught my attention, the cover has Xiao Lin's signature. Open the box, a "Liang Zhu" CD disc came into view, there are two photos under the CD, one is Xiao Lin's, I have seen that is ten years ago, Xiao Lin together with the CD sent to An An, and another is An An. Underneath the photos was a small house folded with paper, and opened was a letter written by An An to Xiao Lin:
Lin, when you read this letter, perhaps I have already gone with the wind. Thank God for bringing you to me, we may not have the chance to meet in this life, then I look forward to an afterlife. If there is an afterlife, I will wait for you at the intersection where you first appeared; if there is an afterlife, I will never leave you.
See or not, you are in my heart. See or not see, you are the most beautiful scenery in my eyes charming and spring of that agreement, meet in the winter, cold heart yo, warm in your tender no longer sigh. I said to the Yangtze River, even if you dry up, I will not be separated from my love. I said to Mount Everest, even if you razed to the ground, I still snuggle with my love. I say to time, even if you rush by, O my love, you are my eternal beauty. I say to heaven, thank you, let me and my love have the fate to know each other. I say to tomorrow, no matter how the years change, my love and I, hand in hand.
Sixth,
I called Xiao Lin, who lives in the hotel, and An An's sister asked me to forward this relic of An An to Xiao Lin on her behalf.
When I saw Xiao Lin again, it was obvious that he was tired from a night's sleep.
"This is the only thing I left for Ann, she has been carefully collected." Xiao Lin tries to control his emotions as best he can.
All I did was to console, once I had hated him for not giving An An happiness because he had involved her heart. But An An can all let go, I do is only to bless the man in front of me, the future can be safe and happy.
Happiness is not written on the face of the expression, happiness comes from the heart. The first time I saw this is when I was a little girl, and I was a little girl, and I was a little girl, and I was a little girl, and I was a little girl, and I was a little girl, and I was a little girl, and I was a little girl.
An An left, with the autumn drift away, this year's autumn no longer come back, An An will also long sleep in the autumn.