Most of us who have come out to work, to be honest, do not want to go back to the countryside, but in the city has never been able to establish a firm foothold, it is really a dilemma.
Sometimes I want to go back to my hometown, after all, my parents are there, looking for an honest boy in the village to live a good life, so that a lifetime of life and death in the hometown. The company's main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers, and the company's goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers.
But such a man is really hard to find, and most of the boys my age are out of work, the village is basically left with the old man and children, go back to home sometimes feel uncomfortable. To find closer to the parents of the in-laws, basically in the middle of the work to find, many sisters are out of the work to meet the hometown, think it is still appropriate to talk about almost, go back to the marriage.
I am 80 years later, born in the countryside, parents of our siblings are very good, from childhood to eat and drink also have clothes to wear, although I can not say that the food is good to wear good, but also never hungry. Think about the father or good able, mother good virtuous, hard to put our three sisters are raised adult.
When I was a child, I was naughty and mischievous, and I was like a boy, playing together and going crazy every day. Childhood is always carefree and innocent, now think about it, the most happy and happy years, is the childhood years.
They went to school until they graduated from junior high school, and it was all plain sailing. Their parents always said that they wanted to study hard, and they could only talk about it, but as for whether they could read into it or not, they couldn't do anything about it. Study hard, where to listen to these, don't know what to do also play, the town teaching level is also general it, anyway, nine years of compulsory down, reading powerful test in the county high school only one or two classmates.
Most of the students graduated from junior high school went their own way, especially do not want to study, followed by relatives in the outside world, go out to work in Guangdong and Fujian, into the formal factory did not reach the age of 18, only to go to the black factory or service industry. Some female students also do not study, some of them are at home, matchmakers matchmaking, generally engaged.
Half of the female students enter the town's high school, the town high school, regardless of the academic style or the rate of advancement to college are fewer than a few hundred people, the annual college entrance exams are only ten or so undergraduate, mostly vocational colleges.
A lot of men and women began to fall in love, there are a few pairs of high school graduates married, and then came out to work together. There are happy and unhappy.
I also somehow fell in love once, and then broke up after graduating from high school, read to the senior high school sophomore on some people do not read, basically go out to work. I also do not want to read early, the results are general, general appearance, mixed down is only until the high school graduation only.
I want to read and study, I also understand that knowledge changes fate, reading is the only way out, but is not read into, do not want to read.
So I went to school every day in a blur, in a trance to the sophomore year of high school. I've been hurt too y by the boy I love so much, and I don't want to go to school, I don't want to get married in my hometown, and I want to go out and see the outside world. I have contacted the previous out of the classmates, but my father did not agree, no matter what, he asked must graduate from high school.
The temptation of high school is also great, looking at junior high school students some married and have children, some live a very happy life, find a good in-laws, the husband of their own good, the heart more or less inevitably some envy.
Early to go out to work classmates back to spend a lot of money, said they found a big money, the outside world is very exciting, the world, no wonder, feel that they also want to go to see the outside world.
A few female classmates who play well with me are almost the same, trying their best to study, completing their homework according to the teacher's requirements, and their grades are the same, and they are all average. The first time I saw this, I thought it would be okay to be average, but I couldn't beat the good ones, so it wasn't easy to get into their circle.
We are still not mutual contempt, good grades look down on us, we look down on those who have worse grades, anyway, are each in their own circle.
My parents have never forced me to get married, although my mom has occasionally mentioned it, saying that a certain family of daughters are married, married to the right in-laws, living a good life, and do not want parents to worry about this kind of words.
I also want to hurry to marry off the idea, if life is good also married to a good in-laws, but also save a lot of parents worry about labor. The first thing I'd like to say is that I'm not sure what I'm talking about, but I'd like to say that I'm not sure what I'm talking about, and I'd like to say that I'm not sure what I'm talking about, and I'm not sure what I'm talking about. However, my father felt that I was only eighteen years old is still small, if I want to go out to work also he also supports, go out to break into the open world, in short, is good.
A family of reasonably similar, the same parents, the same family and the environment, and then his brother and sister love to read, and are not bad. This is a point I have not been able to understand.
I can only say that I am not reading material, but also blame the lazy inertia, although I am still more understanding, but on the reading of this thing, may not have the talent and interest it.
Following the relatives came out and took more than ten hours of long-distance bus to Shenzhen, due to the introduction of relatives, was arranged in the assembly line to do "screws" work. Later on, he turned to his classmates, fellow countrymen, and finally a person single-handedly looking for a job alone, and has done a lot of things over the years.
The company unified arrangement of the dormitory, eight people, because the morning and evening shifts staggered, so long-term are four people. Like the rural water table, people come and go noisy, most of them do not have no fixed rest time, from all over the world, at the beginning of the day to talk to the darkness, everyone's situation is similar, do not love to read on the way out, and slowly did not have too much **** the same language.
The flow of people is too fast, just try to make up with a girl, not to go to other factories, is to find a boyfriend, some directly back home to get married.
The work of the assembly line is very tiring, the basic salary is too low, if not overtime, the money in hand is very little, but a person to eat the whole family is not hungry, but does not care. The first time they don't work overtime, women with families will complain, they would rather work overtime every day, so they can get more salary to subsidize the family.
The beginning of the case of not overtime is too little, work more than ten hours a day, from work to the head to sleep, every day assembly line dormitory two points a line of life, so busy that there is no time to go to the city to have fun, the holidays will be accompanied by a shopping mall to buy clothes and pants daily necessities.
The first year, in addition to the usual pocket money, there is no big expense, the vast majority of the money are sent back to Mom and Dad, my mother said that she would not move a penny of my money, are saved up for me. I shouted them to my younger siblings, so that it is also considered to alleviate some of their burdens, the father is very stubborn, many times the family can not open the pot, or not allowed to move the mother of that money. Later I simply give directly to the younger siblings, the family, I came out, more or less to alleviate their burden.
Time long such a job will grind people no temper, plus also almost 20 years old, the inner began to restlessness. The first year to go back to the New Year's bag sold a large box, the family old and small, grandparents and grandparents have brought gifts back.
With some money, the heart began to stir up, so all year round, day and night work, long-term day shift and night shift, suddenly feel sorry for myself, outside the lonely and helpless, more or less began to some home-loving do not want to go out.
Mother began to test whether there is a boyfriend, when to get married. How much I was a little panicked, the second year began to not want to do assembly line work, even contact with boys have few opportunities, not to mention meet the right, this time there are a few boys from the same hometown I have this meaning and idea. I talked to one of them for a few months, are planning to go back together to get married, and then because of various reasons and broke up.
Around the sisters working together, generally are working for a period of time, find a suitable boyfriend, talk about almost, the two will go back to get married, the woman will be at home to have children with children, the man a person out to work. When the children are almost big time, thrown to the elderly, the two people will come out together, earn a three or two years, go back to repair the house, settle down the children and the elderly. The days will be better and better, the conditions are a little more generous, the wife can not come out, at home to take care of the children to support the elderly.
If you meet a man who is not a good man to mess around, most of the unfortunate is the girl, together with the work of many big sister is very unfortunate, to the man gave birth to a number of children, long-term separation, family conflicts are also many. Women at home, men are also outside eating, drinking, whoring and gambling, how to say, there are good and bad, what kind of men are there.
Slowly learn to dress up and make up, know how to clean up their own, learned some dress with the skills. The old saying is true: there is no such thing as an ugly woman, only a woman who can't dress herself.
You really don't say, dress up beautiful, turn rate are higher, ask me to phone number of boys also more up. There is a period of time between the girls popular weight loss, do not eat and drink I all of a sudden reduced dozens of pounds, people a thin even face are resistant to look.
Well, said how much, far away, the background of their own life grew up experience are roughly said.
You are not asking me how I rely on the face to eat? Here I will start to say this part of the content. Hey hey sister ...... you are not asleep right?
Then there is no desire to do the assembly line work, too bitter and too tired and too depressing, the main thing is also worry, worry about marrying, worry about not meeting the right person. The heart is not honest, looking around friends and classmates fellow townspeople are starting to get married, have found a rich man, have gone home to get married, have found the provinces, but also has not been married.
The girl heart, who do not want to find a rich and handsome and know how to love their own men, but the reality is that, will not be so good luck, let you a person accounted for it. Often rich men are more dishonest, honest men and no money, handsome womanizing, not womanizing it is ugly, depending on who first bowed to reality, girls, where can they stay ah, forty-five year old man can marry seventeen or eighteen year old girl, change into forty-five year old woman, where to find seventeen or eighteen year old boy it!
The life of a working man is too monotonous, boring and uninteresting, and more tiring than when he was studying. The fact is that there are no friends in the closed factories, so we can get by on the surface, but there are very few people who are willing to tell us what they want to do.
It didn't take long to follow a friend to the city, and this time it was an eye-opening experience. The so-called outside and the world, this is the real world, a variety of red wine and green intoxicated, a variety of luxury upscale places countless.
I first and friends together in the commercial pedestrian street, a brand clothing store work, quite easy, only eight hours a day, the basic salary plus commission than the assembly line strong, the salary is also good, but on not long on the hands of not dry.
Because I know more friends and sisters, I want to go to work in a place with a higher salary. A good sister when the hotel receptionist, good-looking, body also good, the natural advantages of women is very obvious, evening a big money, the rest of his life will not worry.
I also have this idea, after all, I do not look ugly, girls study is also for a good job, earn money, marry a good man, peace of mind and live a life. The first thing I'd like to say is that I'm not sure if I'm a good person, but I'm sure I'm a good person, and I'm sure I'm not a good person!
Soon I jumped ship again, to sell jewelry, and then I purpose is more clear, to buy high-end watches, really met a rich man. I also met several of me a little bit of feeling, slowly began to interact, this time my salary has been several times the assembly line, I am also very satisfied, think a month income of ten thousand is really not astronomical.
The second year back a few days, the townspeople have some gossip, said I may be someone else's little three or four outside, by the man package, or to sell. Their reason is that I suddenly all of a sudden became rich, dress fashionable, winter also wear skirts and leggings, make-up made of people like ghosts, hair also dyed yellow, face white and net also suddenly tall and thin and beautiful up.
At that time, there was really no, the money in hand are clean and hard wage money, quite aggrieved, the Spring Festival at home secretly cried for several days. You say that this gossip also spread fast, a few days after the Spring Festival, all the villages know, my mother did not say much, but it is angry I put at home for a few days without eating, how do I explain is useless, the more explained the more black.
That's the last time I went home, and it's been a few years since then.
To stay at home can not go on, so that the back of a few days the village people look at my eyes are strange, would have been even if the hurry back to Shenzhen, my father said that the day is not good to call the first day of the first month of the eighth to go out.
Slowly said more people, my parents believe that the latter days are basically in the fight with them. The first thing I'd like to say is that I don't know what to say, but I'd like to say that I don't know what to say, and I don't know what to say.
This time out of the heart is very suffocating, for no reason was wrongly accused of their own reputation has been stigmatized, and later want to marry back to the basic is impossible, or to find a foreign provinces, or only in the city to find one. I do want to meet a man who is good to himself.
Spring Festival back and buy a watch man dating, soon slept together, although with a little secular purpose, but still trapped, can not help themselves.
Before that, I had this idea, but I just thought about it, after all, this kind of people say "lying earn" occupation, how can I touch.
Later, I found that I became a junior, was "adopted" by him, even if he cried to death, or resolutely choose to leave, I can not bear to do to destroy other people's families.
Society is really a place with a large maturing agent, thrown in a year or two, anything to understand will be. Girls are born to learn make-up, by the way, some people point out, themselves in the look around, I have and the city of those beautiful women have no difference, reading when I think I am an ugly, low self-esteem and conceited, out of the part-time work slowly find self-confidence, and so on really into the community, only to find that pretty really is a good card, I have not been playing, this time after the incident, I am ready to play.
Then went to the clubs, bars, dance halls, sometimes also in the hair salon, where more money where to go, is to do what you said Miss work.
There are two types of sisters around, one is really take this as love, one is itself running to his money. There is a third category is my kind, can not tell whether it is for money or for love. Do you think anyone has found love? Yes, there are really, although less, find money? The first thing you need to do is to find a way to get the money you need to pay for the work.
Family has a difficult time reading the scripture, many sisters family and I, even worse than my family, they are trying to find ways to make money, the family sometimes even waiting to take this money to cure the disease to save people. Who does not know that this thing itself is at the expense of the bottom line of morality at the expense of, and in the edge of the law crazy temptation.
But once inside, want to come out too difficult, and then back to the assembly line work, who is still willing to eat that bitter, no one forced you to force you, at any time you can go, but accustomed to the high consumption, every month, clothes, shoes, bags, cosmetics, all want money ah. Back home to get married and have children, many people can not go back, where in the world there will be impermeable walls, the old family more or less know some, face dignity can not hang.
Just like the feeling of all of a sudden to sell themselves out, sisters, everyone is at risk, in fact, they are all scared, did not catch the disease is good, lucky escape, and caught, can only bring regret and pain in life, and a variety of gynecological diseases gynecological inflammation, basically everyone.
A lot of men are pursuing fast-paced male love, and some improper encounters. Over time, we all know the rules of the game, know the subterfuge, I feel a little dirty and no morals, these things are packaged beautifully, but also can not cover up its dirty.
The men talk about how free they are, how noble they are, and they can't get rid of the essential difference between us being a lady and them being a guest relationship.
These axioms are actually now I just know, who care to read these books, around the sister has been dry to middle age, some do not want to come out, by the personal family and other reasons trapped, and can not come out. Some dry for a period of time on the change of line, the money earned enough to take the money away from home.
All are eating youth meal, the older the more worthless, who are also panicked about the future of the rest of the heart have no bottom, most people are step by step, but everyone knows that it is impossible to do a lifetime. Just the reason, everyone has everyone's intention.
I'm not afraid to tell you a joke, and then the mass closure of these entertainment venues, sisters have the streets, there is depression want to commit suicide, there are living half dead of starvation, the benefit is that a lot of people return to normal life, many people early on to do the next step in the preparation of the people to make up their minds, like those of us, on the wait-and-see.
Youth will eventually come to an end, I have been thinking about what to do in the future in the end, but also can not always rely on the face of the youth to eat ah.
The book did not read, those cultural talents to do the work, certainly can not do, find a rich man I now do not want to, unrealistic, back to work, but also not willing to, the salary is too low, but not enough to buy clothes and cosmetics every month, go home to see Mom and Dad can be married and give birth to a child on the dead heart, never.
Now I just want to change a city for a different environment, I feel at ease to find a regular job first on the first step!
--No, I have been using a tape recorder to record it for you, and when I converted it into text, I changed it to misspellings and sentences, and then I could print it out.
--I don't think so, you're too wordy, your logic is too confusing, and you keep trying to beat around the bush to justify yourself. Don't you see? In fact, your story is very simple: rural poor people born, childhood has bitter and laugh, reading did not read properly, but also do not want to marry early, so the only way out is to work. After working part-time all kinds of temptations added together, and finally turned bad, rely on face and youth to eat. I became what they call a "lady", "three girls", "professional mistress" and "prostitute", which is impossible to do for the rest of my life. The first thing you need to do is to get the best out of your life.
- - Don't worry, there is no one to judge you, it is too normal, we have seen it all, maybe not too many people are willing to read your experience, everyone's time is too valuable, can be quiet to read this story, very few people, put a normal heart on good.
--I don't change the order of your words, and I won't process it, so it's not your story. In fact, if the story is told backwards, it might work better, or if you tell the middle first, then the ends, the reader might be more interested. You'll just have to tell it again in chronological order in such an assembly line, and a lot of people won't be very interested. You said these three points are the core of your story, girls must read well, must be bright eyes to find a good man, must know their own ability and desire to match before. And one more thing, you can't trade your youthful body and face for money, these are external plus items, but they can't be traded directly.
--Sister, this has nothing to do with working or not working, except to say that if you really don't come out, surely you won't be engaged in this industry either. After working part-time you are also confused step by step unknowingly do the original you think the least should do things, the problem is in your body, can not withstand the temptation of money and material, because the book read less, want to get something for nothing, or want to cognition and understanding of some of the bias, of course, may be and the society of the impetuous age of the huge development of the gap has a certain relationship.
--In fact, you already have the answer in your heart, you are already paving the way for yourself, and you are slowly walking towards a better road, aren't you? Love yourself more for the rest of your life and believe that you can come out of it. Go for it!
--Stay strong and live on, I'll organize the story and send it to you as a birthday present.
Note: I have not adapted and processed the plot of the story, except for the words and misspellings that are too much of a mouthful, which are converted from the original. So you see the content of the previous she said, is a little messy and verbose cumbersome, and there are a lot of inconsistencies and contradictions loopholes, but this is what she originally said.
For this profession, the story itself is not judgmental.
For the family of origin, the dark side of society, negative energy and other things, also do not do to guide the refraction, if you accidentally have associations, and the story itself has nothing to do.
Writing: Luzi1988