I still love you, but I don't like you anymore
You still make me feel beautiful and excited, but I don't have the strength and courage to hug you anymore. I can't help thinking about you, but I don't expect anything from you. Although I will still miss you, I don't need it.
Sometimes people are like this. When something big happens, they will carry it on their own and endure it. But when they hear a word of comfort from people around them, they will be defeated in an instant. But later I learned that what we are afraid of is not indifference, but sudden tenderness, not suffering ourselves, but fearing that people around us will sympathize with you. What I am afraid of is not loneliness, but disappointment.
I even look forward to the day when I no longer like you.
The math teacher wrote "I love you" and asked to change it into a negative proposition.
We all say "You don't love me"
"No," said the teacher.
He first turned it into this form: "If there is someone who is me, then this person loves you."
Then the teacher began to change it into a negative proposition.
Finally, when he stopped writing, the classroom was quiet.
"If a person doesn't love you, then this person is not me."
I often wonder if I can't let you go, or if you give me feelings, or if you appear at my favorite time.
I can't control the unforgettable memory of you, but I no longer have any expectations for you. I gave you everything I should, and if we can't be together in the end, there's nothing to regret. No matter what we are unfamiliar with in the end, it is true that we are good to you. I hope you don't regret knowing me. You are really happy.
Lisitang Yuanzhen
Once I tasted the vast sea, I felt that the water in other places was pale; Once you have experienced the clouds in Wushan, you feel that the clouds elsewhere are eclipsed.
Hurried through the flowers, lazy to look back; This reason is partly because of the ascetic monk, and partly because of who you used to be.
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"Once the sea was difficult for water, it was amber forever", which was basically sung by a China person. But few people know who wrote this poem, to whom and why. Today, let's walk into this well-known poem and see the story behind it!
The author of this poem is Yuan Zhen, a poet in the Tang Dynasty. Yuan Zhen, a native of Luoyang, Henan Province, was a great poet in the middle Tang Dynasty. He and Bai Juyi synthesized "Bai Yuan", and the famous "New Yuefu Movement" in the history of China literature was initiated by him and Bai Juyi. The so-called "New Yuefu Movement" sounds noble. To put it simply, it is to oppose moaning without illness and write less poems that everyone can't understand. I advocate writing popular poems and current affairs poems, and strive to make poems understood by ordinary people.
And this poem is a mourning poem, written by Yuan Zhen to his wife who died young.
In the 18th year of Zhenyuan in Tang Dezong (AD 802), 24-year-old Yuan Zhen failed in the imperial examination, and he lived on the streets of Chang 'an, where he was admired by Prince Wei, who appreciated his talents. Not only that, the prince teacher, who enjoys a high status, ignored the opposition of his family, and then married his youngest daughter Wei Cong (then 20 years old) to Yuan Zhen.
Although this marriage has the nature of mutual use from the beginning: Wei firmly believes that talents like Yuan Zhen will have a bright future, but Yuan Zhen thinks that he can get ahead in this marriage. But what is really wrong is that the young couple love each other after marriage and share weal and woe. According to later records, Wei Cong, who is virtuous and dignified as a fairy, is well versed in poetry, neither rich nor vain. When Yuan Zhen was frustrated, he lived a poor life with him without regrets and tried his best to care for her husband.
Unfortunately, seven years later, Wei Cong died of illness at the age of 27. At this time, Yuan Zhen, 3 1 year-old, has been promoted to the position of attorney general of the Supreme People's Procuratorate, and just lost his beloved wife at the beginning of a happy life, which made the poet extremely sad. On the day of his wife's burial, Yuan Zhen couldn't help writing this famous mourning poem.
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Once I tasted the vast sea, I felt that the water in other places was pale; Once you have experienced the clouds in Wushan, you feel that the clouds elsewhere are eclipsed.
"It was difficult for the sea to be water in the past, but it will be amber forever" was changed from "It is difficult to watch the sea and swim in the holy gate" in Mencius. The vast sea dwarfs the water in other places. Wushan faces Yunfeng and the Yangtze River. According to Song Yu's "High Order", its cloud is transformed by the goddess, which belongs to the sky and goes down to Yuyuan. It is as lush as a pine tree and as beautiful as a charming girl. So in contrast, the clouds in other places are eclipsed.
"Sea" and "Wushan" are the most beautiful images in the world. Yuan Zhen is a metaphor. Literally, he has experienced the "sea" and "Wushan", and it is difficult to see the water and clouds elsewhere. In fact, it is used to describe the feelings between their husband and wife, just like the water in the sea and the clouds in Wushan. Its depth and beauty are unparalleled in the world, so there is no one but a wife.
Hurried through the flowers, lazy to look back; This reason is partly because of the ascetic monk, and partly because of who you used to be.
"Take your time" means to be in a hurry and at will. I hurried through the flowers, but I was too lazy to look back. Of course, "flowers" here not only refer to flowers in nature, but also include many other beautiful women. No matter how beautiful they are, I have no intention of seeing them. That's what the so-called "flowers pass by, leaves don't touch the body" means.
That's what "fate" means. Since you are so attached to your dead wife, why do you say "a half-life gentleman" instead of "a full-life gentleman"? Throughout his life, Yuan Zhen respected Buddhism and Taoism with "attached free and unfettered films and paid Buddhist scriptures". In addition, the "cultivation" here can also be understood as paying attention to the cultivation of moral knowledge.
However, for Yuan Zhen, respecting Buddhism and Taoism, cultivating self-cultivation and pursuing scholarship are nothing more than an emotional sustenance of his lovelorn grief. The anxiety expressed by "half cultivation" and "half monarch" is the same, and it is more meaningful to say "half cultivation"
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We know that this poem is a mourning poem for his wife. Sighing that "once the sea was difficult for water, amber forever" is actually sighing that this world will never meet such a beautiful and kind girl again. Therefore, we simply "look back at and I wonder how many blossoms were broken", preferring to bury the original beauty in our hearts rather than make up the numbers and hastily choose a person-this is why there are so many older men and women left in the contemporary era.
Today, the connotation of this poem has changed, not only to describe the feelings between men and women. Anyone who thinks that people, things and things are not as good as they used to be, can use this poem to express it.
For example, if you feel the prosperity of a big city, it is hard to bear the occlusion of a small town; I have eaten the most authentic hot pot and lost interest in other hot pots; After seeing a good movie, it's hard to accept a bad one. Once beautiful, now helpless, all in this sentence "once the sea was difficult for water."
"Once the sea is difficult for water, it will always be amber" is probably a poem that everyone who has had emotional experience will recite. From the Tang Dynasty poet Yuan Zhen's "From Thinking". Some people say that this is a faithful love poem. Hehe, if Yuan Zhen was a real love rat, would you still think so?
If you don't care about Yuan Zhen's own emotional experience, probably everyone will think that this poet must be pursuing "one person for life". But in fact, he is not only a person with extremely rich emotional experience, but also has done more than one thing. Then how do you understand the meaning of this poem?
Tuoba's "Half-Blood Prince" Yuan Zhen has something to complain about.
There were many hybrids in the Tang Dynasty, including Li Shimin, Emperor Taizong and poet Li Bai. Yuan Zhen is also one of them. His ancestors used to be Tuoba of the Northern Wei Dynasty, but after the Seventh Emperor of the Northern Wei Dynasty, Tuoba changed the Han surname to Yuan, so Yuan Zhen was named Yuan.
He may also have a high nose and deep eyes, a bony face and cold thin lips. People who love death are also excellent in literary talent. They have written poems, discussed national policies, passed the imperial examination and served as prime ministers.
This kind of man is bound to be dumped by thousands of women. In that era when a man can have three wives and four concubines, it seems too difficult for you to make him single-minded to one person.
Admittedly, he didn't prepare to take only a spoonful of 3 thousand weak water, or even lift it back and forth in the middle, and exchange two faces for a sample.
The True Ending of The West Chamber There was a play called The West Chamber in Yuan Dynasty, which was adapted from Yuan Zhen's novel Yingying Biography. It tells a happy story. Zhang Sheng and Cui Yingying started from a private meeting in the garden, broke through many obstacles, and finally, lovers got married.
The author of The Romance of the West Chamber has a good conscience, and gave a couple a happy ending, but in Yuan Zhen's Biography of Yingying, it is a completely different result.
It is said that Yuan Zhen knew his distant cousin Cui Yingying when he was a teenager. The teenager was affectionate, and Yuan Zhen couldn't help thinking when he saw his cousin's beauty and understanding of poetry. Only at that time, my cousin didn't care about him, so Yuan Zhen had to ask the maid matchmaker for help. The maid had an idea and asked him to write a poem for Cui Yingying.
Yuan Zhen acted according to the plan. Sure enough, Cui Yingying has a young heart, and Yuan Zhen's sentimental style is just right. Cui Yingying's heart gradually melted by him. Two people must often meet in the garden, holding hands or something.
Before long, the two of them went to Beijing to catch the exam. The exam results were naturally good, and Yuan Zhen became a school bookkeeper at the age of 24. Yes, Yuan Zhen completely changed his attitude towards Cui Yingying at this time. Not only is his love gone, but he also said that Cui Yingying threw herself at him. He had no choice.
All this is in his novel Yingying Biography. Cui Yingying is described as "stunner" and "Uber", just like da ji who fascinated Shang Zhouwang. Although the spring breeze is a few degrees, he doesn't want to sink, so he is determined to run away.
It's like you can't give up food yourself, but when you see your fat body, you say it's the fault of the hot pot rice saute spicy chicken, not yourself. Now we can't help but sneer at this truth, but I didn't expect that this novel was loved by countless people as soon as it came out, even the daughter of the examiner Wei's family looked fondly.
Marry Bai and go to the peak of your life. It is said that abandoning others at first will eventually pay off. Unexpectedly, this round of Yuan Zhen not only didn't get any retribution, but also married Miss Wei, the official examiner mentioned earlier.
Miss Wei's father is already a young prince, and it is worthy of the name to marry a small school bookkeeper. Men are not indifferent when they meet beautiful women. Miss Wei's surprise to Yuan Zhen was no less than winning hundreds of millions in the 5 yuan lottery. She is good-looking, virtuous and considerate. She is proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and sticks to Yuan Zhen's dull and gloomy home cooking. More importantly, Yuan Zhen was supported and promoted by his father-in-law.
I don't know who said that women in the world can suffer less or be rich. Yuan Zhen is not poor, but as a woman who is willing to share joys and sorrows when she is underdeveloped, she is so beautiful. Who can not be moved by it? Before Liu Bang attacked Lv Zhi and after Zhu Yuanzhang attacked Ma Huanghou, this kind of woman is worth cherishing.
Although Yuan Zhen was a "scum", he had to show his sincerity in front of Teacher Wei. It can be said that the relationship between the two people is very good, and several children have been born back and forth.
Yuan Zhen was finally promoted to suggestion, and the happy days have just begun. Unexpectedly, at this time, Miss Wei, who was only 27 years old, passed away. Moreover, my father-in-law also rode Hexi, and even several children born to him and Miss Wei died one after another, leaving only one person. And himself. He was demoted to Jiangling for offending eunuchs.
Such a blow is like climbing a ladder step by step and walking in the clouds, but suddenly stepping on the air and falling down. Originally a happy family, it also rose to the top, but now it has become a loner and a guilty minister.
There is a saying that "good and evil will eventually be rewarded, only early and late." I wonder if what happened to Yuan Zhen was because he had been unkind and unfair to others, so God came to punish him.
Extramarital affairs have nothing to do with love. The seven years with Mr. Wei, though short, were the best days in Yuan Zhen's life. Some people say that his poem "From Thinking" shows endless thoughts and loyal love for Miss Wei. Endless thoughts may exist, but faithful love does not exist.
In the year of his wife's death, he met Xue Tao, known as the first poetess in the Tang Dynasty, in Sichuan. He knew that the other person was ten years older than himself, and he couldn't give Xue Tao a stable life, but he still provoked her and fell in love with her. Two people travel hand in hand, and you can cultivate me. The good times are coming to an end. He ran back to Luoyang and didn't forget to fly books with Xue Tao Hongyan.
Although they will definitely meet again, Yuan Zhen met Liu Caichun who can sing and dance. At this time, Liu Caichun, who has married another woman, played an extramarital affair. Xue Tao, a 10-year-old sister, was dumped by him. Xue Tao waited for a long time later, but when she was old, she also saw through the so-called love between men and women, and resolutely put on the cassock and became a female Taoist.
Liu Caichun, by contrast, is miserable, and Cui Yingying's fate is similar. He was abandoned by Yuan Zhen. It is estimated that Liu Caichun's husband has already discovered the clue of the two of them. Originally, Liu Caichun dared to shout "because of love", and maybe he could have a red stroke at night and elope with Yuan Zhen to find a happy place to be a fairy couple. Now that Yuan Zhen has patted her ass and left, she thinks of her frivolous and unreasonable behavior, so she is ashamed and committed suicide by jumping into the river.
There are definitely more women who have an affair with Yuan Zhen. Being demoted, Su Shi made wine, cooked Dongpo meat and read Tao Yuanming all the way to do good for the local people. But Yuan Zhen kept picking up girls all the way. This may be why so many people like Su Dongpo, but Yuan Zhen is controversial.
Li Si was written by Yuan Zhen when he was in trouble. Only when he was in trouble will people think of those beautiful things that have passed away one after another. But it's hard to say how loyal I am to my dead wife. After all, although the poem is beautiful, the anniversary of my wife's death hasn't passed, and I have been with Xue Tao.
After reading this poem, my greater feeling is that I regret that the good days have passed and I will never come back. This may be what Yuan Zhen really thinks.