Evening
The sun sets in the west, the beautiful evening sun gradually diffused from the sky. The sun also changed from a half moon cake to a crescent moon covered by the evening sun, and finally gradually entered the dreamland.
The evening sun dyed the western sky red. It shines faintly in every corner. At this time the evening sun, like a shy little girl, just smeared with a layer of orange. The clouds in the sky were blurred and took various forms. Some are like a little sheep running on the grass; some are like doves of peace flying freely. The evening sun is very mysterious, in a short while, it will become light red, then, as if everything in the world is the evening sun left a shadow, like in the flowers and forests floating in general. The sea was quiet. The evening sun is a little reluctant, make all the strength, the color, let a person feel unpredictable, unforgettable.
The feeling of blackness has been gradually approaching us, but the sunset did not give in, he still insisted on his own beauty. The breeze blew by, as if feeling the end of the sunset. The sky, the slightly reddish clouds also scattered, he reluctantly put on a black veil, away.
Darkness fell, and the sky shimmered with misty spots of light, like pixies bouncing around on it. The night was lit up with lights, and the city of lights made the night even more beautiful.
I recalled the beautiful sunset, I can not help but marvel at his beauty. The morning sun is magical, and I think, the evening sun is more beautiful. Because of his beauty of nature, the beauty of simplicity, and let me know, he has a kind of unyielding spirit, do not we need to do so in the study of life
Thinking about it, I looked at the sky intoxicated ......
Two.
April, there should be a wind blowing
April Zhengzhou, less enchanting March, more June cool, is cool.
It seems that I don't hate the wind, not when it blows away someone's cute hairstyle, not when it takes away someone's quiet heart.
Watching the campus cherry blossoms fall, many people say the most sentence is the flowers from the water flow. I know the next sentence is a kind of lovesickness, two idle sorrows. Looking at the residual flowers all over the ground, suddenly also feel the humor of the wind, is not the soil enough to her original fragrance?
Slowly, fewer of those gentle like whisking, fewer of those faint fragrance. Looking at the campus quiet night, quietly hiding, afraid of being starlight, but also afraid of those naughty branches violently beat themselves, this time, thinking it should be a breeze on the face, right? So, he blew his own hair, dressed up to play it cool, and only at night can he expose himself completely.
Mountains have wood and trees have branches, the heart pleases you and you do not know. This is the sentence I heard today, suddenly good heartache, is not such a sentence once also touched myself, only to let me so spiritually connected? Persuaded himself, looking out the window, swallowed choking some distractions, turned his head, looked at himself and smiled. At this time, I think there should be the wind blowing, otherwise spinning it why suddenly disappeared?
April, no longer like the morning of January, still looking forward to the downstairs is not the remnants of a little snow. April, there should be the wind blowing through, the small expectations also blew away, leaving the reality of the concrete floor, cold, waiting for the night, waiting and the stars as lonely and lonely.
Quietly waiting for the wind to blow through, unfortunately, they are gradually disappearing in this wind, but also wanted to shout, to find themselves back, penetrating reality, slowly hit the dusty heart, so I chose to give up their own, let him randomly floating away, no longer miss.
Stranger flowers bloom, slowly return. Slowly return to the real life, no longer give yourself a picture of what ideal what, false or virtual?
The heartbeat of the bang will be slowly lost, in exchange for the exchange of material, perhaps, or.
Habitually waiting for the wind blowing outside the window, should not also wait for their own favorite also to erase?
April, there should be wind blowing. I don't know if I will still wait for the wind to make a promise.
Three.
The choice of the mind
The mind is a person's root, people's concepts in the mind wandering and sublimation; the mind is a person's soul, people's moves because the soul of the mind this soul rolling and change.
In the face of life's choices, we should always maintain a pure and noble heart, a kind of hot and warm heart, a kind of perseverance and unyielding heart, we have to be like that mountain climber, reach out to help, with the body and mind to warm up others, to make the right choice.
In the face of flooding, long term, all of China will not have the enemy's soldiers and no pay for the silver of the critical situation, Lin Zexu resolutely stood up to the Humen Smokeout feat of deterrence; in the face of all kinds of coercion of the Yuan people, Wen Tianxiang decided to go to the righteousness of the "I have a piece of heart of a magnetic needle stone, do not point to the south and refused to rest." So far read this shocking poem, still let a person excited. From ancient times to the present, how many heroes, how many heroes in order to the noble sentiments of the heart, in order to the dignity of the motherland, in the face of the fierce collision of life and death, they throw their heads, sprinkle hot blood, death disregard, to the end of regret. This is not regret is their heart to make the right choice, their bold words, heroic deeds inspired generations of young people growing up, their choice has been y rooted in our hearts, their actions straight to shock the world, weeping ghosts and gods. With heaven and earth Ruoxi than life, with the sun and moon Ruoxi Qi light.
"Life is what I want; righteousness is what I want; I can't have both, so I'll give up my life for righteousness." Thousands of years ago, Mencius faced with the choice of the heart, resolutely issued a cry of righteousness, is the choice of the heart inspired the thought of the philosophers spark, this will be an unchanging ancient teachings.
The world, divided for a long time will be united, united for a long time will be divided, in the era of the three kingdoms, Zhu Geliang auxiliary Liu Bei can be said to be exhausted, die, in order to restore the Han dynasty, Zhu Geliang exhaustive, in the plowing in the Nanyang and the restoration of the Han dynasty, Zhu Geliang chose the latter, and is still praised by the people. Our Prime Minister Zhu Ji in the answer to a reporter's question is not also quoted in the "bow and exhaustion, dying before you die," the words of this is the depth of the human heart, is to fight for the country and the righteousness of the righteousness.
Identifying the rise and fall of past generations, and examining the gains and losses of today. From the choice of the ancient people's heart we feel their great righteousness. It is the choice of the heart that contributed to their ultimate beauty, and it is the choice of the heart that makes them still shine with a radiant light.
To give up selfishness and choose nobility; to give up treachery and choose honesty; to give up the little me and fulfill the big me ......
This is the fearless choice that people make from the heart, from the soul.
IV. Ordinary memories
A large chunk of time has passed, and I want to write something to pay tribute to the lost time. Sitting in front of the computer, the thousands of words and emotions that were once there were gone in an instant.
The time
The internship has been over for a month. Now I am sitting at home calmly remembering this time, and my heart is full of gratitude. I am grateful to my teammates for their great tolerance, support and encouragement, to my roommates for their comfort and help when I was lonely, to my supervisors for the opportunities and trials they gave me, and to my students for the trust and joy they gave me. Perhaps without them, my internship would not have been as exciting and memorable. This time of internship makes my life feel real, real people, real scenes, real life status, real busy. Every day had a purpose, every day was in my hands. There are so many things and people I want to honor in this segment. Some of them remind me of myself when I was a child, some of them let me see my present self, some of them let me see my future self, no matter which people and which times and which things, I believe that they all changed me from the depths of my heart, my stubbornness, my conceit, my fragility, my vulnerability, and even my own self-proclaimed strength. Three months later, I know deep down that I have changed.
After returning to school from the internship, the later work followed, the organization of the summary, the collection of information back to the internship school, the arrangement and conduct of the team members' work, and I saw that we are a team, and there is something unique in this team. It comes from our love and *** with support, with my part of the vision I know, without them, I may not go on. So in this mutual help and love team life, we witness each other's growth together. At the summary meeting, we saw the video materials we recorded ourselves, and our tears witnessed our growth. Maybe the information is not perfect, the details are not perfect, but we know that it is the most real, the most original information, and only after all this we can see the moving and shock behind.
Maybe I'm so in love that I don't want to be constrained, or maybe I'm just not mature enough, and a lot of times I'd hate the rule makers. Because under immature conditions, a change in their mood or even a flash of thought can change other people's lives or even their whole lives. Maybe in the face of such things I would use my own weak power to resist, or even otherwise. In more than ten days of that kind of environment, my own heart was highly disturbed. It was also during that time that I came across the phrase over and over again, which was: "Be thou quiet; be thou at rest."
Summer Flavors
Just like sitting at home and remembering my internship, at this point, I am sitting on campus remembering this pure summer vacation. It gives me mixed feelings and mixed emotions. It's like when a classmate in high school said to me, "You have too little social experience." Egotistical me did not recognize, today look back, he was really right. I really hope that the summer vacation will make up for this shortcoming, because it taught me much more than what I can see, but also my spiritual growth. Although it was full of hardships, there was joy in the pain, my joy, my perseverance, my growth, and an inner gratitude. The time I spent with my students has become a wonderful memory. Of course, there are also friends who care as well as patiently listen to my pain and joy, giving me a lot of encouragement and comfort, so that my hard life has a lot more warmth.
I still remember that I helped my friend to translate a paper on physics, it was unbearable, although I tried my best, but certain things were really beyond my ability, looking at what I translated, I wanted to die. I'm sorry to say that we're just now getting into Chinese to English. It seems like there's still a long way to go~
Have had some bad dreams and woke up crying in the dark in the early hours of the morning. I didn't parse them with what I'd learned, but just asked myself y in the light of day what it was about my fears and my worries that managed to stay in my subconscious, occasionally breaking through and intruding into my life!
Seeing his distant cousins, aunts and aunts and uncles whom he had not seen for ten years, his heart was unusually excited, and his thoughts and excitement had long since dissolved into the images he had once envisioned. This is the biggest surprise of the summer.
Two months, listened to certain fit their mood, or bitter or happy or struggle or choice, they - with the mood of the elves, gave me a calm heart to face, to accept, to wait.
Looking at the above two paragraphs separated by more than a month of text, I know I have sorted out all the mood, has nothing to do with gain or loss, no need to be high or low, I can already start a new journey.
Ears again ringing certain familiar:
--"Never said goodbye, there will always be tomorrow ...... you still turn my regret into a success. To be able to meet is fate, even if it's just a hurried glance ......"
--"Memories of a scene repeated, I told myself to face it bravely, even if the heart is broken but also perfect ...... "
--"...... That day, you have to revitalize your mood; that day, you have to cherish yourself; that day, don't forget that someone loves you; that day, don't say give up easily... ."
--"Go away go away, one must always learn to grow up by oneself."
--"Fly forward hard, it doesn't matter if you're tired, how beautiful is the light after the darkness."
V. Zero Mindset
When I wrote these four words, my own mind was at peace, starting from zero.
The so-called zero mentality, that is, everything starts from now, from the results that we are facing now, the past and then the glory has passed, the past and then the hard work also refers to represent the past. This is a spirit of constant struggle, a kind of literacy that speaks with results. On the other hand, if there is no zero mentality, the past honor and performance into a burden on the body, the past love affair brilliant when hanging in the mouth, so that the past suffering and sadness when the heart, that will be what kind of result? I think each and every one of us will know the answer.
From a professional point of view, it is important to clear the mind. The famous domestic private enterprise Xinao Group has put forward the "zero mentality". The meaning of its interpretation is that, for individuals, whether newcomers or old people, newcomers to face the new environment, should be "zero processing". That is to say, no matter how big achievements you have made in the past in your company, and no matter what famous school you have graduated from, after you come to Neo, you have to start from zero, from the grass-roots level, and you can't be addicted to the achievements and pride in the past. On the one hand, the veterans of Neo have made indelible contributions to the development of the company; on the other hand, in the face of the new situation of the Group's development, they should also "zero out" their past achievements, and should not claim themselves as the creditors, but should have the courage to transcend themselves and achieve new endeavors. The many professional managers, it is because of the ability to put down the previous achievements, starting from zero, to win a broader world of development.
From the emotional point of view, the zero state is more important, after all, our life is accompanied by feelings through life. From the season of youthful ignorance, young boys and girls begin to aspire to perfect love and pursue romantic love. Undeniably, most of the young people are eager for eternal love, the same desire for their love to come roaring, so successful examples are not unheard of. However, after a great deal of excitement always return to a quiet life, at this time the gap will begin to highlight, so there is now the divorce rate why so high, because many people can not accept this gap. And in the lost love in the friends again to find the next love, always like to take this lover and the past lovers comparison, always like to immerse in the past lovers in the good times. In fact, we tend to ignore the serious results of the comparison, the past lovers can not become lifelong partners, which in itself there are many unfavorable factors, and we still bring these unfavorable factors to be attached to the current lovers, then the results can be imagined. So the past love after all has passed, we want to pursue is the future of happiness, is to be with their own life partner, then we should have a "zero mentality", completely forget the past, so that a very relaxed and calm state of mind to pursue the next period of feelings, to meet the real love you and your love partner.
Remembering that I saw this sentence in a book, an American entrepreneur said in response to the experience of Bill Gates: "A degree is the epitaph of a period of learning, and dropping out is the beginning of a period of learning." Yes, each of us if we can maintain a sober and calm mind, the past into zero, I think our life, our work will live a more colorful and meaningful!!!!
Six. Spring colors
Recently, because of the study is very busy sake, are rarely go to the lake walk, this afternoon specially find time to glance at the beauty of the lake in spring, green grass, willow tree that emerald green long braid, the beauty of the touch, pink peach blossom exudes a burst of fragrance, the flower trees show different colors of the pattern, really let a person's mood swings.
Spring is a splendid season, the spring lake to give people a lot of beautiful yearning, come to walk the people also put on a light and beautiful spring clothes, welcoming the warm spring breeze to enjoy the vibrant spring, nature brings people the beauty, thus stimulating the inner feelings, really want to walk with you hand in hand in the lake, perceive the charm of the spring, the joy of the heart, feel the strong feelings of you, and the heart of the people, the heart of the lake, the heart of the people, the heart of the people, the heart of the people, and the heart of the people, and the heart of the people. Activate our love cells, sense each other's heartbeat, and share the colors of spring together.
Tomorrow is your birthday, in this special day, sincerely wish you all the best, happy birthday! I know that recently my work is very busy, plus the torture of leg pain, almost physically and mentally exhausted, but I can feel your warm concern every day, the love of the heart, although that day I drank because of the bad mood, but the frenzy in my heart remains unchanged, it is that I want to think of you, like the colors of the spring, all the beauty is only for you, as long as you're happy every day, I'll be happy!
Every spring has a magical color, but after you, it is more to feel the charm of spring, just soft and exudes dazzling magic, because of you, the spring has become rich in youthful vitality and color, at this time I want to think of you, I want to dance with you tonight, drinking red wine together, at that moment to feel the most beautiful romance, full of your smile, in your gentle gaze exudes love, and you! Together with the night scenery, together with the sunrise, together with the feeling of spring charming, spring warmth, spring colorful.
VII. Sink in the memories
Another sluggish wind, raising the yellow sand that no one cares about, shaking this lonely post, setting off my long-lasting thoughts. It is said that when people are quiet, they think about some things. These hidden in the heart, unknown secrets, like a souvenir book, always evoke a series of memories! Sometimes I wonder, is my memory too good? Or am I too attentive? Why is it that things that happened between us, you have all forgotten, but I still remember them vividly? That's probably how people are different from each other. We've all done things we regret, yet I've realized that coming up short is all about the regret and have almost gotten used to the routine. When you start doing the thing, it feels reasonable, and when you're done, you feel satisfied and happy. But when something unsatisfactory happens, we begin to regret, begin to complain, begin to blame ourselves, or decadence and degradation, with time, these are a thing of the past. In thinking about it, at most a sigh, today's memory, destined to be replaced by tomorrow's reality. I am still young! Seeing too shallow, I need your guidance, but not to point at me! In this young age, I lost to loneliness, sunk in memories ......
VIII. Turn the page
Everyone's life can be a book, and you only appeared in my life this book of this page, in this page I will write your name all over. But after turning this page, you will never appear in my life again. After all, you can't be the content of every page of this book of my life, you only belong to that unique page. Since the separation, there is no hurt, no regret, I hope you are the same, please erase all the memories of me, or discarded, buried, just hope you can be healthy, happy life.
Writing all this is just to tell myself that this page of my life has passed, and no matter how beautiful it once was, that is all in the past. In my life, I also do not want to remember you. In fact, this was a story that should not have started, hence the reason why it was so hurriedly, unsuspectedly but obviously undoubtedly, back to their respective lives. I don't regret leaving you, the only thing I regret is that I lost a friend because of my false start.
Life is gorgeous, and we are destined to be just passers-by in each other's lives, pedestrians. I haven't seen you for the past few days, I don't know how are you doing? Just hope you can be happy. Although I no longer have more relationship with you, but I more or less understand you some. In the new year, I hope your ideals can be realized and you go to a better life.
9. April fools - deserted
Recently as if only opened his eyes to sleep, surprised to find that the summer came, as if looking at the world for the first time, the leaves are deep and light, green as if to drip crystal water droplets, flowers fresh and tender, delicate as if to blend into the soft wind. The sky is very blue, no clouds, the sun is open and bright, sunny heart dry. The mood is bright, but emotional, this second laugh hurts the apple muscle, the next second cry swollen eyes. I love nature, I want to live, but I don't dare.
April, in the blink of an eye, has been in the middle of the month, every day every day with no departure from the notepad has not been recorded for a long time. I've been back from Hangzhou, I've had a fever for a few days, I've been sleeping for days, I've been taken care of, I'm deep in a kind of ambiguity, I know it's dangerous but I can't do it myself. Nothing has been accomplished. But it seems to really live the days as 2012, even if skipping classes and no company to go all the way to see her, even if the phone is turned off to miss class, but also to wake up this sleep to talk about it, even if the legs are weak and feverish, but also to go to see the cherry blossoms fly before the rain, even if nothing to do, but also willing to follow him crazy.
Slowly, some things began to not mind, however, the heart began to have doubts, on the, is it so?
What I had in the past was all transient happiness. So, every time you turn around, I'll be ready for you to never look back again, so don't get too far away from me! I used to be alone, an autistic person, so I get tired of being with another person for a long time, including family and friends and you, so hold me tight and don't talk! That unknown you no matter when you show up, be it the present moment be it ever or, though it warms me shines me burns me!
April fools, accumulated a lot of work to do, no mood no mood, how is good how is good? Wasted it, like the barren grass spread throughout the Central Branch Desert, like scrap iron to open up the stars and flowers! Like the barren mountains, naked and open face to the yellow sky, like a scrap factory empty stomach filled with the wind and the echo of heavy metal!
April fools, promises, vows, lies, physical pain, pressure from within, rejection, crying eyes ......
Mess. Wasted.
X. April Story
It does not feel emotional time flies by, turn another year of spring grass green, April's warm wind blowing, like a beautiful prose, essays, slow nourishing penetration of sweetness to the bare branches of the tree has not yet spit out shoots overnight, but will soon be green, this is really the most interesting thing, at that time, looking at the leaves a little bit of a day to become green, flowers a little bit of a day to gradually open, this scene, always Feel the thoughts drift, faraway mood, the state of mind and suddenly very quiet, idle, move a stool to sit in front of the door in the sun, constantly passing pedestrians, because always feel disturbed people's eyes, so hold a Bible, a very small Bible, do not want to feel as if the Pharisees hypocrites for the good, dedicated to the people before the performance of their good behavior. The sunlight falls on the whole page, the sun is already in the west, read the chapter of Psalms, the heart, filling up, calm as water. It was a rare moment of idleness. From time to time, the wind blew up long hair, slender, silent drift, through the silk luster. White shirt reflecting the cheeks more and more bright, sand particles in the face, itchy, northern spring sandy wind, sand will always be lost in the eyes, get up and folded back indoors, rushed a cup of honey water, moisturize the skin and a hundred body, it will make people become more beautiful, healthy.
The evening home after packing winter cotton clothes, hanging out the single clothes and skirts to be worn, color styles vary, tried on a few pieces of clothing, clothing, reasonable collocation, can really bring a touch of cozy beauty. This ethereal and ethereal, although it can give people a short period of time, in fact, this is really skinny, there is no need to show off a lot, show off will be more tedious. Let people despise.
Da Hidden in, looking at the traffic, my heart is so cool, I can find peace and comfort from this, in this April season, to create a simple mood, just plant a vine in the mind, fresh, do not need to be complex and colorful style. Speaking of the mind, if you do not pay attention to regulating their own mind, over time, the mind may become a ruin, even if you read more books, drink more lattes, cappuccinos, wear expensive clothing, can not change their own rotten from the bottom of the heart, but because of people's limited, it is impossible to complete the self-salvation, so the static time to read a few verses of the Bible, as if a splash of wind, a mouthful of spring, to open up new Therefore, when you are in a static state, read a few verses of the Bible as if it were a breath of fresh air and a mouthful of spring water, and open up a new life, and enjoy those constant joys in your life. It will bring you a hundredfold blessing.
XI. Black April
The month of April has become black.
Probably these days last year, I broke my leg playing soccer. Yesterday, playing basketball fell down, the wrist and waist below the fall ......
Okay, so many years have passed, small injuries and small pain can make me in the mouth talk about laughing, the real pain when the time to come fast to go fast, is not because I myself is a happy person ah, easy to forget things, including the pain of the last moment.
Going today, I discovered the only orthopedic department in our school is so good.
By the way, there is one more thing I must say, yesterday, saw the grass on the lawn sprouting green shoots, and the marshal told me not to step on it.
Today, the peach blossom is in bloom, the arrangement of not neatly arranged ordinary peach trees in bloom, also so write, some people stopped to take pictures.
Eating the nameless edge of rice noodles outside the west gate. I don't eat rice noodles very often, but I don't know when I'll have it next.
Watched a movie, the nervous couple, whether singing or making movies Eason Chan should be my favorite. Like the movie ordinary dialogue, like that empty, true, reality, dreams intertwined in the eyes. Like the change of a character.
Of course I envy the drama, the girl gave him a small gift, "the future belongs to the brave". So longing to meet that person too, to meet a love that is out of reality, or to meet. Although the end is not satisfactory, but also will have no regrets to smile at the sky.
Now listening to EASON, no pain, of course, the left wrist occasionally typing lift not high enough to touch the table will still hurt.
Last night did not sleep well, the pain, I think, so today actually took a nap, a long long time at noon did not fall asleep, as if for a long time did not sleep so well.
Sometimes you don't have to talk.
Be yourself, be brave.
XII. The end of April, the darkness of the night Fangfei
So long, so slow, no end, no beginning. Entangled, waiting, y trapped, unable to walk away, unable to escape. Like a nightmare in the dark, struggling, struggling, struggling.
The flower in full bloom, using all its life's strength, breaks itself open bit by bit.
See the sleeping magnolia now, the darkness flooded with the sorrow that was once hidden in the sun. Do you remember how happy she looked during the day?
There is a poppy pricked in the heart, a poppy that opens instantly in the wrong season, but is slow to fail. You see its mauve sad petals, and do you see the veins of the flower black a trace of growth. You say, poppy happy?
Shattered sunshine sprinkled down, do not remember to return to which brilliant day. Fingertips touch the leaves of the shrub, knocking, a moment out of time, finally happy to open in the once, broken in the present.
Sometimes, a sudden scene, only to let themselves know, wrong, the original wrong. Just like the broken flower petals, withered only to know, even if the exhaustion of a lifetime of strength, will never open your favorite navy blue.
Don't wait, you can't wait for the day when the poppy toxin fades away.
-When will you stop loving him? Forget him?
-Wait until the day you don't love me and forget me.
XIII. Missing
I'm a good girl who doesn't like to make demands too much, and likes to be quiet. I've been working outside for more than a year now, and since last February, I've only been back to my home for 2 times, once in October last year, when the festival was held, and once at the beginning of this year, when New Year's Eve was celebrated. Usually when I miss home, I just bury my thoughts in my heart, faintly, not letting anyone notice.
I am a more nostalgic person, the place where I lived as a child, in the year before last, but also deliberately take the camera, to go to the memories photographed. Although the body outside, but always remember their original dream. The heart of the matter is that, often, when my mother mentioned me to others, she would say that I work in a big city, right, everything will be fine, but the key is still to rely on my own.
Sometimes it's lonely, sometimes it's helpless, but since I'm here, I'm going to learn to sink my heart in a big city, too much impatience won't make people have no roots or thoughts, everywhere is the smell of materialism, and the streets are full of soliciting customers' employees. Shanghai, the city, is really a shopper's paradise, if you do not have money. It is said that in fact poverty is not terrible, hardship is not terrible, the most terrible thing is actually no root, the root is a person's soul, without the root of a person also lost the soul, lost the original meaning of her life.
Recently, I am very homesick, is it because I can see through the people and things in the society, and I am a little bit disappointed with everything? Or do you need a space for yourself, a space to live by yourself? It's a bit confusing. I feel surprised that I am already 14 years old, it is the time to mature, it is also the time, always thinking that there is someone I can rely on is good. Now I realize that everything is to pay to get, now see, do not rely on anyone, let yourself be strong, whether it is inside or strength, are very important.
Fifteen. The heart seems to have a thousand knots
Always some inexplicable ideas, or inexplicable worries, even if you know that want to think of no use, but still all the time enchanting their lives. Strangely enough, rumination seems to be a human instinct, and even if you try to paralyze yourself with work, it's as if you're just repressing it, and it'll reappear after the past day.
What's wrong with me, is the inexplicable panic resurfacing, but also to tell myself to overcome my hesitant self, my rambling self, my constant worrying about all sorts of things. Whether I can really become a man of action or not, maybe still need to wait and see, now little by little to start.
Summary of the rules of doing things for myself:Come on, deal with it. Problems, find ways to solve them. The problem, spend more time. Difficult problem, put down. Third party factors, none of your business, focus on what you're doing now.
Tonight again combed through the thoughts, I hope that in the future I think a little less, do a little more, do not look back, do not hold unrealistic delusions.