"On this special day, let's look back on Leslie Cheung, look back on his dramatic life, look back on his every classic, every action, every expression, recall his lonesomeness, his warmth, his loneliness and untutored, his clarity and simplicity, he deserves to be remembered, to be written, to be guessed and sighed at over and over again by our generation! "
The radio host's gentle and deep voice in my traveling car back and forth, while the song rang out, singing low, lingering and lingering, like a light fog slowly drown me ......
Another April Fool's Day!
On this special day, people usually engage in a variety of pranks to tease the familiar people around to amuse, however, 17 years ago, Zhang Guorong on this day determined to leap from a high building, life became extinct!
For the world should be how desperate, for the reality should be how helpless!
I was a young girl, I had put his posters all over the wall, tape stuffed drawers, his warm songs, like an irresistible magic, quickly brought me into the melody, indulgence, indulgence, can not be extricated ......
Now, although he has been gone for many years, the appearance of the voice and smile is still there, and will often be inadvertent With his gentle gaze and a wave of three sighs of song to stir up my wet girl heart and endless memories ......
For the earth he did not have a trace of attachment? How desperate must he have been to say goodbye to the world and break with life in such a tragic way?
At first we thought it was a joke, but then it was hard to believe that it was the truth, after all, who can joke with a person's life?
Except himself!
The day was cloudy, a look of tears, I pulled over to the side of the road, Zhan River on both sides of the spring flowers, green grass, stroll among them, a sudden burst of sadness came, not far away, high-rise buildings, every house, every home is staged their own story, the world is so rushed, who cares about a lonely to the despair of the heart? If at the last minute ringing want to pick up the phone, send just the right encouragement, he will not change his mind, life is rewritten?
After all, he is still young, after all, life has unlimited possibilities! After all, he has a promising future, after all ......
However, the crossing only appeared in the play, life can not be rewound, his voice and face forever fixed at 46 years old, the earth and then no more Leslie Cheung, we can only appreciate his style in the play, in the song to find the memories belonging to him!
Regarding the reasons for Leslie Cheung's suicide, there are many different opinions and confusion:
Living a life as a play, and demanding perfection in everything, in this realistic society is really easy to go into extinction, not to mention mental depression!
Because the face of reality is so cloudy and unpredictable, it's hard for us to handle! If we can't learn to compromise, we're only going to die physically and mentally!
The loneliness of not being made whole will make people endlessly exhausted by life, unable to find a way out, and eventually a small thing will become the last straw that crushes a person, forcing you to walk on a road of no return!
Leslie Cheung is undoubtedly the lonely one, and you'll often catch it in his despondent eyes and lost smile. For the people around him, he has to cross his heart and lungs! That softest part of the body there are ribs to protect, but he has to hand over as much as possible, to the sound and color of the society of fame and fortune and every possible sense of loss of control, this risk, too much!
There's another way to put it:
His career has been very successful, even if it's been slightly flawed, but it doesn't detract from his reputation as a superstar of his generation, and maybe that's why he's been so hard on himself, because his reputation is a halo around his head, but it's often turned into a curse and a headache in the midst of the reality of the "Amitabha Buddha". In the reality of the "Amitabha" in the broken idea of people with a splitting headache, difficult to bear, life ups and downs, the sea, the enthusiasm was cooled, the sincerity was let down, exhaustion of physical strength but can not be soothed, only to use the loss of life to fight, to defend, let a person heartbreaking!
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After the epidemic, with the unsealing of the Zhan River embankment to walk, exercise more and more people, although each with a mask, cover off half of the face, uncle threw up a long whip, crisp whip sound resounded through the clouds, the aunt of the square dance, posture is not lack of beautiful, in the corner of the small open space on the corner of a girl outstanding, alone with the music in the dance, the clothes fluttering! ......
At a glance, the love of life of the masses ......
They are idle and peaceful, enjoying the gift of nature, the vitality of life, April, the spring flowers, it is a season that makes people stay ah! But this spring breeze is not warm enough, not strong enough, some of the ice, hidden in the human heart, you can not see, it can not melt away ......
The world, originally filled with different people, some people for the love of the trapped, but the heart was line of servitude, some people for the life of the exhaustion of the pursuit of spiritual extremity, some people are busy calculating, want to take advantage of all the cheap, and some of them are not the best, and some of them are not the best. Some people give up their lives and forget about death, the heart of righteousness ......
The world, busy, busy life, the world, and then flowers and greenery, but also called some people feel that there is no love for life, and generously go to the death, obviously Zhang Guorong belongs to the latter, he lived in the cold winter of his own mind, difficult to move forward, look around without help, the life of the answer sheet has no spare The only way to get to the bottom of the problem is to get to the bottom of the problem!
For the love of the trapped also, for the name of the tired also, a generation of superstar fall, leaving us only regret and sigh!
After all, some people pursue the thickness and width of life, some people are keen to peace and security, long life, as an onlooker, we can not judge the right and wrong, as a playwright, we are only responsible for playing their roles.
Cherry blossom splendor, only fragrant for a moment, eventually withered into the mud, life is your side of the song I appeared on the stage of the endless interpretation! Life is like a play, play like life ah!