Why do girls act sometimes resistant and sometimes intimate?
Why was sexually assaulted for three years and never asked for help from those around her?
What kind of feelings does the girl have for her abuser?
How has the girl's view of the world changed?
I believe you can find the answers from the book.
Taiwan author Lin Yi-han based on his personal experience, 15 years old was sexually abused by the tutorial teacher, up to three years, wrote this long novel, published after the attempted suicide by hanging.
While writing this work, she shed tears every day and knocked down so many words.
In order to let millions of victims see that you are not alone, there are many other victims like you, do not be afraid.
For those who are lucky enough to see the back of the world without having to touch it.
Humans are best at forgetting, and who remembers the anger that was once there after the storm has passed?
And this book is a constant reminder that the perpetrators of such violence cannot be exterminated, and that there are many more victims.
Our laws need to be improved, our sex education needs to be popularized, we need to pay attention to psychological counselling, we need to be less "victim guilt theory".
"We seem to have everything at home, but no sex education"
"What sex education? Sex education is for those who need sex, isn't that what the so-called sex education is all about."
"I heard there was a student at school with a teacher."
"So young and so slutty."
Only twice in the book does Fang Siqi hint at her mother's words, and when she hears her mother's reply, Siqi doesn't speak. She decided for a split second that she would never speak again for the rest of her life.
Who else can she turn to when her most trusted family can't understand?
In love, I am wistful.
I just want to find a spiritual girl to talk to.
You are the one who has read books and should know that beauty is not its own. You are so beautiful, but it can never belong to all of them, so it has to belong to me.
I am with you, as if joy and sorrow have no name.
I am the sleeping beauty, you kissed them awake.
It feels like a miracle when someone you like likes you back.
I am a student of literature, I need to know the voice to be able to, I am lonely, but I have been living with loneliness and peace **** for so long, it was the way you bowed your head to write that knocked it out.
Our ending, do not say tragedy, anyway, must not be a comedy, only hope that you look back on having had a happy, and then meet a good boy you will follow.
Is it beautiful? Very beautiful. This is all the abuser Li Guohua mouth out.
Is it touching? It's so touching! I'm willing to let you go when you meet someone you like, and you practically made yourself cry.
He forced the 13-year-old Siqi into a corner, said nine words "if not, the mouth can be it", Siqi said "no, I will not", so he forced in, and the very cultured Siqi said afterward. "I'm sorry".
The English teacher would not have understood the feeling of song and dance when Li Guohua first heard of a girl's suicide. A tsunami of heart-clearing tones. The highest compliment you can pay a man is to kill yourself for him.
Everything is about sex, except sex, which is a symbol of power, ever.
Li Guohua used literature to lure the literature-obsessed Siqi, and the supreme literature in Lin Yihan's heart is just four words for Li Guohua: "Eat color, eat sex".
In his hands, literature and language have become a tool for seduction and coaxing.
He is a conceited and brutal villain, but he tries hard to be moving.
I think that's why Lin Yihan couldn't love the world anymore after his faith collapsed.
The poetic and beautiful "words" are just illusions, depending on different people, may be angels, may be the devil.
Art and virtue are two different things.
A child of such refinement would never talk about it, because it is too dirty. Pride is often a wounding needle but here pride will sew up her mouth.
One of the symptoms of post-traumatic stress syndrome is that the victim blames herself and is filled with guilt. It's not that I don't feel guilty, it's that they use up their guilt quota. The little girl's labia itself looks like a traumatized orifice. It's so beautiful, and this empathy of sin is a rhetorical method at its most extreme.
It's so convenient for society to feel so inhibited about sex that raping a schoolgirl makes the whole world feel like it's her own fault, even her. The guilt will drive her back to him again.
The dirtiest thing is not the dirt, it's that even the dirt dislikes her.
It turns out that one has no imagination for the pain of the Other.
If it is filthy to make love with someone you do not love, and since the teacher loves himself, if he really loves me, forget it. If the veil of love is torn away and run behind the ugly, it is a naked "social murder", just like the not-so-fictional Internet comments against Xiaoqi.
Each of us should be aware that our shame and perverse views on sexuality fuel the aggressor and weaken the victim.
With her mother's vitriol and Li's mind control, Siqi is left to suffer alone.
For more than five years, more than 2,000 nights, Siqi could not sleep peacefully, and when she closed her eyes, all that came to mind was Li Guohua's figure, which she could not break free of even if she wanted to, until finally, she collapsed.
And Li Guohua, due to the age, lack of evidence, is still at large.
The real-life Lin Yihan is different from the novel in that she finds her ideal incarnation, Mao Mao, and they get married.
Even though she was surrounded by love, Lin Yihan, who suffered from mental illness for years, chose to leave.
Maybe that's where the angels belong.