Our acquaintance was uneventful. At that time, the Alumni Association newly recruited a group of academic assistants, and you were one of them. In fact, in addition to the reception of two alumni reunions and a collective dinner together, there is not much contact on the work, but the private contact is more and more familiar. I am a math scum, the midterm will be the end of the class exam of linear algebra makes me anxious, but this is a piece of cake for you. At that time, you have not opened this course, but you promised to give me tutoring. We agreed to study together, you self-study line generation to give me problems, I learned to be annoyed with you and I play popstar. out of the study room, we have been walking along the school road ah walk, from the beginning of the side-by-side into the face of my backward walk, the dim street lamps will be our shadows pulled a long, long, long, all the way to talk about as if it will never be able to talk about the topic of ambiguous atmosphere lingering in the The first time I saw the car, I saw it in the car, and then I saw it in the car, and then I saw it in the car.
Once I talked about my refusal to love my brother and sister, after returning to the dormitory, I received a text message from you: If there is a person in addition to the age than you are small, and not more immature than you, you will also refuse? This should be regarded as one of your hints. Later, there was a steady stream of such hints. I posted a status saying that the way the world looks depends on how you gaze at it, and you replied back below, My world is such a small place, it's just right to have you. You like me, I just happen to like you, it's so nice.November 23rd is your birthday, you invited me to go to your party with your classmates, I refused, you are a little lost. When you finish eating with your friends, I handed over a handmade cake to your hands, writing the rainbow pattern of the pie, the clouds of the following written in chocolate sauce - the people if the rainbow, meet the square know there.
The next day, you invited me to go to Sichuan University to play, back in the evening, in the car feel especially tired, drowsy, I naturally leaned on your shoulder. Although you did not say anything, but obviously feel your whole body is very nervous, in fact, I can not sleep peacefully, apprehensive all the way. At night after watching a movie on the way back, you finally open the window of the sky to say the truth, to be honest, super bad confession, incoherent, but let me can not refuse. I remember that day's movie is the director of Ang Lee's masterpiece of juvenile faction of the Fantastic Drift. The first time I saw the movie, I was in the middle of it, and I was in the middle of it.
We've been together for more than two years, and we have a lot of good memories, which can't be taken away by the cruel reality.
On November 25, 2012, we were together. It was cheesy to want to write an exchange diary, so you signed up for a Goji account with a password that was an abbreviation of both of our names. Because every time you update it, you get a little red flower, we call it a little red flower. Inside it recorded a lot of sweetness. You said: I will be for you, positive change and struggle, and then give you a strong shoulder to lean on, walk through the long days later, give you plain but solid happiness. You said: I go all the way forward, waiting in the season with you. Regardless of whether the future road will be divided into two ends. You are my indispensable, then I want to be your irreplaceable. You said: the original thoughts really will be like water plants grow like crazy. It turns out that the breath can really be soaked with lingering, through the rich and intoxicating aroma. It turns out that I will be so concerned about your smile. I want to think of you, read you, love you. You said: I once gave you said, want to talk about a love without breaking up. I am serious, this is my faith in love. Similarly, it is now the faith in gogo. Love you also deep, love you also long.
November 27, 2012 . I was your first girlfriend, heard the news that you were in love, you certainly did not receive a lot of interrogation from your friends, not to mention that you so high-profile to the world to declare your happiness. Your roommate, Wang Chen, is a straightforward northeasterner, and said directly that he wanted to invite us to dinner, but actually wanted you to bring me out to see. On the way back, look at each other speechless, almost to the dormitory downstairs, you asked me cold. Without waiting for me to answer, I took my hand, as I leaned on your shoulder naturally, I clearly heard my heartbeat.
December 11th, 2012. It was night, we finished dinner ready to study together, but walked to the bench outside the teaching building and sat down. Chatting about the day, unknowingly the sky gradually darkened, the darkness can also feel your burning eyes, my face like on fire like hot. Then you kissed me and told me you loved me. I clumsily responded to your deep love, this is our first kiss each other, blushing heartbeat accompanied by a slight tremor.
December 24th, 2012 Together for a month when it happens to be Christmas Eve, you gave me a pair of gloves, and magic like from the schoolbag changed out of the apple and the emperor citrus. We released the lantern together, the wind direction deviation, wobbly hanging on the bamboo clumps near the lake, see the dry bamboo leaves have emerged star sparks, we hurried to hold the bamboo pole shaking, only to put this ill-fated lantern successfully released. The first thing we did was to put the lantern in the air, and then we swore that we would hold hands for the rest of our lives.
Our shadows have been left all over the campus.
I like to lean on you to look up at the sky through the gaps in the leaves, so that the world seems to be upside down, and one day under the banyan tree outside the school building, I saw a very large hornet's nest hanging from the tree, and later that place was called the hornet's nest by us. There was also a grassy area outside the library, which we called Begonia because of the many begonias in spring. There was a neat row of osmanthus trees on the side of Shiquan Square, which we called osmanthus trees. In fact, these names are for me to wait for you or you wait for me, there is an accurate joint location.
You are a study as life, usually in addition to the class meal, our part of the after-school hours are together on self-study. Especially in the winter exam month, we will get up especially early to go to the library to occupy a seat, and then stay there for a whole day. I said, "It feels like I'm just one more desk mate. You said, "So I'm your classmate. Then, the same table became our nickname for each other. After we broke up for a long time today, as long as you close your eyes and think of you, the table, the table, the table shouting in the ears. Every day when you wake up and open your eyes, you have to open the scars to accept the fact that you have left again, the heart was emptied out in general. The last time you called me the same table is in the graduation from school, I called you did not pick up, but received your text message: table, I'm gone. Be sure to take good care of yourself. Anyway, thanks for these two years you appeared in my life, those memories will always be there. I hold the phone in the erudite building on the fifth floor you struggled outside the study room do not know how long to cry.
Going to the movies was the best choice for our date, and we saw a lot of movies together over the two years we were together. Spy 3, Junior Pai's Fantastic Drift, Lost in Thailand, Journey to the West, Beijing meets Seattle, to youth, Star Trek, small time, sweeping the poison, no man's land, Ende's game, Beijing love story, daytime fireworks, private customization, the whole people witnessed, escaped from the sky, I want to be good with you, you at the same table, master of hypnosis, the extraordinary Spider-Man, the return of the master of the breakup, the aftermath of the meeting, Embroidered Spring Knife, the heart flower road release Rush Hour, Fast and Furious, Falling in Love, Cinderella, The Avengers, My God, Doomsday Crash, Jurassic World. Those who watched the movie on the way back to school, the time is still early, we will walk and talk, sometimes too late, all the way back to the dormitory.
I was especially sad after watching Youthful. Inside the Chen Xiaozheng and how like you ah, hardworking, progressive, and selfish, in order to dream can sacrifice their own love, you all love themselves more than love love. Weiwei said, I have envisioned many futures with you, but I am not in your future blueprint. Perhaps from that night I felt that I would suffer the same fate of abandonment in the future, then more emotions outside the drama. On the way back, I sat on the back of your bike and cried all the time, wiping your back with snot and tears. Shortly after the half anniversary, you sent me a novel to youth, the title page reads, I am not Chen Xiaozheng, because my future blueprint has you. At that time, in addition to moving, I also thought that with this firm commitment, our feelings have a thousand fear of the talisman.
After watching No Man's Land, on the way back, we discussed the plot and ended up arguing because of disagreement.
When watching the return, the tears came unexpectedly, Lu Yanshi and Feng Wan Yu agreed to meet at the train station, Lu Yanshi identity is exposed, the two are still far away from each other, Feng Wan Yu shouted Yanshi quickly run. I have always been sentimental, faced with such a tear-jerking scene, has long been crying, you silently hand over the tissue. I slightly side-eye, found that you also cried, surprised a moment to drive away my own sadness, that is the first time I saw you in tears.
From Dad to go after the start of the broadcast, we will watch the variety show together every Saturday, from Dad to go to see after the Runner Brothers. Every time you buffer in advance, and then we watch it together, and laugh together. Sometimes I secretly watched it by myself, and I would lie to you that I hadn't watched it yet, and then watch it again with you, and the laughs were still as funny.
I bought a hyacinth in my sophomore year of college, and since I bought it on November 11th, I named it One by One. But until the time of winter vacation one one did not open, my home is too far away, not convenient to bring, then entrusted it to you. Later, one of the flowers bloomed power, as we thought of each other at that time, you took a picture and sent me to see.
Sometimes we also go out to play. Every time you go out before you will carefully check the route, do a good strategy. You say you are a risk-averse person and everything has to be foolproof.
Follow your class spring trip to Longquan to see the peach blossoms, noon break, other students in the farmhouse playing cards, we brought a dust mat, they looked for a peach tree, under the tree to lay a good mat, cozy nap. To wake up, the surrounding has long been colorful, a prosperous.
We rode to Poly Park to fly a kite, tried to half a day, but did not put the small kite on the sky, people have long been tired to lie on the grass do not want to move. The only thing you can do is to manipulate the remaining spools and point to the tallest kite in the sky and say, "Look, our kite is flying so high.
In the Qingming Festival, we went to Mount Qingcheng. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to find a place to stay, but I'm going to be able to find a place to stay, and I'm going to be able to find a place to stay. I know I didn't bring extra socks, you let me lie down on the bed to rest, and asked the boss to borrow a hair dryer to dry my socks. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots, and then you'll be able to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots.
We went to the panda base, the ticket student ticket price is only 29 dollars a piece. There were not many tourists that day, and we saw a lot of pandas. There is a particularly chubby to the pool to drink water, the result of the sobriety rolled to the pool of water to take a bath, there are a few smaller eat bamboo, eat and then climbed to the tree to sleep, simply can not be too cute.
We went to the National Color Water Park, played all the projects, the most horrible Montage Maelstrom played twice, you say my screams are too terrible. Wave pool, I drank a lot of water.
You also accompanied me shopping a few times, and I am particularly keen to help you pick clothes. After being together, all of your clothes are almost all I picked for you, so watching you become more and more handsome, I have a special sense of accomplishment.
Originally said that we should have a good graduation trip, so I saved all the scholarships, in the heart of the calculation for a long time, but also longing for a long time. I want to go to the beach, want to go to Yunnan, you want to go to Jiuzhaigou. Who would have thought that our relationship did not last until the time of the graduation trip will end. Later, Jiuzhaigou trip is also a small graduation trip plus breakup trip. Jiuzhaigou is a beautiful fairy tale world, as if one is traveling in a painting. You borrowed Minister Gao's camera and took a lot of pictures along the way. If we can put the many unpleasantness of that time behind us, then it is also a hasty, helpless, and successful end to our relationship of more than two years, right? We have seen a lot of scenery together, but in the end, we have to go our separate ways.
The person who makes you cold must have made you warm, the person who makes you resentful must have made you happy, and the person who makes you cry must have moved you. It is said that memories will beautify people, and this is really not true. After the breakup of my countless times to think of you, but more and more to think of is your previous good to me, you all kinds of bad pour by memory tampering with the blurred.
I still remember, together the next day, we went to study together, I fell asleep on the table, you took off his jacket for me to put on; I still remember, before the 24th of each month you will write a small red flower; I still remember, you taught yourself the line generation general statistics to me to make up for the class; I still remember, I am distracted to write Cuisson's manuscript, you let me go to bed, he wrote the manuscript overnight; I still remember, you insisted on taking me to eat Haagen-Dazs. You insisted on taking me to eat Haagen-Dazs, just because of that advertising slogan; remember, you have prepared for me a surprise, Zhang locket, honey pomelo tea, happy shadow dance, lilies; remember, you accompanied me to a whole semester of Japanese classes, learned by ear Auntie to fix the railroad, Oh Yasmee, Gambard; remember, you carefully help me to blow-dry my socks; remember, you gold internship for me to do the adorable I've always regarded it as a treasure; I remember the day you came back from your summer internship early, I was too lonely to study for my exams alone at school, so I called you, and you told me to go to the balcony and look down, and then I saw you down there; I remember that we often arranged to go to the bathhouse together, and every time you finished washing first and waited for me outside, and sometimes when I came out you had your hair all dry; I remember that you helped me buy a bath once, and then you bought me one.
After so much experience together, the separation is not overnight, and when did it start to drift away? Perhaps, from your heartache my tears into hate my tears; perhaps, from your earnest concern into an impatient sentence and how to start; perhaps, from your doting eyes become more and more indifferent to start; perhaps, from you feel that the other girl or the next Ren will be better to start; perhaps, from you prefer to be alone to start; perhaps, from you in front of me to become more and more silent to start; perhaps, from you are no longer updated The first time we went out on that day, we had to go out for the first time, and we had to go out for the first time, and we had to go out for the first time. Stay. We bought a lot of food to watch the New Year's Eve concert, embraced each other and slept together, nothing happened, but we were successfully brainwashed by "Fahai you don't know love". 2013-2014, that day was not too cordial. First, we had a disagreement over whether you should skip a class in general studies, and then we had a disagreement over not getting an early bus ticket and not getting a seat in the cafeteria, so I could tell you weren't very happy that night. Later, finally had a fight on the footbridge, but then still each step back to get reconciliation. 2014-2015, this time even worse. In the afternoon from the library on the way out of a fight, you during the examination period held in my heart all the grievances broke out, told you to break up, you do not move. That night, you in the Xiangcheng school house to cook their own noodles to eat, I went out with the fat man to drink a drunk, confused to call you crying. You came to pick me up anyway and brought me to your place. I got drunk for the first time and threw up until after four in the middle of the night, my head felt like it was going to explode. You were patient enough to come and wipe my face and feed me water, and I felt you were so close and so far away.
You once said that our love exists to make others believe in love. I also used to think that I was lucky to have met the best you in the best years, to fulfill all my fantasies about love, and everything was just right. But now how can I believe in love again? The first thing is that you are the first to get close, and the last thing you can't say goodbye to is me.
I also had hesitation, had concerns, but ultimately chose to defy. Off the beginning, I worry about the age gap of sibling love, worried that later will find that you are not the right one. But I convinced myself that young love should of course be fearless, simple and pure, even if the person who eventually accompanied you is not me, well at least did not miss the person who made his heart sing. The big deal is to break up after graduation and forget about each other. Then, I chose to be with you. About back together, sophomore summer breakup, I love to hate entangled the whole summer, carved in stone. You evaporated from the face of the earth without listening to more than forty days, sent me a text message that you want to see me. I was ecstatic, but also worried that even if I agreed to make up, feelings can not be reconciled as before, I worry that you will still play the same trick in the future, I will repeat the same mistakes. But I also convinced myself, I longed for is not your return to the heart, even if you later once again abandoned me, I'm willing to admit my own bad luck. Then, I chose to drink hemlock to quench my thirst. Off without reservation, after the reconciliation, I have been reminding myself that the lost and found love, must be cherished. I don't know whether it was because I had reached this level of intimacy with you, or because I wanted to take my relationship with you further, or because I felt that you would be at least a little more responsible for me after you got me, or because I had already determined that you were the person I loved the most in this life, and that it was only right that I should deliver my most precious virginity to you. Soon after that reconciliation, I gave you my whole heart and soul, the most precious thing in a girl's life.
It was as if I had made a bet with myself that you were worth committing my life to. So, in order to ensure that I can win, I little by little break through the bottom line, little by little lower posture. As the saying goes, I fell in love with you, I became very low, very low, low to the dust, but also try to bloom a flower. You somehow angry with me, I said to myself, it's okay, he is too much pressure to study, I should be more tolerant tolerance; you no longer spend time and energy on me, I said to myself, he is too busy, and so he finished the exams on the good; your life in the loss of three and four lost, I said to myself, love a person is not that we should not count on the return to give it, life, I certainly should be more worried about him a little bit. I'm not sure if you're a good person, but I'm a good person. To see you for the dream of throwing yourself to fight, every day in the study room to sit for more than ten hours, I especially heartbroken, I always want to do what I can to help you share a little. However, I can only sit quietly next to you for a while, but also can only help you find some relevant information, but also can only help you write a review when you skipped class, but also can only help you buy a second-hand bike when you lost your car flatbed bad when you change flatbed for you to save time to review, but also can only help you copy the lab report, but also can only silently for you to buy a cushion, to buy a cushion, to send fruits, and can only give you want to give up when you cheer for you. When you want to give up for you to cheer, can only as far as possible not to bother you, can only desperately tell a lot of words in the dinner time to tell me to hear the seemingly jokes, to cover up the silence and embarrassment between us, in exchange for a long time you have not seen the tenderness and smile, can only be in the hospital when you are sick and can not wait for twenty-four hours can be by your side to take care of you. At that time, I stubbornly thought that it was all the exams occupied your time, your energy, your attention. I also stubbornly thought that I did all these you can see, you will be touched, will remember. You have also told me that once you finish the exam, all will be fine. I was very stupid to ask you, the male-female ratio of Xizai is exactly the opposite of our school ah, you will not see different, forget me this bad wife. You always replied that how could it be. I am a naive fool, perhaps you have never seriously woven what lies, I easily willing to be deceived.
I have envisioned our future countless times. I envisioned when you went to graduate school, a weekend, you come to see me or I go to your school to find you; I envisioned learning to cook, for you to do a big table you like to eat dishes, for you to make soup; I envisioned you take me to see the parents, I'm sure a long time in advance to prepare a gift to your home and perform well; I envisioned we will have a small home, do not need to be very big I will make it a very cozy, the walls are full of our I envisioned that we would travel around the world, and every time we went to a place, we would take a picture together with the same pose; I envisioned that you would propose to me, and the words of confession would be more perfect than the last one; I envisioned our wedding photos, and wearing a wedding dress, you would say that I am the most beautiful bride; I envisioned that we would ask Mr. Liu to be the witness at our wedding, and he would never have imagined that we would be able to accomplish our goal; I envisioned that we would write a book on our wedding, and I envisioned that we would write a book on our wedding, and I envisioned that we would write a book on our wedding. I envisioned that we write a lot of many small red flowers, when I retired, they will be organized into a book, with the pension self-funded printing, the world only this one, the copyright belongs to you and me *** with all; I envisioned that there will be a lot of children to call me aunt and uncle, a New Year's red packet money to give me a lot of pain; I envisioned that to give you a smart and cute little dawn, we will be in the before he talks to guess whether he will call daddy or daddy first. I envisioned giving you a smart, cute little Dawn, and we'd guess whether he'd say "daddy" or "mommy" first before he spoke.
It turns out I thought too much! The day after you came back from your retest, you said with conviction that we really weren't meant to be together. I staged the same old one cry, two two three hanging bridge, I did not act to you to see to win your sympathy, when I realized that you are really no longer love me, I really do not know what to do, thought of a death. That period of time, the head always dark clouds, daytime can not unravel the knot, the night and then slowly simmer, as if only the termination of life can be the end of this infinite pain, until the sudden car accident completely scared away this idea. After the accident, the first person I thought of was you, and after unlocking my cell phone with a trembling hand, the first thing I dialed was your number, which I had long been familiar with. Later, you hugged me and said do you know I am very worried about you, I almost thought you would give us a chance to start over, but you only said you would stay with me. Love lost, car accidents, looking for work, write a paper ...... a heavy blow as if a disaster, in any case or thank you for accompanying me through the most difficult period, otherwise, I can hardly imagine how I will be inching forward.
June 15, 2015, is the day we agreed not to contact each other since then. I moved away from school, and you came to see me off that day. It was a quick glance, too late to say a proper goodbye, and there was no time to brew up the emotions to cry. Later, I went back to school to attend the graduation ceremony, and ran into you and Minister Gao at the school gate. That was the last time we met, and we didn't even say hello properly. In the future, even if we met again, we would be strangers, I really can't do a laugh and return to the position of friends. The most inexorable relationship in the world is that of lovers, more intimate than relatives, more strange than strangers.
I have asked myself a thousand times why, why do not love to love, when so hot so strong so true feelings, why a night on the past as smoke with the wind. I regret to think, if the winter vacation back to that time do not die of their own gambling to mention break up on the good, maybe you will not be so cruel. Or, if I didn't go to Guangzhou with Ms. Peach that time, I would have accompanied you to the West Finance review, and then I wouldn't have let you go to Chongqing alone, and you wouldn't have come back to the conflict with me. Or, even if there was a conflict, if I didn't desperately keep calling and texting you, you wouldn't be so annoyed with me. Or, if I hadn't given up on graduate school and tried my best to get into the University of Finance and Economics with you, it would have been the perfect ending. Or, if I had doubled my efforts to become excellent, confident, beautiful, and always worthy of you, you wouldn't have gotten tired of me so quickly and voted down our relationship. These days, I toss and turn back to the key points that broke us up, and I so wish I could turn back time and stop this from happening. But it's useless to say anything now, and it's all just wishful thinking on my part.
The fate of our relationship has long come to an end, and then a long and bumpy road is to rely on me to die alone, I know. A lot of people ask me in the end like you what, why are you on the side of you never forget. If you really want to have an answer, it is probably the beginning of your heart to me, and you have always been confident, hard-working, progressive, of course, and I do not know if it is because of my lover's eyes out of the west handsome. You have your own dreams, dissatisfied with the status quo when you dare to challenge, break through the self, stick to the end. You have a clear goal at every stage, when the graduate school, and now into the central bank to work. And I, contrary to you, four years of college, in addition to a relationship that ended in failure, read a few books, wrote a few press releases in the search for work seems to be worthless, in addition to the newsletters, lived in a mess, and in the end, a failure. So too, you have flashes of brilliance in you that I don't have, and they draw me in and make me adore you. In fact, I don't want to become a person like you, even if I don't have the chance to walk side by side with you and fly together, at least it will be slightly better in the same age, not like now, so long after graduation, I still don't know what my future career direction is.
God is not fair, why there are people who are good at everything, everything, but also harder than us. Because it is supposed to stand high and see far. The origin of the positioning of the starting point of the height, decided to think about the angle of the problem, affecting the attitude of the future. I came from a small mountain town, since childhood, timid, timid, low self-esteem, dream for me is too high unattainable things. It was only when I went to college that I began to understand the outside world. There is no father or mother to guide the elders, not to mention the past to help plan life, from high school arts and sciences to fill in the volunteer choice of profession, are their own blind man in the dark, the future for me is to take a step to look at a step. Until now graduated from college only to find a road that is not suitable for their own, say all the sheep to mend the prison is not too late, it is not possible to continue to gnaw on the old at home to prepare for graduate school from the beginning again. Can only let themselves to the society more exercise, more learning. And you, long ago in the dream of the road to take a solid step. Therefore, the gap between us is not only the family conditions, but also the growth environment. So, I finally concede defeat, and I admit that I am a failure. I may never be able to catch up with you, the kind of girl you want to walk side by side with you and have **** the same topic will be met in your wider world. Sometimes, I am heartbroken to think that when you really fight to love someone, you should be able to realize the feeling of being eaten up - your heart belongs to you, but there is no place to put it. Long way to go, two years, we walk through this journey together, looking back, there have been green, there have been sweet, there have been bitter. The next, we all have their own way to go, I am willing to exit your world from now on.
If you are a rainbow, you should know that there is a rainbow. When I first used these words to show you my heart, how did I not think that the rainbow is certainly unforgettable beauty, but also just a glimpse, fleeting. In this bruised love competition, can let me see clearly see through probably only: have the ability to love themselves, have the spare capacity to love others, I except a heart to love you, the rest have nothing, and what to take to love you. There is also the fact that if I meet a man in the future, I found that he did not care so much about me, I will never deceive myself again, lying to myself that he said that he loved me.
If you are in love with someone else, please don't let me know. I wish you happiness.