By the fall of this year, I was about to go to high school, and, brother, I finally made it to your alma mater.
The camera rewinds, picture by picture, to the time when my childhood was in full swing. That day, I accidentally broke my father's favorite tea set, and my mother rushed over at the sound and pretended to be very angry as she spanked me. I had been spoiled since I was a child, and even though it didn't hurt at all, I ripped out my voice and cried.
Seeing me cry, my mom took me in her arms again and coaxed me, saying while coaxing me, "You little rascal, why aren't you as well-behaved as your brother?"
It was obvious that mom liked you very much because you understood things since you were a child. Then mom went on to reminisce, and at the end of her speech, she affectionately took my hand and asked me to touch the shocking centipede-like scar on her stomach, and then laughed and said, "Xiaoyue, mommy had surgery to give birth to you in the first place, and you're still so disobedient now!"
I was shocked and busily assured my mom that I would listen to her from now on and stop being naughty and mischievous. Then I quietly ran to you and tugged on your ear asking if what mom said was true, you didn't say anything.
In those days, I never called you brother, but always shouted, "Gu Jianning, come help me get dressed." "Gu Jannin, if you grab the remote control with me again I'll tell dad that you don't do your homework and sneak a peek at the TV ......"
I was still in elementary school the year you went to your first year of high school, and you would always save up the pocket money that your dad would give you, roll it up into a roll and put it in a small bag. Then you brought it to me to show off and said, "Look, brother has a lot of money."
I took advantage of your inattention, snatched the small bag, and said brusquely, "No, all this money is mine." Your face instantly pulled down and said, "Xiaoyue, quickly return it to your brother. I have use for this money."
I wasn't afraid of you, and took your little bag into my little bedroom and hid it. But then at some point, you righteously took it back, in your words, Xiaoyue is such a fool to hide things in the drawer under the closet every time.
I always guessed brother you save so much money must be to buy soccer, or buy gifts for those beautiful `girl classmates. But after you gave me a beautiful Barbie doll for my birthday, I realized that your original bulging little bag had deflated in an instant.
Brother, you really know what you're doing and are excellent at everything, your only fault is that your skin is very dark, while I am the opposite of you. Yes, I'm white, and that's what I've been most proud of for a long time.
According to my mother, when I was little I was fed goat's milk and cow's milk because she didn't have enough milk, so I'm much whiter than the average child now; whereas when you were little you were left to the care of your grandparents in the countryside because your mother and father were both too busy with their work, and you spent the whole day going crazy with a bunch of wild children barefoot everywhere, and as a result you got tanned.
Guests come to the house for the first time, always joked with mom, "You are blessed oh, there are two children at home, just too big a difference in age, black and white difference is also too big."
I often mocked you with this, saying, "Look at me, I'm so white, you're so black, you're a black child, I'm a white child."
One time my grandma from out of town came over to our house to play, and when she heard this, she kindly laughed and said, "I don't know who's the black kid!" Mom laughed in agreement and looked at grandma with a meaningful look.
I was a bit puzzled, isn't it obvious? You're so black, of course you're a black child. When you got into college, mom took me along to send you to school, which was actually a trip for me. It was a southern seaside city, and despite the beautiful scenery, my mom and I both got carsick and couldn't eat seafood.
After staying at the hotel, you were alone in this strange city buying motion sickness pills and looking for northern food restaurants to buy us food. After settling down, you instructed your mom and me to get some rest, and then dragged your huge bag to the school to register alone.
You reported immediately after the hotel back to take us to the beach to see the sea, go to Pearl Island to collect pearls ...... in the city center square rest, see the square a lot of children are playing rollerblades, rollerblades rolling when the colorful lights flashing, beautiful. I begged my mom to buy it for me, and she shook her head at me in a difficult way.
I will soon be a junior high school student, and also know that the family because of raising two children than the neighbors are more difficult. I no longer say anything, brother you still can see that I am not happy, came over to pat me and said, "when brother earn money, to buy you the best."
Knowing that my brother was coaxing me to be happy, I still couldn't help but cry. From that time on, I stopped calling you Gu Jianning and called you brother instead.
I also cried when I said goodbye to you, and I saw my mom turn away to secretly wipe her tears as well. At that moment, I decided to go back and study hard and not make my mom and dad angry anymore.
Without you, the house is empty. Brother, let me tell you, mom is also very stupid, she also hides things under the drawer of the coat closet.
There was no one at home that day, and I was idly rummaging around and came across my mom's medical record card from that year. The words "post-partum sterilization" were as shocking as the scars on my mother's stomach, but the time of the surgery was not 1997, when I was born, but 1990, when you were born, my brother.
All the pieces fit together: 'The neighbor kid who always picks on me envied you for buying me so many fun toys, and several times muttered, "What's the big deal? And the neighbors' strange eyes, and grandma said "black children" ......
Brother, I know, because I'm afraid I know my own life, you have gone through a lot of trouble.
I know all this, but don't worry, I won't tell mom and dad, they love me so much. I am so lucky to enter such a family and have a brother like you.
Summer vacation, when you came back, you actually bought me a beautiful pulley with your draft money.
Brother, you said that I am not as jocular as I was, and that I understand things. When I said this, I saw a vague worry behind your concerned eyes. Brother, don't worry, I am learning from you and trying to become as understanding as you are. I won't feel inferior or sad. I don't care who's black or who's white, I'm your sister and mom and dad's daughter. Now I just want to grow up quickly, and take care of mom and dad with you, and raise a pair of children, they are really hard.