To be a man, it is difficult to be confused
Original text
How far is the difference between what is good and what is bad? What is the difference between beauty and evil? The fear of man is not to be feared. It is not yet the end of the world! The people are so happy, like enjoying the jail, like spring on the stage. I am alone, not yet a sign; chaotic, like a baby's child; tired, as if I have nothing to return to. All of us have a surplus (yú), but I am the only one who is left behind. I am a fool! The common people are clear, but I am dim. The common people are all aware of this, but I am alone in my boredom. Tantalizing (?dàn) is like the sea, if it is endless. All people have their own way, but I alone am stubborn and mean. I am the only one who is different from others, and I am the one who is expensive to eat my mother.
Translation
How far is the difference between a compliment and a rebuke? What is the difference between praise and disgust? What men fear, they cannot but fear. The wilderness is vast! The multitude is bustling about, as if enjoying a great feast, as if mounting the stage of joy. I was the only one who was oblivious, as if I had never been enlightened; chaotic, like a newborn baby who did not know how to laugh and smile; tired and frustrated, like a homeless person wandering around. All the people were overflowing with self-complacency, but I was the only one who seemed to have lost something. I am truly a fool of a man's heart!
The people of the world are all clear, and I am the only one who is not aware of it. The world's people are all calculating, but I am the only one who is sloppy and not clear. The world's most important thing is that the world's most important thing is the world's most important thing. Everyone has a set of skills, but I am the only one who is useless and stubborn. I am so different, because I am fully committed to exploring the origin of all things and the truth of life, who am I? Where do I come from? Where am I going?
Insights
Bai Yansong said: There are two basic points in life, one is to be dashing and the other is to be confused. When I was young, I always felt that I had to make things clear before I could rest assured, and I had to fight to understand before I could be convinced. Later, as I grew older, deeper and deeper experience, I finally realized: what reason to fight to understand the most hurt feelings, what things are trying to figure out the most tired people. People in this life, live more awake, but the more likely to be unhappy. Things in the world, a flurry of disturbances, all for the impermanent. Do not have to get to the bottom of everything, to find out the truth; also do not have to be mediocre at all times, worrying about the sky. Confusion is not stupidity, but the wisdom of the penetration, everything with the wind of freedom. It is not stupidity, but not everything, everywhere arguing open-minded. It is not unclear, but a kind of "sobriety, simple to do," the high IQ. To deal with people, half sober, half confused, is the great wisdom.
Notes:
澹（?dàn）：? A quiet, peaceful kind