However, my nature is not so, I do not want to understand, do not want to be good and do not want to be quiet, just before the family supervised, do not have the guts to "rebel".
Until the high school only began to really live alone, began to "restless" wandering around.
01
The first time I wandered around the city at night was after the college entrance exam.
In a sense, I have never really lived alone before the end of the college entrance examination, elementary school and junior high school are living at home, high school dormitory, senior high school and my sister rented a house in the county, my senior high school when she was a senior high school, after the end of the college entrance examination, I have a free life alone.
After the high school exams do not have to go to class, began to stay in the book city all day, until 10:00 p.m. book city closed before having to leave.
In the countryside, almost all of them are asleep at 10:00 p.m. In the county town, 10:00 p.m. is the beginning of the nightlife, and the square is full of square dancers and skateboarders, and I feel that they are very energetic and energetic, and I occasionally stop or find a place to sit down and watch them.
The outside environment is particularly lively, and their hearts are particularly quiet, as if only their own physical body in the present world, the soul does not know where to go!
I have tried to walk around a neighborhood, about eleven o'clock almost twelve o'clock, to see the roadside a few boys walking together will be afraid, see the motorcycle will be afraid to see the motorcycle passing by, see the stalls will be afraid to drink, to see the opposite side of the walk over a person will be afraid, but then the restlessness of the heart against the fear of the feeling of that time, I also think I am very brave, and now I feel stupid to the home. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots.
A girl wandering the streets of the city at eleven o'clock at night is a dangerous thing to think about, so I'm often afraid of it.
But that doesn't mean I won't do it again.
02
The second time I wandered around was a weekend in college.
After going to college, I've gotten used to eating alone, shopping alone, and acting alone, and although I'm occasionally lost, I mostly enjoy it.
Our school is quite remote, and after the subway, we have to walk a bit to take the bus for 40 minutes to get to the school, and before that, we usually stuck to the time to go back.
One time when I was working part-time outside, I was stuck on the last bus, but because I was so frustrated that day, I was very depressed and fell into a world of my own, and I thought about a lot of things on the way to the bus stop.
Thinking about it has gone back to the school bus stop did not notice, stupid sitting at the bus stop that did not go back to the school car, the phone and just left 1% of the electricity, sent a circle of friends to laugh at their own state.
After the last bus passed, I started to be really scared and anxious, my cell phone was out of battery, and I only had twenty dollars on me, and the bus back to the school on the side of the road was more than 50 dollars, and they wouldn't take me back even though I told them the situation.
In the end, I found a motorcycle uncle, crying with him to say can I drive me back to school, good thing I met a good man, back to the school road to drive a motorcycle to thirty-four minutes, blowing the cold wind only began to wake up.
After returning to the school has been more than twelve o'clock, the roommates are very worried about me, the assistant class looked at my circle of friends are looking for them to ask me about my situation, I laughed and told them that it was fine, but in fact, I was very afraid.
Later, I was even more afraid that if I met someone who wasn't good, maybe my life would be ruined, so this kind of dangerous thing, I never did again.
03
Later I also often roam around the city at night, looking at the people on the street, looking at the lights on the side of the road, looking at the state of the pedestrians and the stalls people in a thousand different ways, but now even if I roam I will keep my cell phone charged, I have money on me, and there are security guards in my line of sight.
Even if I want to be capricious and I want to do disturbing things, I have to make sure I am in a safe state.