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A.
On the night of the wedding, after sending off the guests and friends, I lay in Chen Si's arms and suddenly asked him this question: "Chen Si, if there is a day that we are old and about to die, what do you hope your final destination is? "
The words just exported, I was a little regret, the happy day how I said such bad luck words it. I would like to tell Chen Si not to answer, but I have not come
to stop, Chen Si even smiled and said: "If one day to the end of life, I hope that my last home is your embrace. So that even if I drink
Mengbo soup, in the next life I will still be able to bring the warm memories of your arms to you."
In the dim light I could still clearly see Chen Si's expression, he was so sincere. Although he said it in a smiling tone, it shook my spirit
soul tremendously. At that moment I thought I was the happiest woman in the world...
Chen Si is a very considerate man, and I thought he was a silly man when we first met. We were introduced to each other by our classmates, and at that time, we didn't expect
to fall in love and get married. The fact is that the company's business is not a business, but it is a business, and it is a business. Later, I defied my family's opposition to the discouragement of friends, and resolutely
married him, then his salary is only one-third of my salary, just a small company staff. The first time I saw this, I had to go to the hospital to get a prescription for a new car. The only thing that you have
may be the tenderness. But I am very satisfied, then I need this money and material can not be compared to the tenderness.
We've been married for a year, and we've been living in our company's staff apartment. The first time I saw this was when I was a student at the University of California, Berkeley, and the second time I was a student at the University of California, Berkeley. But it turns out that the size of our company and all kinds of benefits are not comparable to his small company. I was able to apply for a two-bedroom apartment while he only had a one-bedroom apartment, so he ended up moving in with me. He and I have been planning to sell a house of our own, a very large one, so I don't have any complaints about living in an apartment right now, after all, the prices are so high that we just want to get our lives in order.
Day by day, once thought that the plain is the true meaning of love, and Chen Si that the gentle dull is his connotation of the idea I do not know at what time quietly changed. I even feel that I am now a little sad, after the marriage of firewood and salt instead of love when the *** romantic. Day after day life seems to have become a kind of torment, I began to doubt whether the direction of this marriage is towards happiness.
Although I didn't tell Chen Si about my frustration and feelings, I wish he could have felt it. I'm not sure if I've ever been in the same situation, but I'm sure I've never been in the same situation before. I want him to understand that we can not go on like this, otherwise I and his sharpness and toughness will disappear into thin air. But Chen Si seems to be oblivious, he still wants to be like the old days, seems to be in good spirits. His writing is very good, so he writes articles after work, occasionally earning a small salary. It's not as much as my half-monthly bonus, but he's happy with it. Buy some fish and meat, make a few small dishes for me to eat. But it is a pity that my mouth no longer have the taste of happiness at the beginning.
A company's management party I know Xiangyu, he is also at that time into my world for the first time. However, I didn't realize that my world had changed, just as my marriage had changed so silently. That night I sat alone on the dance floor, the pressure of work, coupled with the fatigue of life had left me without a trace of energy. After turning down a few invitations from my coworkers, he showed up. At that time I had not yet seen his face was attracted by his magnetic voice, he smiled at me and said: "Miss can **** dance a song, I want to know the most beautiful tonight is this music or in front of you?" This time I didn't refuse and he and I gently embraced on the dance floor. The mismatched silhouettes gave me some vertigo and I just wanted to be done with this song alone. He whispered in my ear, "Georgie! Marketing, right?"
I was a little surprised, although my connections in the company are okay, but not so much that just that random person in the hundreds of people at the top knows me? Looking up at him, he is not very tall, one meter 75 or so it. A silver-colored suit, very decent and conspicuous. Around thirty years old, with a mature and determined face. "Is it strange? Not only do I know your name, but I also know your education and place of origin. And of course your marital status I know. Because I am your upcoming boss, my name is Zhang Xiangyu."
The song ended, he attached his ear to my ear and said, "You are the only female I **** dance with tonight, and it is also you who told me that the original most beautiful tonight is not the music but you." After saying that he turned and left, leaving me alone on the side of the dance floor. I felt a sense of loss in my heart, but it was immediately overshadowed by a sense of joy, because I was the only woman he ****danced with tonight. I don't know what it was, but I actually felt a twinge of pride. The satisfaction of vanity just crept up on me behind his fluttering back...
When I arrived home, it was already 1:00 a.m. Originally, Xiangyu said she wanted to see me off, but I refused. I don't know if it's from a wife's responsibility to her husband, or if I don't want him to know that I live in a staff apartment. Chen Si was still awake, and when he saw me come back he immediately put down the pen in his hand and pushed the manuscript aside. Turning around, he brought out a bowl of yangchun noodles from the kitchen, "Wife this is your favorite..."
"Yangchun noodles right," I interrupted him, Chen Si did not seem to expect this. Because in the past days when he served me noodles, I would say, "Honey you are so good." But today I don't know what happened, I seem to be a different person. As soon as I entered the room and saw Chen Si I didn't give him a good face, then I continued, "Besides being able to cook noodles and write, what else can you do?" Chen Si's face changed all of a sudden, looking at the still hot noodle nest in his hand suddenly felt wrong, what's wrong with me. "I'm sorry husband, I'm too tired, work things bother" Xiangyu saw me say this, and laughed again, he touched his nose with his hand and said: "Wife, you hurry to rest, do not exhaust the body" Looking at him put down the hands of the noodles, go to the bedroom to make up the bed of the back of the back of the bed I actually have A hint of guilt, Chen Si these years from love to marriage, to me are always good, and I have been annoyed.
Secondly,
In the company and Xiangyu work days, I found that he is a very strong ability, very courageous man. He was always so confident that his coworkers loved him, especially a few unmarried female college students who competed to run to his office, but he seemed to take care of me quite a bit. Tomorrow is the weekend, at almost the end of the day Xiangyu sent me a text message. After arriving home, Chen Si excitedly told me that tomorrow he is also off, coincidentally in time for the 10th anniversary of the construction of Lake West Park, free to visitors. I said somewhat apologetically, "Tomorrow afternoon colleagues have a party, I have promised." Chen Si was a little disappointed, but he still immediately said have fun and pay attention to safety.
The Wall Street Hotel is a five-star hotel in the center of the city, and those who go in and out of here are all successful people in society. Xiangyu asked me to have dinner here, so I had the honor to come here.
I saw Xiangyu from a distance, wearing a black suit. When he came to the front of the body, he even asked me to cross his arm, I was a little wooden. When he said it was polite, western manners.
And he walked into this Wall Street hotel, I realized what is called luxury and noble. The golden walls, the five or six-story high roof, the mirror-like bright floor, the pure flavor of the piano music...
The people here, except for the service staff, are all high-level people. The people here, except the waiters, are all high-ranking people, and most of them are foreigners. Xiangyu and I sat in a window seat, which is very private, we can see other people, and it's hard for other people to notice us.
At first, we chatted about work and hobbies. Later a few glasses of red wine down we began to talk about student days, chatting about my marriage. Xiangyu smiled and said, "I have been watching you from the side of the dance floor that day, and your serene posture is like a perfect work of art, making it worthwhile for all men to admire." These words made me, who was already a bit drunk, even more dizzy, but I felt good. Xiangyu suddenly held my hand and said, "I envy your husband so much, if I also have a beautiful wife like you, I will definitely not let her tender white hands become rough. I want to make her very happy ...
Xiangyu's words made me a bit flustered, I subconsciously withdrew my hand and said: "I'm not as good as you think, I'm just an ordinary woman. I have a husband, have a happy family," said I will get up and leave, but Xiangyu once again grabbed my hand, and the strength of my draw will not come. Xiangyu said: "Qiaoqi, don't lie to yourself. You are not happy, you are lost. Your eyes tell me you need someone who can understand the sorrow in your heart, please give me a chance if you can." I sat down and cried on the table. Xiangyu stroked my hair and said "Qiaoqi don't cry, don't you still have me" I looked up too him and then nodded again.
It wasn't until night crept over the city that we left from the hotel. Only instead of going home, I went to Xiang Yu's.
A person who is confused about marriage is rekindled *** by an unmarried man.
Third,
In the following days, Xiangyu and I were as hot as men and women. In the past, I was most annoyed by going to work, but now I am most annoyed by going home. I would take Xiangyu's arm and go out to all kinds of high-class places, and I would tie a tie for him. It was all so real, and I was in a dreamlike trance, never waking up. I didn't go home that night, the next day Chen Si didn't ask anything more, I just said I drank too much and went to my colleague Xiao Zhao. Later to the unit only to know, that night Chen Si played my phone can not get through the phone even to small Zhao there. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do this, but I'm going to be able to do it.
Chen Si knew I lied, but why didn't he reveal it? Fortunately, I and Xiangyu things are very secretive, we send text messages are deleted by me in time, and those high-level clubs are not places where Chen Si can dabble. I was only slightly relieved...
But Chen Si's attitude when I came home from work seemed to have changed a bit, I can't say. Seems to be a little cold, in did not cook yangchun noodles for me. But I am also happy to be at ease, because I usually eat outside with Xiangyu, and eat some French food, Japanese food and other things. The taste was certainly different from Yangchun noodles, which seemed to be my favorite snack before. Slowly, I went home and said I was tired and wanted to rest early. And Chen Si didn't seem to bother to say anything, he was always laughing and writing. He and I began to enter into a cold war, and gradually there was a crack in our marriage. One day Xiangyu and I went to a very famous dress store to measure and make clothes. Xiangyu had been giving me clothes, and I planned to give him a suit too. Xiangyu suddenly said, "A man has been looking at you for a long time." I looked up to see him, and he walked away. I looked to the side and the fabric in my hand fell to the ground. Chance smiled
Then turned and walked away. I froze in place for a few moments before storming out after him and I cried. I don't know why just that smile made my heart ache like a knife, but Chen Si had already disappeared in the doorway. At this time Xiangyu hugged me from behind and said: "Sooner or later he is going to know, well don't cry, you are not going to send me clothes? Then he smiled and came over to kiss me, I pushed him away. I was furious why he was laughing! Chen Si's laugh was crying while he was really laughing.
At home I saw Chen Si sitting at the dining room table smoking a cigarette while the room was full of cigarette smell, obviously he wasn't just smoking a few. Chen Si saw me back, extinguished that cigarette and turned around to open the windows and air conditioning. He knew that I hated the smell of smoke, and this action of his made Xiangyu tell me to showdown with Chen Si words all forgotten in the back of my mind. I cried, "Chen Si I was wrong, don't be angry." Chen Si turned his face to look at me, I don't know if it's because I haven't paid attention to his face for too long, Chen Si's originally handsome face is now full of vicissitudes. His beard seems to have never been this much, and he somehow put on those old glasses again, the one I gave him was taken off and put on the dining table. Chen Si turned his face to pick up a bowl of noodles in his hands and said, "Xiao Qi I haven't cooked noodles for you to eat for a long time, so I'll cook them for you again today." My eyes got wet and I sat down helplessly on the floor as I bawled my eyes out. Tired of crying, I got up and walked over to the bed, then lay on it and hugged Chen Si and said, "Hubby I was wrong, trust me, let's start over." Chen Si however moved her body to the side and said, "Aren't you always tired? Well go to bed early, I still have to write a manuscript." I wanted to grab his hand, to have him next to me, but I couldn't.
I don't know how I fell asleep that night, except that I woke up to find a blanket over my body and the socks off my feet. The two hairpins in my hair were also sitting on the end of my bed, and I woke up from my sleep to find these and the tears flowed instantly again. I rolled over and didn't see Chen Si beside me, and when I stepped out of the bedroom, I realized that Chen Si was still writing with his head buried in his hands. He seldom writes like this all night long, besides, today is not a weekend, he has to work. Before I could say anything, Chen Si smiled and said to me, ''Xiao Qi you're up, breakfast is ready, it's on the table. The simple words made me suddenly think that it seemed like Chen Si was the one who had been cooking breakfast for me for the past year. I skimmed my mouth and was just about to say something when Chen Si signaled me to be quiet. He walked over and took my hand to the table. I thought it was an illusion at first, it seemed like ages since Chen Si had held my hand. I smiled, smiling even more than when I was with Xiang Yu. I ate the breakfast that Chen Si had made for me thinking that it was much better than the French food that Xiang Yu had led me to eat...
As I was eating, suddenly Chen Si said, "Hubby, do you forgive me?" Chen Si calmly said: "I actually never blame you, you and his things I have long known. Maybe you think it is very secret, but you forget that I have a lot of classmates often in and out of those places. They told me about it a long time ago, it's just that I never believed that my Jokey would be like that. So I've been waiting and waiting for you to come back on your own." I hurriedly cried and said, "I know I'm wrong, husband I'm back." Chen Si remained calm and said, "Qiao Qi, it's my fault for making you suffer after you got married. Since you can choose, I hope you can live the life you want. That would be a blessing for me too, so let's get a divorce."
Fourth,
This weekend, Chen Si and I ended our 14-month marriage. When we came out with our divorce papers, we were lost to each other. Chen Si spoke first: "Let's go and I'll go to your place, I'll pack up my things." What was once a small home for the two of us has now changed its name, surprisingly, to your place. I wanted to cry, a sudden emotion. Until now, it was all like a dream, and I didn't even know where I was.
Back to that *** with the living place, Chen Si began to pack things. I asked him if he had a place to stay. He said he could stay at his friend's place first and then apply for a dormitory. I left him to stay here, but he was dead set against it, saying how inconvenient it was to live together when he wasn't a couple anymore. I wanted to help Chen Si pack, but I actually realized that I didn't know that I had his clothes in that cabinet and his manuscripts in that drawer. I can't believe I cared so little about him, when he had cared about me until now. He told me some relevant things about the house, such as where the receipts for the utilities are, such as what goes in that cabinet and so on. I stopped crying because I knew I couldn't keep Chen Si even if I cried. At this time, Chen Si in the cabinet found the two of us married more than a year of savings, which also includes his first three years of marriage to save the money, is an industrial and commercial bank passbook. I didn't want it, I yelled at him, I even whacked him. But it was no use, he was dead set on leaving it for me. He calmly said: "You are all high-spending, use money in many places. Don't always make people spend money, and you won't have a place in time." I cried again, he touched his nose with his hand and said, "Don't cry, what I said is for your own good, Qiaoqi no matter what you don't bow down for money. I want you to always be confident and sunny, said he shoved the bankbook to me. At this time, there was a knocking sound outside. Chen Si walked over to open the door and it turned out to be Xiang Yu. He and Chen Si just stared at each other, then Xiang Yu extended her hand and said: "Hello, my name is Zhang Xiang Yu" Chen Si did not say anything and did not extend his hand. He turned back to me and said, "Qiao Qi I'm leaving, you guys take your time to chat." Watching Chen Si walk away alone with two big boxes my heart seemed to be broken at that moment...
And Chen Si divorced for a month, at first I was full of hate for Xiangyu, and then he came to me every day to me alliance, I also and he resumed the previous state. But I never allowed him to spend the night in my place, I can go to his place or go out with him to open a room, but I do not allow him to sleep in the bed of Chen Si and I, do not allow him to come to the small home that Chen Si and I once had together. I tried to contact Chen Si during this period and found that he not only changed his phone number, but also quit his job.
Chen Si really disappeared.
Sometimes it's hard to predict what's going to happen, and after 2 months of being separated from Chen Si, I developed an eye disease. I thought at first it was a bad break, but it's getting worse every day. Xiangyu accompanied me to the hospital for a checkup before learning that this is a rare corneal nerve necrosis, and there is no cure for it in the whole world. Only by transplanting the cornea could I regain my sight. I was crushed by this news, but Xiangyu was by my side. He helped me to take a long leave from work and arranged for me to be hospitalized for observation. He also told me that he was already looking for cornea donors, or he could sell them for money. But I know that organs like kidneys, hearts and corneas don't just come to you when you want them. My disease is a rare form of nerve necrosis, and if I couldn't find corneas within a limited time, I would never be able to see again. After another month I couldn't see anything in my eyes anymore, but I still kept it open every day. Xiangyu was very busy, but he insisted on visiting me every day. Sometimes in the morning, sometimes at noon, sometimes at night. But today he came back after one visit, he didn't say anything, he just combed my hair. Wiped my face and did eye exercises for me. I wondered a little why he was silent, but thought maybe it was because he was upset about my corneal source. However, he had never taken care of me so carefully, so I remembered Chen Si. After that, Xiangyu came twice a day, the first time he could still talk to me, the second time he didn't say anything. I don't ask any more, I think it's good to be quiet like this. I didn't expect Xiangyu to care about me as much as Chen Si did after I lost my eyesight. Until one day I touched his hand unintentionally and realized that he seemed to be wearing a ring. He wanted to draw it back, but I held it in place. I know that is the wedding ring, I cried, my tears fell while saying: "Xiangyu I no longer have Chen Si, how can you still want to lie to me ah" He also seems to be a little anxious, but I cried more and more powerful. In the end, he just that gentle sigh, I stopped crying. Although it was just that soft sigh, I could still hear it. "Chen Si is that you? You came? I said why does he come twice a day but do different things. I should have known who else but you could take care of me with such care."
Chen Si said, "Qiao Qi, it's me. I heard Xiao Zhao say that you are sick. I couldn't rest assured so I came over to take a look at you. Don't worry your eyes will be fine, he will be able to find the cornea." I was very happy that day. When Chen Si left, he asked me what I wanted to eat. He would bring it next time. I said I wanted to eat the Yangchun noodles you cooked for me... Only he didn't bring it to me in the end
Three days later Xiangyu told me he found the cornea, and I was overjoyed. He said a student had been in a car accident and donated his cornea to me. And out of gratitude Xiangyu gave that student's parents 150,000 yuan of condolence money, I was very touched by Xiangyu's spending 150,000 yuan to buy a cornea for me. Xiangyu was a bit unnatural, he only said he would operate the day after tomorrow. The first time I saw this, I was able to get the money to pay for it, and I was able to get the money to pay for it, and I was able to get the money to pay for it.
V.
The surgery was a success, and my eyes were able to see things around me after the bandages were removed a month later. After another week of rehabilitation, my eyes could see clearly. It just hurt to see for a long time, but I was discharged after a week. I was hospitalized for three whole months in one ****. Xiangyu first drove and led me to eat a lot of food and we had a lot of fun. After dropping me off at home, I invited him in to sit for a while. To be honest, I was a little afraid of not having someone living in my house for three months, plus I was very touched by Xiangyu's care during this period. But when I opened the door and found the house clean, the bed and sofa and table were covered with gauze and no dust had fallen. I just stood there looking around the room, everything was all too familiar. I knew it was Chen Si who had been here and he had helped me clean up the house. Because only he knows what I like to put there. I suddenly turned to Xiang Yu and said, I'm tired. I'll be with you tomorrow. Today you go back and rest first, okay? Xiangyu, who had already bought in with one foot, backed out again. He smiled and kissed me, and drove away.
I walked into the house and looked around the week, found a note placed on the table. Opening it up it turned out to be one left by Chen Si. "Kiki it's been a while since I've called you that, I know your eyes will be bright again. That's why I cleaned the house, so I left the note for you. When you came back to this house, I was gone. I went to America. It's my biggest regret that I didn't make you that bowl of yangchun noodles. I used to make them all the time and when you wanted them I didn't make them. He and I went to the hospital to see you during the time you were sick, and I could tell he really liked you. If our marriage was a failure then I wish you a happy marriage with him. Go for it!!!"
After reading it I first cried and then laughed. Just like that after three days Xiangyu proposed to me and I didn't refuse. I said yes to him and prepared invitations to distribute to my acquaintances. On this day I took candies to the hospital to some of my patients and nurses during my hospitalization. When I was talking to the nurse, Yue, it was obvious to me that there was a hint of something wrong. But when I asked her what was wrong, she just wouldn't say. She just said she was so envious of me, having such a nice man to love me. I thought he was talking about Xiangyu, so I didn't say anything. Tomorrow is the wedding, I and Xiangyu sweet embrace in bed, I received a call from my colleague Xiao Zhao. She and I have a good relationship, so Chen Si has become her good friend. She said on the phone that she was looking for me, so I pushed Xiangyu away and went to the place where I had agreed with Xiao Zhao. When I saw Xiao Zhao, I realized that she wasn't as angry as her usual face. I joked: "Why is it that you want to give the red packet in advance ah" After she looked at me, she said for no reason: "Do you still remember. This place is you and Chen Si together led me here." I was also a little sad when she said this, I held her hand and said, "Xiao Zhao I and he are already in the past, in the future I will take you with me when I go out to eat with Xiang Yu." Xiao Zhao shook off my hand and said, "No need, if you think we are friends, you and I go to a place." I asked where to? She said to take me to a friend. I didn't understand and thought she was up to something, smiled and went.
It was a shantytown on the outskirts of the city, and I didn't understand how Xiao Zhao, with his income and education, could have a friend living here. I was led by him to turn left and right to a two-meter-high boarding house, I said this is it? When I turned back to find Xiao Zhao actually cried, I do not know what to do. But how can not be coaxed, and then Xiao Zhao wiped his tears and said go in. The first to open the door to go in, I also followed in. The house is very dark, without electric light seems to be unable to see anything at all. I looked at the ground on the stool placed a bag of garbage, while the table is piled up a pile of ham sausages. There was a small bed in the house. There was a bag on the bed and a fountain pen sitting next to the bag. It was a fountain pen that I was all too familiar with, one that I had given to Chen Si. Suddenly this kind of environment and things seemed to tell me another terrible truth. And Xiao Zhao's so-called friend would be Chen Si, then he hadn't left the country. And I was already getting married. My tears always seemed to leave easily now, and I didn't cry out, just stood there dumbfounded like that. Xiao Zhao said somewhat derisively from the sidelines, "This is nothing, if you see anything worse than this in a while I hope you can hold on, but of course you have to promise not to make a sound. Otherwise that friend of yours is a fatal blow, I do not understand why he said so, but she repeatedly asked me a moment to see what is not allowed to make a sound, I had to agree. Just then, the door outside moved. A man in a short-sleeved shirt and sunglasses came in. I nearly fainted at the sight, for he was Chen Si. Only the hand that used to be the pen was actually holding a cane at the moment as he slowly groped his way over to where the bed was. The distance of a few steps took him a surprisingly long time to walk. The fact that he was blind reminded me of an even more terrible thing. I began to hate Xiangyu from the bottom of my heart, so he lied to me. My cornea was donated by Chen Si. I crouched down powerlessly, I couldn't cry anymore. I'm going to die hard. Xiao Zhao was also shedding tears, but neither she nor I made a sound. The blind man in front of me, after sitting on the bed, he first touched the pen on the bed. Then he took out a ham under the pillow and ate it, and after eating it he opened the bag on the bed. Taking out a dozen manuscripts, I used the eye film he gave me to see clearly that it was written "Jochi don't cry"
It was not until after he had gone to bed that I was dragged out by Xiao Zhao. It was already quite late, but it still couldn't hide the sneer at the corner of Xiao Zhao's mouth. I can not but cry is crying, when I and Xiao Zhao back to the city, Zhao did not say anything to me and went home. I thought to hurry to find the hospital nurse, she told me in the case of I asked a lot of questions, the original cornea is a man always come to see me to donate. He lost his sight because of it, and he hasn't come back since then. The doctors and nurses at the hospital were worried about him, fearing that he might have contracted a bacterial infection if he hadn't come for a checkup. Later, I called Xiao Zhao, who told me that Xiangyu had not lied to me. He did give Chen Si 150,000 dollars to wait for his cornea or for his retirement. But Chen Si also through Xiao Zhao, the money secretly remitted into the passbook that we *** with the savings. Xiao Zhao said Chen Si intends to just be alone and lonely until old age. After I flew to Xiangyu's place, he fell silent as soon as he saw my expression. A few moments later he also shed tears. I didn't think a man like him would cry for me, but in my opinion, his tears were not a millionth of Chen Si's. He said he loved me and I laughed. Then I just said, "If you really love me help me find corneas for Chen Si, as a condition I can marry you. But let me tell you my heart will never be separated from Chen Si again...
After that I would sneak to see Chen Si every day, clean up the house for him. Combing his hair for him, cooking and eating for him. I asked people to tell him that I was a deaf-mute and a member of the Association for the Handicapped. He was very friendly and told me a story, actually a novel he wrote called "Jokey Don't Cry".
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