When the train finally pulled into Chengdu East Station, Li Yang's heart couldn't help but hang in the air.
I can't tell you what it's like to be so eager to get back to this city, a city that is neither home nor away, and yet to see the four scarlet LED fonts of "Chengdu East Railway Station" and feel a palpitation for no reason. Maybe he was a little nervous? He thought with amusement that it was just a trip home.
With the wheels meshing less and less with the rails, the westbound train completed its mission and came to a steady stop at the final destination.
The car was full of strangers with large bags scrambling out of the narrow doors, as if a little late to catch the next series of buses and shuttles. They were red-faced and loudly discussing the New Year's shopping with their companions, cursing and complaining about the overcrowding in their thick Sichuan dialect, not caring about the iron plates under their feet or the children around them, causing the stewardesses with megaphone speakers to advise them to pay attention to their safety, but the 80-decibel sound soon dissolved in the bustling crowds like bubbles in the sunshine.
Li Yang is not empty-handed back, he carried a bulging black travel bag, which is stuffed with strange souvenirs and souvenirs, the chest is quite funny hanging computer bag, the left hand carrying a wrapped tightly plastic bag, the right hand pulling a silver-white suitcase full of clothing, dragged up the creaking. This line of work plus after a day and night of the turbulence caused by a disheveled face, he looks completely unlike a college student, but like a failed investment turned gray face to run the road vendors, or junior high school did not finish halfway out of the kind of dropout.
But Li Yang does not feel that this is what is wrong, he is accustomed to casual, even if there is really a passer-by with a contemptuous look at him, he does not care, at most, will only be in the passing time with the middle finger to hold up a glasses to show dissatisfaction. In front of the mirror at the end of the carriage, Li Yang straightened his messy clothes and smoothed the bangs in front of his forehead, which were about to go up to the sky, so that he would no longer look so greasy and unappealing, and he wanted to forcefully show a smile that he felt extremely happy because he was almost home, but his eyes told him that he couldn't do it at all. It is really ugly, thinking of this, Li Yang's mouth can not help but curve, showing a little extremely shallow smile.
Out of the car door, Li Yang took a deep breath of air, full of familiar flavor, it is that kind of foreign city without the atmosphere, acerbic in the essential simplicity, hurry and hide half a point of leisure, even if you do not go to the city center, in the train station, this is a little bit out of the way in this kind of place can also be experienced unique atmosphere belonging exclusively to the Chengdu, so that the Li Yang half of this half a year away from home, the traveler feel extra!
As he dragged his luggage out of the station, Li Yang couldn't help but see the girl in his mind.
It's been a long time, Zhang Xinyue.
There was a sudden flutter. In an instant, it was as if he had returned to the age of sixteen.
Two
Zhang Xinyue received the message from Li Yang late one night.
"In?"
Looking at the familiar avatar blinking, Zhang Xinyue naturally clicked on the dialog box, typed "in" and then clicked send.
"I'm going back to Chengdu, is it convenient to find a time to come out and see each other?"
"Sure."
"Then tomorrow, tomorrow I'll look for you."
"Okay."
"Then you quickly rest, it's already very late, do not sleep well skin will be bad, haha!"
Zhang Xinyue typed the last "good" word, hesitated for a while, and added a "good night" sent over, so she was slightly surprised that Li Yang did not reply to her message. See yourself sent "good night" two words some bleak hanging at the bottom of the screen, she could not help but feel a little annoyed, but also feel a little funny in a split second, strange that their state of mind with the usual compared to no longer look so elegant and calm.
As usual, after playing with the phone for a while, ready to go to sleep, Zhang Xinyue found that she could not sleep, the more she implied that she was calm and sleepy, the more she felt that her mind was a mess, stimulating her to be more and more awake. Then do not sleep, Zhang Xinyue some sulking thought, so quietly, she got out of bed, shuffled shoes, tiptoe out the door.
The moonlight tonight was beautiful, really, especially beautiful. Although it is winter, the fog is not heavy, the clouds in the sky can be seen clearly, not to mention the stars, but unfortunately the stars are not as bright as when I was a child, but they still glow with a warm light, soothing the sleepless people on the earth's sadness. Zhang Xinyue does not have any sadness, probably just occasional insomnia, her sleep was not too good, coupled with ...... the news of Li Yang's return, so that she also messed up a few points of mind, although she is also not willing to admit.
Step by step in the quiet streets, gentle moonlight also through the green forest stars sprinkled on Zhang Xinyue's delicate body, the wind began to wind up, she is still determined to walk. The vehicles and the daytime the same endless flow, the difference is that the sound of the traffic whistling past seems to bring a few points of intoxication, can not help but make Zhang Xinyue fell into a deep memory.
That summer, Zhang Xinyue seventeen years old.
It is the age of a young girl like a flower, she has a head of smooth black hair, in the caress of the sunlight mapping out the burning luster, just a simple ponytail, will be able to highlight the youthful vigor of the young girl in the best way; she has a pair of eyes that can speak, is so bright, dazzling, and even the sun in the middle of the summer afternoon in the eyes in the front of the eyewear eclipses the need to Ying Ying curved a little bit, infinite tenderness and affection will be the most important thing to do. Infinite tenderness will be from the corner of the eyes of the fine fight to be the first to come out.
It was in that summer that she first met Li Yang.
In her first impression, Li Yang does not seem to be anything special, that thin boy, as soon as he entered the classroom sat in the far corner, face with a vague loss and despair, in the surrounding classmates playful and playful, he just did not say a word lying on the desk, and even a little restless. It was true, after all, he had been assigned to a new class, everything had to start from the beginning, but he was also a little too introverted.
Three
Returning to Chengdu, Li Yang did not intend to make a hasty transfer home immediately, but temporarily stayed at his uncle's house.
The two of them have a lot to talk about, but they don't have time to talk about it, so they got a call from their uncle, who said he had to go out for a while. The first thing you need to do is to get the money to pay for it.
The clock is ticking. The first time I saw this, I was able to see the movie, and I was able to see the movie, and I was able to see the movie, and I was able to see the movie. He also does not know what he is guilty of, but Zhang Xinyue's appearance repeatedly in his mind jumping, sometimes fuzzy and sometimes clear, he more and more want to know more than a year no see, she is now exactly what has become.
Li Yang stood up from the sofa with great difficulty and walked to the window and pushed it open, and a coldness invaded him, making him shiver for a good while, and his agitation dissipated a lot at once. He tightened the collar of his coat, but had no intention of closing the window, and instead turned his gaze to the world outside - the strange and familiar city.
The night was already deep, and the lights of all the houses were nearly out of sight, but unexpectedly, the moon was bright tonight, seriously, exceptionally bright. Buildings, neighborhoods, and sidewalks that should be hidden in the darkness are naked in front of one's eyes under the seduction of the moonlight, and one can even see a stray cat curled up in a ball somewhere on a rooftop, sleeping peacefully. Pedestrians are few and far between, but the driveway is a thousand miles of traffic that goes on forever, and the red and yellow lights dotting the lonely city make Chengdu seem even lonelier. In this cold winter night, probably very few people will be as heavy hearted as yourself, Li Yang thought.
Looking at the bright moon, Li Yang inadvertently out of mind, thoughts were hooked back to the summer three years ago.
It was the first day of the sophomore class, and because Li Yang's performance in the first year of high school was pulled across the board, he was forced to be relegated from a special class to an ordinary class, so on the day of the class, Li Yang's mood was very low. Came to a new class group, looking at the front of no rules and regulations in a mess of classmates lively chat, his heart is full of remorse, and even want to run to the special class to his former class teacher to beg for mercy to let him take in their own. But the reality is often so cruel, Li Yang not only had to spend the rest of the two years in the ordinary class, and even assigned to the class teacher is one of his extremely dislike of the teacher.
Li Yang did not want to compete with them for a so-called good position, he would rather shrink in the corner, preferably without anyone recognizing him.
"Isn't this the whoever from the exceptional class?"
An ill-timed sneer suddenly came from behind him. He turned around to see the person, some impression, but never knew what his name was.
"Ah, yes."
"How did you end up in our class?"
"I can't study."
Said Li Yang showed an awkward but not rude smile, and then turned his head away, not intending to continue this topic.
At this time, he saw Zhang Xinyue.
That side face instantly attracted him. Time seemed to stand still, the blazing summer sun shone through the glass window on that girl's delicate and exquisite face, outlining the luminous outline. She was reading a book, and her tranquil face contrasted sharply with the noisy crowd around her. As if the barren mountain slopes suddenly bloomed full of fragrant flowers, a time as far as the eye can see all the colorful, bright and beautiful; and like a sparrow on the pole accidentally hit by high voltage electricity, it fell from a very high and very high place, the wind just whistling blowing, the body is tingling and unconscious. In short, at this moment, Li Yang life trajectory deflection.
He suddenly remembered a sentence.
The world of love, but the summer white porcelain plum soup, broken ice touch the wall when ringing.
Four
As Zhang Xinyue found a winter vacation temporary workers, knocking through the boss only give half a day off, so the two had to meet after lunch. The location is set in the north train station closer to her, to be honest, there is no very suitable place to play near the north train station, but Li Yang insisted that he did not want to let Zhang Xinyue run too far, had to be their own silent ride on more than forty stops to the bus. The first time I saw this, I was in the middle of a long journey, and I was in the middle of a long journey.
Li Yang said in advance to his uncle that he had a little something this day, not at home to eat lunch, and then immediately ran downstairs to a barber store, so that Mr. Tony gave himself a hair wash, and then went to the supermarket to buy a couple of bread to eat, and then hurriedly on the bus.
Time passes so slowly on the bus!
Li Yang was almost fidgeting as he watched the roadside scenery recede, listened to the emotionless mechanical female voice on the bus announcing the bus stops, and counted the distance between him and Zhang Xinyue getting closer and closer, and his heartbeat became rapid little by little. At this moment, he was a little surprised that he still retained a few heartbeats for her, but this also made his emotions become more anxious.
On the other hand, Zhang Xinyue is already waiting at the appointed place, but her cell phone battery is less than 10%, so it's hard to say that she can successfully wait for Li Yang.
Hey, Li Yang is actually a good person, very good indeed. Zhang Xinyue thought with some emotion, just do not like it. But the boundaries between like and dislike are not so clear, perhaps three years ago, he also moved to him? For a while, Zhang Xinyue was also a little confused about what kind of mindset she was in.
She fell into her memories again. Unlike Li Yang, her good memories of high school were given by another boy, and the fragments about Li Yang were probably limited to the days when she was at the same table with him: he had a poet-like melancholy temperament, and even when he laughed, it was airy; letting him explain math problems to himself, he would even blush; when he was being flirted with by the boy at the front table unkindly, he would also sharply refute that boy for himself, and Even at the risk of turning his face ...... In short, Li Yang is very different from other boys, he is like a child who has not grown up, and like an overly mature adult, his body is full of enigmas, and his heart is like a vast ocean, unfathomable. Unfortunately, Zhang Xinyue didn't know that as long as she wanted, Li Yang was even willing to cut his heart open for her to see. Even now, it was the same.
Five
After nearly two hours of bumpy ride, Li Yang finally arrived at his destination.
As soon as he got off the bus, he stared at the crowd at the bus stop, trying to find Zhang Xinyue, but after a while of searching, Li Yang had to accept the reality: Zhang Xinyue was not at the appointment.
Li Yang only had to send her a message: "I'm here, where are you?"
However, after waiting for ten minutes, and not waiting for Zhang Xinyue's reply, Li Yang was a bit helpless, but can only go back and forth in circles near the bus stop, expecting her to suddenly appear.
At this time his phone rang, it is an unfamiliar number, Li Yang hesitated a moment or answer.
"Li Yang, I'm waiting for you on this side of the east square of the train station."
"Ah, Zhang Xinyue ah, you changed your number ah?"
"No, my cell phone is out of battery, this is borrowed from someone else, you quickly come over."
"Good, I'll be right there."
The moment he hangs up the phone, Li Yang's heart can not restrain the fire again, his footsteps can not help but slow down, he wants to quickly calm his mood. But the more repressed, the heart of the fire but more fiery, and even let Li Yang feel hairy, this winter, but so hot.
Finally, in the agreed East Square, Li Yang saw that once familiar figure.
She sat on a chair in front of the store, her delicate silhouette in the warm winter sun as the first time I saw that summer shining light, her side face and the same as before, peaceful and quiet, is frozen out of mind.
"Hi, Zhang Xinyue. Long time no see." Li Yang walked up to the figure and said in a pretense of ease.
Zhang Xinyue raised her head and a bright smile instantly appeared on her face, "Hi, it's been a long time, Li!"
"You've been waiting for me for a long time, right, sorry."
"Not really, just for a while. Now where are we going?"
"Have you had lunch yet? Dry rice to go?"
"Haha, good."
Said the duo and got up to go foraging for food.
Sitting down according to the usual is a chat, the main chat is to go to college in the past six months of life, Li Yang indiscriminate a blind Kan, from time to time to make Zhang Xinyue cover the face of the light laugh, "you changed a lot of it."
"No, I think I'm still as handsome as before, hehehe."
Zhang Xinyue skimmed her mouth and rolled her eyes, which made Li Yang feel a little embarrassed.
After dinner, Li Yang worried about where to go to play, he racked his brain for half a day, and still could not decide on a good place to go, the two had to wander aimlessly on the street.
One step, two steps ...... the picture of their peers has never been so harmonious.
Chengdu is such a vulgar city, it has a video game city, there are movie theaters, there are playgrounds, but often can not accommodate the figure of people who do not have enough material. In front of the money, all things can be clearly marked price, but for individuals, the most valuable things in life is not priced. For example, for Li Yang, this day and Zhang Xinyue spent just a few hours together.
Chengdu and its warm side, it has a long walk endless alleys, people can walk slowly, you can talk to each other buried pulse deep love; it has a lot of crosswalks and traffic light intersections, when the boy took the girl across the street, you can hold her hand, feel the precious and brief tenderness. However, like Li Yang, who boasts of his innocence and uprightness, he is always on the way to miss, and can't grasp it even if given more chances.
Six
Li Yang and Zhang Xinyue chatted along the way. They walked closely together through one unfamiliar intersection after another, wandering aimlessly while sharing new things from the south and north of the sky.
"I didn't realize you were so talkative before haha." Li Yang couldn't help but tease Zhang Xinyue a bit.
Zhang Xinyue instantly embarrassedly masked her face and laughed down, her ponytail fluttering up and down like a black butterfly with her laughter.
"But I really think you are good like this." Li Yang's voice took on a hint of seriousness, "I hope you can always be happy like this."
Zhang Xinyue raised her head, the laughter in her eyes quietly faded, and she also swore, "You too, it's good that we all have to be happy!"
"Must na!"
Time slowly pushed past, the sun from the warm and brilliant golden yellow gradually turned into a hazy and sentimental goose yellow, and soon disappeared at the end of the horizon. The cars turned on their low beams, the stores turned up the power of their incandescent lamps, and the street lamps were silently lit up, so that for a while, the two people who were having a good conversation didn't even realize that the night had come.
But night came.
Li Yang had to think about when to go back to his uncle's house, who had already sent a few messages asking if he was coming home for dinner.
"Are you going back?" Zhang Xinyue asked.
"Well, it's almost time, there will be no public transportation if it's later."
"Uh-huh, then you quickly see how to go back, let's go directly to the bus station."
"I'll search it first."
Li Yang opened the map and looked at it, and found that the nearest bus stop is also not a short distance away, he stole a little joy in his heart, and then said, "Let's go."
The two continued to walk forward, but unlike in the afternoon, along the way, both were surprisingly silent.
The wind gradually increased, the roadside green shrubs issued a creaking sound, mottled leaves drifted down from the French sycamore, the light of the street lamps flashed in the messy gaps in the dead leaves, and even the bleak white moonlight was also torn, scattered moonlight scattered all over the ground, their figures gradually became blurred.
The short distance of one thousand meters, Li Yang how much hope that there is no end ah! If there was a sudden snowstorm that trapped them on this street; if the pitch-black area in front of them was a mysterious time tunnel, and once they walked in, they would never be able to get out; if they were suddenly surrounded by a group of black-clothed men, who respectfully shouted out in unison to Li Yang as his young master, then he would be able to graciously take Zhang Xinyue to his magnificent castle for a visit; if ... ...No matter how much Li Yang used his imagination, this kilometer road, after all, came to an end.
In front is that bus stop, blowing such a big wind, and there is not a passer-by waiting, only the bus stop sign stands alone, waiting for the arrival of the parting.
"You go, pay attention to safety on the road." Zhang Xinyue's clear voice came, pure seems not mixed with a trace of emotion.
Li Yang nodded, but he took two steps forward, but he could no longer take a step, his figure was fixed there. After two or three seconds, he turned his head, holding a stiff smile, and the sound that came out between the knots of his throat flipping up and down was clearly from another person.
"Zhang Xinyue, can I hug you?"
Zhang Xinyue was obviously very surprised, her eyes widened and she did not answer immediately, but stared at Li Yang's thin face, her flowing eyes as bright as the stars in the sky.
"Why?"
The corner of Li Yang's mouth lifted up an arc that seemed to be a smile, as if he wanted to ease the odd atmosphere.
"Because I can't let you go."
Saying that, Li Yang took a big step forward towards Zhang Xinyue and gently hugged her.
The wind was even stronger, Zhang Xinyue's hair danced wildly in Li Yang's face, and the mournful honking of the bus came faintly in the distance, but Li Yang's whole world was quiet. At this moment, she belonged to him, no matter how far he and she could go in the end, and no matter what she thought of him, even if it only represented a friendship, or it was just her pity or even charity for him, but for himself, it was already enough to feel great happiness.
Zhang Xinyue's body was cold like a piece of ice, she failed to draw a trace of warmth in Li Yang's embrace, and her mind was blank at the moment. Because she never thought that this introverted and decent boy would be so over the line, but at the same time she vaguely felt a wisp of peace. At this moment, her wandering heart can rest in this harbor that does not belong to her, even if it is only for a short moment, but for herself, it is already enough to heal the unhealed wounds.
In Chengdu that night, there was an uneventful farewell.
People's youth is bound to die, and even the most beautiful theater will come to an end. The winter night of 2015 belonging to Li Yang and Zhang Xinyue has become their only remaining warm memories of each other.
And then no one will remember.
And then no one will remember.