The following fact is really heartbreaking, but it is not uncommon in real life.
Ying, a 25-year-old Guangdong girl, has been working in Beijing for four years. Before her injury, she was an employee of a company. Her story makes us have to start with the white yarn.
When gauze was covered on her face layer by layer, she felt that her youth, her joy and her right to be a human being were all covered and overlapped, and her eyes turned white. She tried to open her eyes to see everything clearly, but the hand raised at that moment blocked her sight and prevented her from looking back at the future. Everything, all stagnated at the moment when the black hand was raised. Since then, her fate has been bent. She only remembers the moment when the hair that grew to her hips subconsciously raised her cheeks and then slipped back to her shoulders ... In a few days, it was time to have a holiday for the New Year, which was her 25th birthday.
It was already dark, and Ying pushed her bike through the narrow alley and walked to the cabin she rented. Today's hutong is particularly quiet, probably because of the upcoming Chinese New Year. People who have traveled abroad for a year have all gone home for reunion. This is her fourth year in Beijing. After failing in the college entrance examination that year, she started as an apprentice in a printing factory, and later jumped into the joint venture company with a delicate hand. She is meticulous and easy-going, and all the leading colleagues around her regard her as a sister. Although the salary is not high and there are many other opportunities outside, she stayed down-to-earth She feels that nothing can compare with this harmonious friendship. Today, the manager announced that she is a secretary and a cashier in the accounting office. She started taking a specialized course in accounting last year. I didn't expect the manager to trust her after learning about it. Only by urging herself to work and study harder will she live up to this trust.
Hutong is not long, but she thought a lot along the way. Four years is not a short course. For four years, she has been steadily and steadily, step by step; Life is mostly work and residence, so parents and brothers are very relieved of her. It's just that some troubles happened last year, which made her very upset and there were more inquiries at home, but she always thought that everything would disappear with the passage of time.
At the beginning of last year, she had a boyfriend, two years older than her. People who drift in Beijing may all have the same experience: running around. Move from here to there with poor belongings, just like migratory birds. She lived in a company guest house, where she met the young man. His home is in the suburbs of Beijing. He usually works in the city and goes home on weekends, so they really don't spend much time together. After getting along for a long time, she found that he was impetuous. Although she can feel his love for her, she always feels unrealistic around him. And she gradually discovered one of his fatal shortcomings: a hobby of playing cards and gambling; This made her feel unbearable. But every time he broke up, he always vowed to turn over a new leaf, but after three days, he went his own way. I also blame her for being too soft-hearted, and their relationship between men and women was so detached that it lasted for two years. Last Spring Festival, she went to his house as a guest and ran into his brother scolding him in the house: "Do you still want to buy a mobile phone? How many mobile phones have you lost this year? " She was startled. Soon she heard his mother's voice again: "You just saw him lose, why didn't you see him win?" Doesn't he have a lot of money, too "Then came his voice:" Yes, brother, don't you think I have made progress? "I believe that I can finally make a fortune by this means ..." Her heart is so cold, she has such a boyfriend and he has such a confused mother!
He called her company every day, went to the company to find her, and repeated his previous promises and vows, but she could no longer believe that kindness. She moved quietly to avoid him. Unexpectedly, he got her new address from his colleagues in the company and appeared in front of her all day. Endless pestering, he followed her like a ghost at any time. In class at night, he knocked on the classroom door and said to the teacher, "Please come out!" " "She can't stand it anymore. He repeatedly confessed that there was only one sentence: "Give me another chance." Seeing that she was extremely determined this time, he began to threaten her again, "I will kill you", "kill your family" and so on ... All that happened strengthened her determination to break up with him.
A girl is entangled in the outside alone, and her family is very uneasy. Mom and brother often call the company. Their fears are not unreasonable, but she is too contemptuous. She thinks they love each other after all, and he won't do anything to her. All troubles will pass like winter, and spring will always come. It's only a matter of time.
Far away, she saw the figure of a cyclist in Hutongkou, wearing a thick hat and propping one foot on the ground, as if waiting for someone. Cycling in winter is very common in Beijing. Without much thought, she wandered out of the alley alone. Turn right in the front, and you can get home not far. It's very cold. She wears thick wool trousers and down jacket every day when she goes to work by bike, but her long hair still hangs down at will, which is very eye-catching. The sound of grinding wheels is so clear in the silent alley. She habitually lowers her head and approaches the corner of her home bit by bit.
The cyclist's back did not move. When she walked four or five meters behind him, it was her turn. She turned the handlebar and subconsciously raised her face. He saw the man's shadow turn around, his arm suddenly lifted, and a cool liquid splashed on her left face. But all of a sudden, she still didn't connect the raised hand with the coolness on her face. She thought it was water from someone's balcony upstairs. But soon, after the coolness, the burning pain began, and then she realized that she had been hurt by others. The alley was quiet, and the figure had already disappeared. The liquid flowed down, the surface of the down jacket melted, the down jacket burst, and the liquid continued to flow down to jeans and leather shoes ... She insisted on pushing the bicycle into the gate, and two boys living in the same hospital were shocked to see her. She felt her face shrinking and suddenly felt an itch on the back of her hand. She scratched unconsciously and took out a small piece of meat. She and the two boys were stunned and realized that they should go to the hospital.
Walking on the way to the hospital, only two voices kept bombing in her mind: she was killed and her life was over. Walking into the elevator of the hospital, she saw herself in the mirror: her left eye was sealed, half of her face was swollen, and her five senses lost their original shape ... She fainted in the elevator. My brother left home overnight and took a deposit of 10,000 yuan the next day. The burnt long hair has been cut off, and layers of gauze are wrapped around his face. She lay in bed day and night, without infusion. ...
The sulfuric acid was diluted, and her face was confirmed as 2 ~ 3 degree burns. Everything is like a dream, and the real life makes it difficult for her to distinguish between true and false. When she wakes up in the morning, she will be suddenly surprised. She should go to work. Why is she still lying here? My brother was afraid that she would do something stupid and stayed with him for seven days and seven nights. She does think about death every day. She asked the nurse for sleeping pills and kept them secretly. Every morning, she thought it was her last time to see the sun, but she really couldn't bear to see her brother's red eyes. Tears streaming down her face, she still wants to call her mother in her hometown with her mobile phone. It's okay, it's okay.
She stayed for two months. She can't figure out why people are so cruel. Since you love someone, why should you let her suffer for life? She can't find the answer, and she actually doesn't want to think about it. The mother who insisted on coming was shocked to see her daughter. She couldn't accept the fact that she was lying in a hospital bed.
Selfishness, recklessness and irrationality in love will ruin the love of youth and even life. But compared with marriage, love is simple after all, and the complicated and changeable relationships and circumstances in marriage life are more enough to bury love.
In butterfly lovers, Zhu Yingtai loved Liang Shanbo deeply, but was forced to marry someone else, so he refused to die and staged a tearful love tragedy. In A Dream of Red Mansions, Lin Daiyu and Jia Baoyu were childhood friends, but they were separated by their feudal parents. Baoyu got married in the bridal chamber there, which was the time when Daiyu's soul returned home. The disillusionment of the ideal of love in feudal times will also make people lose the courage and fun of life. In Ba Jin's novels Home, Spring and Autumn, didn't Miss Mei and other maids all die young for this? These are all love tragedies under the background of dark society, and their appearance can basically be said to be the product of the love system of that era. Today's society is becoming more and more open and inclusive. Young people can basically get rid of the shackles of some backward social concepts on the road of marriage and love, and can freely choose their ideal lovers to a large extent. But such a relaxed environment can't put an end to emotional tragedies and setbacks. In this confusing world, emotional entanglements seem to be more and more people's venting of frustrated life. Career and interpersonal setbacks are enough to make people start to deny the world and play with feelings. As a result, more and more emotional losers appear.