[Diary] It's good to be alive and healthy when you find yourself sick.

I used to hear people say how important it is to be healthy, but I never understood it deeply. Because I am young, I always feel that illness and death are very, very far away from me, but now my physical fitness is really much worse than before, and sometimes I feel closer to death when I feel unwell.

I get a little hypoglycemia sometimes. When I am in a closed space, my blood sugar is low, I can't breathe, then I feel flustered, my heart beats faster, I gradually feel dizzy and I can't see clearly. I don't feel very scared at this time, especially the feeling that I can't breathe fresh air is very uncomfortable. It seems that death is close to me.

Every time my life is threatened, I will have a deeper understanding of the meaning of living, and I will also understand that I need physical support behind my struggle. Otherwise, even if you have more ideals, ambitions and efforts, you will be wiped out at the moment when your body collapses.

In the face of life and death, life will feel that everything is meaningless. Only by living can there be other possibilities. At that time, you won't be angry with anyone, because it's completely unimportant, and you won't think about making big money, because money really doesn't play any role at this moment, and you no longer feel how important honor and rights are, because compared with life, it's really as light as a feather.

But strangely, when the body recovers, our brains seem to have amnesia, forgetting the feeling when we are sick, and will do the same thing, regardless of health, just seeking money and fame. We will worry about the little things in life and get angry with other people's behavior. You will live in other people's world and forget yourself.

In fact, if we can always remember our state and mood when we are sick, we will be more calm about many unpleasant things in life. There is really nothing more important than life in this world. In the face of life and death, nothing seems to matter.

Nowadays, we are always anxious, but sometimes when we think about our illness, we suddenly find that there is nothing to be anxious about. Life and death are nothing more than that. Before death, everything is as light as a feather. It is a very lucky thing to live healthily. We should have fun and earn money every day. Why get into endless anxiety about those external things and feelings?

It is really rare for a person to take care of himself and cherish himself. In fact, many people simply don't know how to take care of themselves. They seem to do everything for themselves, but they have never really done anything beneficial to themselves, such as taking care of their health, their spiritual world, their energy and their mood.