Zhou's works are profound and philosophical. He can explain the truth and inspire people with seemingly ordinary little things in life.
He is also a wise author, who looks at life with calm and unique eyes and leads an open-minded and optimistic life.
Some people say that "men should learn from Wang Xiaobo and women should learn from Zhou", which is highly praised.
Zhou is like a rough jade, shining in the crowd, guiding some people with his light.
Niu Niu, a father's note, was written when he was 43 years old. At that time, he was a graduate student of philosophy department in Beijing. He fell in love with his student Yu Er and got married. Later, their Niu Niu was born, and they were extremely happy. However, bad luck followed. His lovely Niu Niu suffered from an eye tumor after the full moon and tortured the couple.
The doctor said that Niu Niu can only live for one year, so the couple especially cherish their time with Niu Niu and spend every day with their children.
Niu Niu was one and a half years old and died unfortunately. Zhou He's wife was heartbroken, and their relationship ended in misunderstanding. Rain is falling all left him.
Three years have passed, and Zhou is always full of yearning for this lovely daughter, so she wrote this article with deep affection.
Look at this article, there are tears everywhere, and there are thoughts everywhere. It tells the joy of parents when Niu Niu arrived, the worry of parents when Niu Niu was ill, and the sadness of parents after Niu Niu died. Affectionate in it, lost in it, happiness is accompanied by a touch of sadness.
0 1? Niu Niu's arrival filled the couple with joy.
Like many couples, the arrival of children is so happy and incredible. That's what Zhou thinks. He will stare at this lovely little face for a long time when the child is asleep, lasting for a long time. Then gently leave a kiss.
He would look for clues in his daughter's babbling voice and be surprised at the words he vaguely felt.
For example, when Niu Niu was eight months old, she vaguely heard her daughter call him dad, so she laughed heartily and was full of happiness.
He will be excited about his daughter's little progress. For example, she can grasp things, sit, climb, eat by herself and walk.
He carefully recorded everything and recorded his daughter's growth trajectory.
Children are like angels. In the eyes of parents, everything is clean and good.
Even if Niu Niu doesn't defecate for several days, he will be full of joy if she suddenly has it.
It is not enough for a man to regard his daughter as his little lover and love him very much.
Zhou experienced the happiness of being a father in Niu Niu. He said, "For a man, the title of father is the most sacred."
He wrote profoundly in the book:
Some people say that the arrival of children will make a man mature, stable and caring. I think so.
When bad luck came, they suffered unspeakable torture.
Ask what is the most painful thing in the world, which is that the person you love suffers.
Zhou's little angel found a malignant tumor in her eyes after the full moon. They can't believe it, and they don't want to believe it.
But when their daughter's tumor grew up bit by bit and finally her eyes swelled like table tennis, they finally bowed to their fate.
What do you think of this child? They asked themselves deeply.
They want Niu Niu to live like this, but they need surgery to gouge out Niu Niu's eyes. From then on, she can only live in darkness.
How unfair this is. Without light, Niu Niu's life is completely dark.
Without a future, Niu Niu might as well die when she grows up.
Moreover, this practice may be temporary. If it recurs, Niu Niu will still accept death.
At this point, Niu Niu has been tortured by eye pain and cried, and sometimes even screamed like a beast.
The harsh voice made them unable to let go.
Finally, they decided to accompany Niu Niu to the end of their lives. They don't want their beloved children to suffer from illness and have no hope for the future.
They bowed to fate and life.
What a painful understanding this is. What a deep and hopeless love.
They give Niu Niu the warmest love like healthy children.
Grow up with her, read to her, teach her to walk, and give her a birthday party.
They teased Niu Niu and made her giggle.
They took Niu Niu for a walk, showed him flowers and grass, introduced her to cats and dogs, and told him their names.
Niu Niu is almost blind even if she can only see a little light, even if she is half a year old.
Poor Niu Niu felt the love from her parents and held her little hand happily.
Niu Niu looks like a healthy child, but she is full of sadness.
He wrote painfully in the book:
A lovely child, so young, has to endure illness and meet life and death, but his parents can do nothing but watch him suffer. This is a kind of heartache and helplessness.
03? Niu Niu left and the family broke up.
Niu Niu's departure was a great blow to the couple. They often live in hallucinations and regrets.
A friend introduced a good piece of land to Zhou, and he suddenly wanted to build a house for Niu Niu.
But he immediately realized that Niu Niu had left them, forever.
He turned to a lovely book and wanted to read it to her. Just as he was about to call this name, he suddenly realized that she was no longer alive.
Zhou's wife often has these hallucinations
Passing a shop and seeing lovely toys or clothes, she stopped to buy them for Niu Niu. Suddenly she realized that her beloved daughter was gone, so she walked away disappointed.
Seeing the little girl skipping across the road, she thought of Niu Niu.
If only Niu Niu were still alive, she thought. She is so big, wearing a ponytail and jumping around.
Everything reminds them of Niu Niu.
Why does Niu Niu get sick? They are looking for the reason.
Is it because Rain is falling all caught a cold when she was pregnant for five months and took an X-ray? Is it because Rain is falling all is sensitive and her husband is having an affair with a girl that she is sulking? Is it because of genetic variation?
What is the reason? They traced the reason, and it seems that there is no specific conclusion.
If Rain is falling all's cousin hadn't infected her with a cold when she was five months pregnant, she wouldn't have gone to see a doctor or been taken by a doctor to take an X-ray.
If a girl's name is not Zhou, then the pregnant Rain-falling All won't sulk, so maybe Niu Niu will develop very well.
But there is no if. There is no if in the world.
Thinking about it, Rain is falling all thinks that everything is fate. This is the bitter fate of Niu Niu, the bumpy fate of the Zhou couple, and the arrangement of God. ...
Rain is falling all thought of, and so did Zhou.
Zhou is first and foremost a philosopher. He knows countless causes and effects in the world.
It's just that he's not a hero, and he doesn't want to be one. He is just an ordinary man.
He wants a plain and happy life and family happiness.
But everything was broken by fate, and his girl made him think about thousands of reasons and philosophies.
About life and death, about meaning, about life.
He thinks that life and death are just accidents. It's just a coincidence that Niu Niu chose him as his father, which doomed them to love.
It's sad that Niu Niu died so early. But who can escape the end of life? It's only a matter of time.
So Niu Niu left early.
And what is the meaning of life? Does it really make sense?
Zhou knows everything like the back of his hand. He feels that life is nothing, and any great achievement is short-lived. There's no need to be so dramatic. If he chooses, he would rather accept the ordinary and mediocrity and let him have this lovely child.
He said that he is just an ordinary man, not a soldier or a hero, and he doesn't need to be tall and straight, but his life needs ordinary embellishment.
But life can't just bow to misfortune. Speaking of being able to die in ordinary years, he chose to be detached and die.
He wanted to forget Niu Niu's pain at that time, but there was always Niu Niu's shadow in front of him.
He is in pain, and he can't better comfort the more painful the rain is falling all.
Rain is falling all began to blame him for neglecting himself and not caring about himself. Gradually, they have nothing to say, and there is an insurmountable gap.
They decided to break up, and Rain is falling all left him.
One of the reasons for leaving him is that I don't want to have this painful memory about Niu Niu.
Niu Niu left, and Niu Niu's mother left happy and painful memories for Niu Niu's father.
Zhou ended his relationship, teacher-student relationship.
Three years later, thinking of Niu Niu, he wrote this book with deep affection and pain.