Someone once asked me this question. I was young and ignorant at that time, and now I understand the true meaning of this question.
? One day in exam week, as usual, I ran to the dormitory after reviewing, took a shower, washed clothes and took notes. After doing these things, I climbed into bed at ten o'clock, brushed Tik Tok, and then turned on the game. It's twelve o'clock after three or four innings. After reading a novel, I fell asleep.
? The scene in front of me is familiar. I lived in the dormitory for almost a year, lying in bed, only to see a black thing flying towards me. I couldn't stop it and was bitten by it. Then, I found it was a bat.
? "Whew," I woke up from my dream and looked at my mobile phone again. It was already 1 half past one. I got into the quilt again, wrapped myself up, grabbed the sheets and fell asleep again.
? The alarm clock rang, and it should be 7: 20. Shut down as usual, go back to sleep and wake up at 7: 40. I turned on my mobile phone and found several messages. In QQ, my brother asked me if I was up. Answer him: I just woke up. Then I saw the message prompt of WeChat, and I was still wondering who sent me WeChat. After opening it, I took a look and rushed out.
? My heart seems to have stopped beating. I started calling my mother, but no one got through. My cousin's and my cousin's still can't get through. Finally, I dialed my uncle's phone with trembling fingers. "DuDu, DuDu, hello," after two times, someone finally got through, and my tears could not be controlled. I sobbed and asked him, "Uncle, grandma, she ..." "Well, grandma, she.
"When?"
"Around two o'clock last night."
"Why did you leave so suddenly?"
"We didn't think of that. Is it going to be an exam soon? "
"hmm."
"What date did you book the plane?"
"This month is 15."
"Well, when the time comes back, don't affect the exam, you know? Grandma will bless you. "
"But, but why did she just leave?"
"I know you are very obedient. You have a good exam at school and wait for you to come back that day, you know? "
? The phone was hung up. I don't know when sad music came from afar. It's short but long. Finally, my mother called me back. She even thinks that I still don't know anything.
? However, the voice choked and hoarse. How could I not see it? I cried. She may have calmed down and asked, "What's the matter?"
"Mom, I want to go back."
? Six words mean I know everything. "Your uncle said you were going to take the exam, but they weren't going to tell you. Why don't you go to school to take an exam first? "
? I refused and repeated, "I want to go back."
"Well, look at the ticket and see when you will come back."
"Very good."
? The phone hung up and cried. I opened the ticket purchasing interface, found the nearest plane and booked a ticket.
? Then I called the counselor and said, "Teacher, I want to ask for leave."
? I tried to stop crying, but I cried at the moment when the counselor made a noise. "What's the matter? Why do you suddenly want to take time off? "
"My grandmother died, and I want to go back."
? The other party paused. "Well, you submit an application for leave, don't cry."
"Very good."
? Back to the dormitory, I just packed my things and told them that I was going home. My roommate reminded me that there was a physical education exam today.
? I looked at the time. "I took the exam first."
? On the basketball court, my roommate dragged me and told the teacher that I was in a hurry, so I was the first to take the exam. I have never scored so accurately again. I scored five goals, all of them.
? After reporting the results to the teacher, I ran to the school gate. The taxi has arrived, and my tears are still uncontrollable. I can't wait forty minutes.
? Finally arrived at the gate of the airport, but I began to collapse because I couldn't show my health code for a long time. I began to ask my little brother at the door if he could bend the rules. Is there any other way? After calling the city bureau, I still can't change it Fortunately, at this time, my mother's phone called in time. After showing the health code, I hurried through the security check and waited for boarding. I began to feel helpless and collapsed. She was still a senior in high school and had not taken the college entrance examination. It's no use telling her.
? It happened that my high school friend received my news and has been comforting me. Don't be sad, but how can you not be sad?
? Two hours passed and I finally returned to Nanchang. My brother came to pick me up because my uncle accidentally hurt his hand while making a coffin for my grandmother and came to the hospital here.
? Along the way, my uncle went to the county hospital to see him. My brother waited for him, so he took me to eat, but how can I eat?
? He ordered a lot, but I didn't move much. My aunt called him to remind me that I saw my uncles kneeling as soon as I entered the door.
? For a long time, I walked around all day and finally saw the familiar house, the white cloth in front of it, and the team playing ball and singing.
? I walked in the door and saw my uncle. I knelt down crying. My uncle helped me up and took me to the ice coffin. Aunt cried and hugged me. "You're back."
? I don't want to lose it, really. I thought everything was getting better. I thought she could wait until I got married and had children. I thought she could wait for me to take her around the world.
? When everything is getting better, why did it come so suddenly?
? On New Year's Eve, my cousin's grandmother passed away. On the first day of the first year, we went to our home to pay a New Year call. She is still very healthy. I am no longer the child who wants to be with her, and I went home with my parents.
? The fourteenth day of the lunar calendar seems to be the beginning of all nightmares.
? My uncle called and said that my grandmother seemed to be frightened by what happened at my cousin's house. Now she has been taken to the hospital. The doctor diagnosed cerebral hemorrhage. I put down my pen, changed my shoes in a hurry and rushed to the hospital.
? I almost cried, and she seemed to be fine when I went in.
"There you are. I have nothing to do but have a headache. "
"I don't believe it. What did you say after the inspection? "
? My uncle explained that it seems that there is no big problem. My mother went home to cook. At noon, I brought the prepared jiaozi and fed it to her bit by bit. Everything is still normal.
? Two hours later, she suddenly became manic and began to move everything in front of her and arrest people. My tears couldn't help falling, and after the sedative, she calmed down.
? Everyone in the ward is wearing a mask. I know, they are all crying.
? In the afternoon, when she wanted to check, she started arresting people again, and she was manic. She calmed down after an exam finally ended. Not long after, the doctor issued a critical notice.
? We don't believe it. We're taking her home, two cars, and going back separately. When I got home, I ran to her room with my aunts around. At ten o'clock in the evening, because of the epidemic prevention and control checkpoint, Er Yi had to take the mountain road and finally arrived here.
? At that moment, I thought I was really going to lose her. I wanted to stay with her at night, but my aunts woke me up and went to bed.
? The next day, she seemed a little better. Critical notice seems to be a joke. I thought she was better.
? After a few days, she gradually recovered. In order to ensure safety, her uncles took her to the county hospital. After the inspection, it looks so good, but it doesn't seem to be.
? She no longer knows us, she is no longer awake, she no longer has a clear consciousness.
? But what does it matter? She is still here, as long as she is still here.
? For a month, although she was not awake, she could eat, sleep and even talk to her sometimes, so I was satisfied.
? She is getting better and better. My parents and I went back to their place of work and had online classes every day. I went back to see her on May Day. She's fine. She's recovering healthily, except that she doesn't know me.
? At the beginning of May, the school informed me to go back to class. I decided to look at her again. My mother was on duty, so she took me back.
? The day I left was early in the morning. At about five o'clock, she was awake. I leaned close to her ear and said, "I'm leaving and I'll come back in the summer vacation."
? She hasn't woken up yet, shouting "Aunt" and "Sister."
? I told myself, it will be fine, everything will be fine.
I went back to school and lived a 3: 1 life in the teaching building, canteen and dormitory. I spoke to her on the phone before the exam.
? She hasn't woken up yet, but it doesn't matter, I know, she will be fine, she will be fine.
? At the end of the memory, I cried my eyes out on the ice coffin. My mother gave me a bowl of rice, and I couldn't eat it at all.
? At night, everyone spread cardboard on the floor and just lay down. This is a vigil.
? I didn't know how to fall asleep that night, but I vaguely heard my grandmother's third aunt crying on her ice coffin for a long time.
? The next day, the third day, I seemed numb. I began to think, why am I so indifferent? Why can I joke with my cousin? Is my heart really so cold?
? On the third night, when I checked the coffin for the last time, I finally saw her for the last time. At that moment, I broke down in tears.
? She still hasn't changed. She still has a thin face and sleeps peacefully. After my uncle said something, she sat quietly and left.
? The ice coffin was covered and transported away. I followed, but I knew she had really left me.
? She was put in the car and I was sent back to sleep by my father. The next day's flight is at nine o'clock in the morning, and I have to go back to school. There are still some things that have not been fully reviewed.
? My dad walked me to the car. Remember to do well in the exam. 15 will pick you up at the airport.
? At nine o'clock, the plane took off and I left her residence. I know that at this time, she is being cremated.
? I can't see her anymore, I can only see her in the photo. In the days to come, the phone was cut off and I never saw her again when I came back. I can only turn on my mobile phone on the days I miss.
? Thought of here, the glasses have blurred, and the face under the mask is full of tears.
? On July 1 2020, the lost treasure will never come back, the tree hole for maintenance will be completely quiet, and the only concern will no longer exist.