I haven't walked off the ground since I was born in 1993, and doctors had concluded that I wouldn't live past the age of five. Yet just a few minutes ago, I was using Taobao to pick out my twentieth birthday present.
While my peers were still in kindergarten, I had already been to hospitals in big cities like Beijing, Tianjin and Shanghai. While my peers were still playing on see-saws and jumping on leather straps, I was experiencing millions of dollars worth of medical instruments going around on my body.
I've taken medicines that pigs won't eat, had needles with electric current stuck in them, practiced the miraculous qigong, and even stayed in an orphanage full of abandoned children. In those lonely days, I was surrounded by mentally challenged children. The most lonely time, I can only sing in the hallway alone ......
Twenty years, my mother did not know how many doctors gave me a critical notice. A thick pile of paper, she nailed to the wall with a ten-centimeter-long nail, saying it was very monumental.
As a child, I endured physical pain. Growing up, I experienced inner torment. Sometimes, I can't help but ask, "Why did God choose me to endure all this?" But no one can give me an answer. I can only say that misfortune, like fortune, requires someone to bear it.
The fate of the world is a matter of justice!
In recent years, my health has been declining, and I have been hospitalized for a growing number of things, including heart failure, kidney stones, hydronephrosis, cholecystitis, pneumonia, bronchitis, and lung infections. I once thought of donating all my organs to those who need them more, or using them for medical research. But as it stands now, apart from my corneas and brain, there are really very limited organs that can help a normal person work in a healthy way.
My biggest regret is that I didn't go to school. Of course, the reason for my regret is not the "self-improvement" bullshit, but the fact that I can't make friends, meet pretty girls, and have a simple relationship like a normal person. But like the madman Nietzsche said, "What does not destroy me, makes me strong." It is because of not going to school that I was able to have more free time to spend on reading. To my pride, I used to keep reading 100,000 words a day. Although I don't know why I read, I feel it is an expression of serious living.
I'm not an inspirational model like Ms. Zhang Haidi, or a literary master like Mr. Shi Tiesheng, I'm just an ordinary "professional patient". But I would like to say that the real heroes are not those who can boast about their deeds, but those who still keep smiling in the difficult times.
This is the first question I've answered on KnowledgeHub, and I'd like to thank the author. I look forward to meeting more people.