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In senior three, due to the pressure of training, I often choose to eat to relieve stress: three meals a day+midnight snack+snacks between classes. At that time, I didn't realize how terrible this behavior was until my best friend arrived. I was afraid.
Before senior three training, 162, weighing 46kg.
After senior three training, he is 162 and weighs 59kg.
The weight has increased by about 28 Jin.
What they call me, I'm not fat at all, and I've become what they call a "little fat man".
After returning to school after training, my classmates began to ask me.
How did you gain so much weight, what did you eat,
You need to lose weight,
You're cute and fat,
Even my relatives told me that it's good to gain weight. Being fat means that you just want to study, so you are sure to do well in the college entrance examination.
However, at that special time, their words didn't make me think too much, because I was addicted to learning and couldn't extricate myself.
I lost a lot of weight in a physical examination before the college entrance examination. At this time, I am only 5 1kg. Then a lot of such words immediately appeared around me.
Wow, she is much thinner. How come?
You see, I am still very thin and good-looking. I used to be fat. It's a long story
Oh, I'm telling you, the little girl wants to lose weight at a young age, which ruins her health, and you like to make trouble.
I don't know why this "let it go" has become "deliberate" in their eyes.
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Last year, I seemed to pay great attention to my weight. When I gained a little weight, I felt very guilty and even began to hate myself and deny myself.
So I began to eat less, or even not.
Then look for ways to lose weight through exercise on various softwares.
When the weight returns to a satisfactory value, I feel that the whole person has become better.
But as long as the pressure is a little higher, or you happen to meet a certain point and touch the need to eat food to satisfy yourself, then the switch of overeating will automatically turn on.
So I was immersed in the joy of overeating for a few minutes, and I felt full and guilty after ten minutes. Then I went on a diet, didn't eat at all, and exercised. Then I swore in my heart that I couldn't continue overeating. After this stage, I thought I was better. As a result, as long as I touch the switch of overeating again, this infinite cycle will start again.
Seeing the description of bulimia in Zhihu, I realized that my behavior was terrible, so I began to make up my mind to overcome this bad habit.
Three meals a day is normal, try to eat regularly.
Eat snacks if you want, and try not to restrain yourself, otherwise it will be more serious.
When I found myself fat, I told myself in my heart that even if I was fat, I was still a fairy. ...
Although the process is painful, persistence is victory.
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In the modern aesthetic system, thinness is beauty. Just look through Weibo, Tik Tok and friends circle, all of which are promoting that being thin will be better. Coins piled on the collarbone, backhand touching navel, A4 waist, etc. Always keep brushing the screen. It seems that fat people deserve to live in the shadow of thin people.
Even in Zhihu, you can often see such a topic as "World Weight 120 Jin 90 Jin".
After they lost weight, they continued to preach how unbearable they had been. Everything has changed since they lost weight, and life has been much friendlier to them.
In fact, we should not label "fat" and "thin" as simple as that, which is evil, even if we have no malice. Don't confine your values to your body.
I want to tell all the girls that your figure is your own decision. Please don't be influenced by other people's comments. If you really care, please choose the way of health science, health is the first.
Believe in yourself, you are beautiful.