01 some hard to accept the accident
Aunt said, you hurry online search the best hospital in Shanghai, your mother is sick, cervical malignant tumor. When the aunt sent the diagnosis list to me to see, I clearly saw the words in the conclusion of the diagnosis list - malignant tumor. As far as I can remember, my mom rarely got sick from colds. The only time she had surgery was when she gave birth to my brother and me. When she gave birth to me, she suffered a hemorrhage during labor and almost lost her life. I thought that my mom, who had survived the pain of childbirth, would be safe and happy for the rest of her life, but I didn't expect that she would have to go through such an ordeal again. That noon I do not know how to spend, I do not dare to call mom and dad, but also do not want to be found by colleagues I can not hold down the emotions, so the side to change the homework while crying, to the noon a person to sneak people to run to the dormitory, finally can not help but to run out of tears ...... to see the warmth of the sunshine out of the window, the eyes but reveals an indescribable despair ...... can't help but laugh at myself: I'm just a weak little girl, where's the responsibility and bearing? And how to protect my mom?
02 thought for a long time a phone call
afternoon finally couldn't help but dialed the mother's phone, the mother picked up the phone, I asked: mother, you check out the results? Mom pretended to be relaxed and replied: out, nothing happened. I know, mom, don't worry, it's not a big deal, can be cured, don't have pressure. Hearing his mother's voice still did not hold back, cried uncontrollably. When I was little, my mom always encouraged me to be strong and not to be afraid when she took me to the hospital to get an injection for a fever and cold. But now after the role change, but found that my strength is so insignificant. What I can do seems to be the only heart bottomless appeasement ...... that night I completely insomnia, so I want to wake up, this happened is a dream, mom did not get sick, but also with the same as before, happy to dance her love of square dance ah ......
03 still involved in the world of the little girl
careful to hide their emotions, or by the careful office sister found. In the afternoon when the second class, Ji sister walked to the class door to let me come out for a moment and asked me: What's wrong with you? Why did you cry in the morning? Is there something wrong at home? No longer able to hold down their emotions, hugging Ji sister cried, told her about her mother's condition, Ji sister said: "Silly child, don't worry about it, it's not a life-threatening disease, can be cured, rest assured that ha...... runaway heart finally have relief, if I'm not strong, then my mother will not be more The strong ground to cope with the evening with the director of the leave, once again dialed the father's phone, pretending to be mature and stable with the father said: I have inquired about, but also sent the medical records to others to see the list, is not a big deal, can be cured, so that the mother to rest assured, don't be nervous. At that time, I used self-deceptive lies to expect to exchange for mom and dad's peace of mind. And I, after all, is still a little girl involved in the world ah ...... I can't lie to myself, how can I lie to mom and dad?
04? Finally waited for the day of the operation
The next week, mom and dad back home for the transfer, I continue to work, the daytime class, the evening call and mom chat, but mom always can not say a few words on the topic of no talk. I knew she must have been very nervous, and it was hard for her to accept this fact. A week later, my mother returned to Shanghai, and my second brother found an authoritative hospital for my mother, and on November 14th, my mother was hospitalized. The date of the surgery was to be determined by the stabilization of the body's indicators. Mom may be too nervous, after the hospital, blood pressure has been unstable, blood pressure is a little high, that time may be too heavy psychological burden, blood pressure abnormal. 15 November finally all indicators of stability, the hospital at 11:40 a.m. for the mother to carry out surgery. I bought a ticket at 7:00 p.m. and missed my mom's surgery. My father later told me: when my mom was pushed into the operating room, she didn't say a word, and she looked like a fool. At 4:00 p.m., when I arrived at the Beijing Railway Station, I received a WeChat from my dad saying that the operation had gone well and that my mom had come out of the operating room. Tears dripping wet the screen of the phone, my dear mother finally survived this, tomorrow I will be able to see my mother!
05 The little girl wandering back and forth in the hospital
November 16th, 8:30 am arrived at the hospital where my mom is, just got out of the cab, found that there are many florists in front of the hospital, pulling the suitcase and picking out a bouquet of a mix of lilies and carnations for my mom, remembering that my mom loves the fragrance of the lilies. I hope that this fragrance can make mom's nervous heart some relief it ...... to the hospital downstairs, dad came out to pick me up, boiled red dark circles under the eyes, the body has lost a circle, once again did not hold back the red eyes. I've always been my superman, every time I encounter a problem is to give me the support of the person, this time even collapsed. I could only pretend that nothing had happened and chat with my dad. Mom lives on the 6th floor, when I got to the door of the hospital room, when dad was ready to push the door, I said wait, I'll sneak a look first, I didn't have the courage to see my mom's face at that moment, then I followed my dad to see my mom's face, her waxen yellow face, lying weakly in the hospital bed, I put the flowers on the bedside, I went up to embrace my mom, and I couldn't help but cry. Before coming to the leadership and colleagues have also been urged me to see the mother can not cry, I did not expect me to still be very unprofitable cry ...... may grow, is in front of your closest to have a pretense of courage to be strong it ......
Later days, I like a The hospital, like an adult, the hospital back and forth, since childhood are very afraid of the hospital I, this time, but is incomparable frank and peace of mind, always feel that mom live here will be very safe, nothing will happen. After the surgery, mom could only eat some simple fluids, and the next day after her intestines were ventilated, she became a semi-fluid diet again. It was a great motivation for me to see mom's progress. However, probably because of the wound, mom had a fever on the third day, which was always above 38 degrees Celsius. The nurse would always come in the middle of the night to take mom's temperature, and I was responsible for wiping mom's body with hot water and rubbing her palms with alcohol. The nurse said that this would help mom to cool down her temperature. At night, when I heard that mom would wake up when she rolled over and the nurse would come over, it was as if all my energy was on mom, and I was most afraid that the nurse would take her temperature and say, "The fever still hasn't gone down". The psychological quality is not good has always been my weakness, can only secretly pray in the heart: let the mother hurry to reduce the fever.
On the fourth day, my mom's fever finally went down, her temperature was normal, and the doctor recommended that she be discharged. I started to go back and forth again to prepare the medicine for my mom to be discharged, take out the hospital number, and go through the discharge procedures. At that time, I finally felt that I was no longer that uninitiated little girl, and I could finally help my mom and dad share some things independently. In the evening, I dragged my dad out to buy medical swabs for my mom, and he then told me what had been going through his mind: his worries after the operation, his worries about seeing my mom's thin body, and his worries about the recurrence of the operation. I held my dad's hand and told him firmly that he should believe in his mom's ability to recover, and that she would definitely recover better than anyone else. At that moment I saw my dad's red eyes, this strong man, this man who has given me strength since childhood, this man who regards my mom as a treasure, at this moment also needs me to pacify and protect ah ......
? The fifth day mom successfully discharged, to the hospital downstairs, I asked mom: outside the air is fresh, right, mom? Mom nodded and said well, the second brother arranged for the driver to pick up mom and dad and I, all the way to the window mom is looking out the window, this isolated week, this heartbreaking and anxious half a month, finally a good end, mom is finally relieved, I and dad's careful care also in return for a good result. Mom wrapped in her coat, quietly looking out the window, dad watching mom from the side, I looked at mom and dad from the passenger's perspective mirror, I am a happy person ah, grew up living in a loving home, even at this moment, can still see the fortitude between mom and dad's feelings. Dad can't stay away from mom, and mom likewise can't stay away from dad. Just like I asked mom: mom you with me back to Beijing, I work while taking care of you, mom said: I do not, there is still your father it ...... in this world, the existence of my brother and I is really just the crystallization of the love of mom and dad ~ mom and dad must be the most important people in their lives with each other ~
06 Thank you for the warmth of those
? After walking through this difficult half a month or so, sitting on the train knocking words, I still can not help but shed tears, the difference is that the heart is full of sadness and joy and touched. This time my family, colleagues and friends have given me a lot of support and encouragement. When my mom was in Shanghai for treatment, my elder sister gave my mom support and encouragement with her personal experience, which gave her more confidence before she went to the operating table; my second brother contacted the hospital and arranged for a driver to pick her up and drop her off; my second sister-in-law bought my mom pajamas and visited her in the hospital; and there were also many phone calls of concern from my family members. All of these things made mom in the hospital bed more and more powerful day by day. And I, as a newcomer to the workplace, am also highly cared for. My brothers and sisters in the first year group help me share my lessons and give me support and encouragement, so that I, a weak little girl, slowly grows up to be a resilient grown-up ......
Grateful for the warmth of life, grateful for life's little accidents, unafraid, undaunted, because these seemingly The time of trials and tribulations, but only so that the original glory of life after the polishing bloomed more bright colors only ......