"The spirit of the phoenix is nowhere to be seen, and it returns forever. My thoughts are long, forever against my wishes. When will it come to fly?" How to understand?

This phrase was not originally spoken by Xuanxiao, it is a line from the Taoist scripture "Yunshu Qiqi", which tells a story from the "Dongxuan Benxingjing", the story will not be repeated, the general meaning of this phrase is that the remote and trackless spirit phoenix returns longingly without a return. I miss it y, but the fate of heaven is always against my heart's desire. There are millions of calamities but no limits to them. When will the spirit phoenix fly back again? These words appeared in Xuan Xiao's mouth, which can be described as meaningful. Nineteen years ago, Xuanxiao, phoenix flower tree below the words of the long-standing jade, the words of the spirit of the phoenix should be Xuanxiao into the Qionghua before the good times, to Xuanxiao to leave good memories, at this moment, the long-standing jade's appearance awakened Xuanxiao's memories, Xuanxiao expressed their own deep feelings. Nineteen years after the xuanxiao, the face of heavy xuan ice, before the eyes of the bleak things are not the same, the words of the spirit of the phoenix should be the former xuanxiao, the former sentimental xuanxiao, xuanxiao to this time xuanxiao has left a fuzzy impression, but the appearance of heavenly river, phoenix flower branch, once again aroused xuanxiao's memories, compared to the present time of their own, it is really not what it used to be