Later, every time I watched Wang's Sorry, I saw him take out that long The Bucket List on the plane, and my nose was always sour as hell. Now, 20 years later, QQ has been unable to log in, but I still can't forget you.
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Before boarding the plane that day, you sent me a short message "Come and pick me up and give you a surprise". After a while, another one came: "The plane may be late, don't come too early." You said you didn't need me to go too early, but how can I bear to see you?
Just bought a new car, your favorite brand, Beijing Hyundai Sonata. You said you must keep the co-pilot position for you, and I promised. When I came back from the 4S shop, I didn't let anyone take the co-pilot. I know that position belongs only to you.
I will pick you up in it.
I polished my car so shiny that I could see my face smiling like a little fool. Just in the evening, I went out, because you said I would arrive at 9: 30, and I even wanted to buy a bunch of flowers, but you said I only bought a car to save money. You always miss me like this.
I was in a good mood that day. I always imagine you getting off the plane and flying into my arms. I even wonder if I should give you a kiss in public at the airport. Just thinking about it, I feel my heart is about to jump out of my chest. It's just, I don't know why, but I'm vaguely panicked and laughing at myself. How could I be afraid to see you?
I stared at the exit, listening to the noise of vehicles, the bustling crowd, and the joy of seeing my loved ones, which was not changed by the fading weather. Time passed by, and unconsciously, my fingertips were slightly cold. I held the Nokia 52 10 tightly in my hand. It was a new mobile phone that went on the market that year. You said you liked butterfly buttons very much, so I bought two and wanted to give you one.
When it was completely dark, the panic in my heart reached its climax, and my hands trembled unconsciously. I played the snake game on my mobile phone, but I couldn't play any more. I want to sit in the car for a while, but I'm afraid I'll miss seeing you for the first time.
At 9: 30 in the evening, the weather in May is still a little cold. I think, fortunately, I also prepared a coat for you. Holding clothes, staring at the words "domestic arrival" at the exit, eager to wear them. People next to the pick-up station began whispering in twos and threes, asking if the flight was delayed.
At that time, the network was not very developed, and we were all waiting anxiously. It was a fine day with high visibility. I won't delay the flight without reason unless something happens. When I saw the pale face of the airport staff, I knew something must have happened.
Later, as we all know, in that accident, all the passengers and crew on board were killed and none survived.
I will never see you again, and I will never know what your surprise is. I have imagined that we met countless times, but not once. You're only 23 years old, so you passed the world quietly.
2.
When I met your mother, Aunt Hong, she had cried many times. In the hospital, many people visit her every day. Leaders at all levels and journalists from all walks of life refused to say a word. All she muttered was that I had to wait for Huanhuan to come back. Huanhuan is your name. You always say that you are a cheerful deer and always break my heart.
As soon as I turned on the internet, there were all kinds of reports about the accident. I don't want to accept the fact that my uncle seems to have lost a lot of hair overnight.
In my mind, all I can think of is the little things we get along with. You are in Beijing, but you always talk about it. We went to the cherry blossom garden to see cherry blossoms, and went to the seaside to pick up shells. As a girl who grew up by the sea, you will always find those particularly beautiful shells and carefully put them away, saying that they are the best memories with me. As soon as you are free, accompany me to take the binary bus. In the first row on the second floor, we are looking forward to a bright future.
It's just that we have no future, right?
After you left, every time I went to see Aunt Hong, she would cry. Later, my uncle shut me out. He said that my daughter is gone, and it doesn't matter between us. Yes, that's all right. When you leave, I have nothing to do with them.
Once upon a time, you always said that you would seriously introduce me to your parents. You also said that your father was very picky and had only one daughter in his hand, fearing that I wouldn't get into their eyes. I'm just a stranger. I don't even have a house in this city. So, you always give me good spirits. You said that a heart that loves you is enough.
During that time, I didn't cry much. I even go to work as usual. I'm afraid time will stop. As long as I stop, my mind will be full of you.
I wanted to go to the seaside several times, but I didn't go at last because I didn't dare. I haven't driven for a long time either, because the co-pilot can never come back.
A few months have passed, the haze of the air crash seems to have dissipated, everything is going step by step, and there is little news about the accident on the Internet. Those vivid lives were fixed in that spring.
You always told me that your yard is very big, and my father always likes to grow flowers and plants, but that year, I saw that your yard was deserted.
When I went to your house, I saw Aunt Hong sitting by the window with your photo. Her eyes were sunken, as if her bones were coming out. My uncle was watching her nervously, and her hair was almost white. According to my uncle, Aunt Hong retired and her health went from bad to worse, but she just stopped crying, or her tears had already dried up.
From then on, I went to see Aunt Hong every week until my uncle got angry with me again and asked me to leave your house. I knew it was time.
I said to Aunt Hong, "Huanhuan has left, but I will be filial to you for her." Watching me kneel down and talk to her, she finally turned to look at me. I can see that in her red eyes, there was a moment of clarity, and then it faded, leaving a sentence: Huanhuan left.
I said to Aunt Hong, "Aunt Hong, please believe me, I am here every day when Huanhuan is away."
Aunt Hong brushed my face with her hand and asked me softly, "What are you doing, son?" ? Huanhuan is gone, and there is no relationship between us. My mother left when I was in college, my father married someone else, and I have no home. I hope to have a home. This is from the bottom of my heart.
My uncle froze by my side for a long time without making a sound.
I'm glad I made this decision. In the past 20 years, Aunt Hong has had several physical emergencies, all of which were accompanied by me. I think only in this way will you feel at ease in another world.
3.
With the results of the accident investigation, we built a monument for you, because you couldn't find your body or even any relics. This once made me doubt that you might not be on that plane, but you went to another parallel time and space. Maybe one day, we will meet again.
In recent years, Aunt Hong's condition is much better than before, her physique is getting stronger and stronger, and she often wears a smile on her face. Of course, she became more and more keen to introduce me to someone, and even learned to dance square dance to match me.
Once, Aunt Hong asked someone to introduce a girl, who was really like you, loved to laugh and surrounded me like a swallow.
Aunt Hong said that it's been 20 years, and you must hope I can find the other half. But every time I tell you this at the grave, I think, you must be unwilling. Every time I hold that girl, my heart is full of you and I feel unfair to that girl.
I finally declined her, and Aunt Hong was so angry that she scolded me. When can she have a big grandson? I didn't answer. Maybe in this life, I just keep you.
One year after you left, I became a regular employee of the unit. Three years later, I bought a house and lived in the same neighborhood as Aunt Hong. Now, I am the backbone of the unit, and my life is very simple.
The car I bought for you has passed the retirement age and I have never been willing to dispose of it. I just parked in the underground garage and became the co-pilot. I can't wait for you to take it once in my life.
I kept all the letters you wrote to me, and the unopened mobile phone was always in the box. It has become my unshakable habit to talk to you in the cemetery every month.
However, I never dare to fly again. I went to other places on business by train, and the leaders of the unit were considerate of me. And now the high-speed rail is so developed that the speed is really fast.
I often think that if you hadn't come back to see me that day and bought the last ticket for the May Day holiday at full price, would we still be married and have children? However, there is no such thing as life.
It is said that time can cure everything. Maybe, if I don't look at your photos, I will blur your figure in my heart. This is just a midnight dream. The girl hovering in front of my bed must be you. I think we will meet again one day. At that time, I will definitely tell you that in this life, you pass by this world and I will live for you.
This is the story of a friend of mine. Perhaps we all know that life and death are human nature, impermanence and accident, and no one can predict which will come first. As friends, we always advised him to let go of himself and learn to move on, but he always said it was his own choice and enjoyed it.
We can't judge whether other people's lives are good or bad, and whether they are worth it. 20 years, more than 7,200 days, every day and night of missing, finally let me believe that this world really has such unforgettable love. The girl has been gone for 20 years, and he took care of her parents for 20 years.
Perhaps true love really transcends time and space. Let's all cherish the people who are with us. May everyone be happy forever.