What kind of existence makes me so dependent on it? What song is it?

What kind of existence makes me so dependent? Could it be that the original lyrics are: autumn wind is waiting for the change of seasons, and I am still waiting for time to cover it up. What kind of existence makes me so dependent, but I can't replace it so easily? I always meet failed love. Could it be a song composed by Xiao Raindrop and sung by Liu Dazhuang? The song was released on September 22, 2020.