Everything is healthy, gogogo

Life will inevitably experience a lot of pain. There is no way. You should keep a good attitude towards this. You should be glad that you didn't become like your father. My general feeling is that you are still a kind and reasonable person.

People like you should be happy. Therefore, my advice to you is to do your job well and realize your dream through your own efforts. Maybe this process will take longer, but you can't give up hope. One more unpleasant word: treat yourself as an orphan and shouldn't you live a good life?

Talk to your girlfriend about your thoughts. If she really loves you, she will understand you.

I'm from Yunnan, now I'm in Beijing and my brother is in Kunming. He is almost 40 years old this year. He works hard and has two houses, one for himself and one for my parents. As long as you work hard, it is possible to be a toast in Yunnan, not to mention a house.