Two years after my teenage grandmother left, my father also had a terminal heart attack and left, which year I was 11 years old...As far as I can remember, my father didn't like me, to be exact, he didn't like me, and in addition to hitting me, he scolded me, and I never understood why, maybe it was because of my mischievous character, and I could only find a reason for myself to be able to convince myself of that. The only evidence that he loved me is to listen to my mother said that I was more than a year old when I was very sick once, when many people said it was hopeless, but he still insisted on the wind and rain carrying me around to seek medical help, this life, he gave me two lives. When my father found out about his heart disease, it was already in an advanced stage, and the result given by the doctor at that time was that the success rate of doing a heart bypass was 50%, and the cost was 130,000 dollars. At that time, the doctor gave the result that the success rate of heart bypass was 50%, and the cost was 130,000 dollars. Without it, he could only live for three years, and in the era when the medical treatment was not developed and even the heart bypass was still in the trial stage, my father chose to give up the treatment just to save more money for his son. Fate is an indescribable thing, even if he never liked me, but in his seven years of strength and pain in his side is always accompanied by me. These seven years I witnessed him from a robust middle-aged man was tortured by the disease as thin as a bone, whenever to the evening he would walk around the house up to the night, look at the child, to which cover the quilt, stood in the balcony looking out into the distance sighing until he needed to walk with a crutch in order to walk, repeated episodes of pulling to the first aid, at that time, I hoped that he could go early, although this idea is very unfilial, but at least go to heaven after he won't have to suffer anymore. After the heaven he will not have to suffer can also sleep well, no one can understand watching a person for seven years day can not eat night can not sleep what feeling, I just hope he can be released from the pain. Fate is very unfair to him, his most loving sister until he left before the last glance did not wait, with his eyes open with tears regretted to go ...... remember the night before he left, I was alone in the grandmother died in the old house to guard him, he coughed up blood from time to time, a moment to look at me, a moment to look at the wall of the old clock, the second hand dripping dripping dripping walking, as if urging something, outside the house. Seems to be urging something, outside to fly a very large gray moth, like a basin which big, how to drive away, listen to the old man said that this is the deceased relatives back to pick up the person who is about to go, I think maybe it is the grandmother came back to pick him up. His only last words were left to me, told me to help my mom and the family, and then he never spoke again. Dad left the seven days, I often have bees around me to fly, the old man said it is Dad do not want to give up, came back to see me, I think, maybe he loves me.
The ups and downs of adulthood after Dad left the family slowly changed, the mother is more and more hard to work hard, but still more and more poor, four children's burden so that she overworked and shock. Finally, in the face of the problem of the two choose one brother dropped out of junior high school, I did not graduate from junior high school also dropped out of school, and ultimately who did not get on into, and on the sister of the junior high school side of the work side of the reading for the younger brother to go to school. Then after I went to look for working classmates in Dongguan introduced work, which time 15 years old can enter the factory work. I was unlucky, classmates did not find, sleeping on the side of the road overnight last warehouse to promote a job without paying a deposit, which is a black factory opened by Hong Kong people, every day from 7:30 in the morning on the 3:30 in the morning, the whole month without rest, no overtime pay, no incentives, the meal will always be even the meat foam fishy can not be found, there is no any protective measures for the skin in direct contact with the paint every day by the smell of choking dizziness, the painstakingly dried up! Two months really can't bear to quit, because of dissatisfaction with the three-month deduction of a month's salary, to the hand issued 800 yuan, then special excitement, immediately went to the street to the family bought a set of clothes, because in a few days is the Mid-Autumn Festival and bought two boxes of moon cakes together with the mail back, and finally took the remaining 200 yuan stayed for a few days of the ten-dollar hotels, and then found an electronics factory to go to work. This electronic factory is opened in Chaozhou, the boss is very good, whether it is accommodation or food are good, overtime pay overtime, a month off two days, compared to the previous black factory is simply a heaven and a hell. Good situation is not long, in this work less than two months, before contact with the paint skin began to rash the whole family ulcers, many people thought I had syphilis and dare not approach me, the injection did not see a good, my sister and sent me two money for me to see, a 200, a 300. which time there is no bank, only the post office, I have to take the bus two hours each time to the post office to queue up to receive money, but unfortunately not cured, and finally! I was dismissed from the factory, and I was given an extra 200 dollars, which still warms my heart when I think of it. Home mom took me to find a very famous local village doctor to cure the disease, and then send me to learn computer, then learn computer will type to find a good clerk job, learn half a month to meet some of the urban girls do not love to learn, and sisters with heart and soul, they borrowed my beautiful clothes to help me make up to take me in and out of the discotheque, said that I can take me to make a lot of money. Every help to take something to others she gave me 50 dollars, this temptation is really big, the money comes too easy, and I just want to earn money, until the end I realized that this is ecstasy, how horrible, I almost became a drug dealer! In order to get away from these so-called sisters, I didn't even dare to go to school. Later, my aunt sent me to her a friend's furniture store in Guangzhou to learn to sell furniture, living in the basement, squeezing an hour every day to go to work on the bus, sometimes there is no money to eat and embarrassed to open the enclosure to borrow, often starving, one day, a penpal in Guangzhou has also been in contact with junior high school penpal to find me to play with me that he was a driver in a plant to let me go to his factory to work as a clerk a month of 1,800, I've always thought of him as a brother. Brother's, know also a few years, out of trust plus the world was deep at that time with him to go, the results into the pyramid scheme nest! At first, he said the factory renovation, we temporarily live outside, men and women crowded with bunks, every day to eat rice and pickles, but also took me around the classroom training, every day to listen to a bunch of people with a snotty and tearful emotionally said how much money earned after the success of the family to change the fate of the time I didn't know what it means to be a pyramid scheme, listening to the investment of a few thousand dollars can be a change of fate for the family can help others to change their destiny on the heartbeat, and then they Let me call home, lying to my family to buy a computer to two thousand dollars, my brother heard that I was cheated, let me think of ways to escape, but twenty-four hours are followed by me, penniless, I have no way to escape, my brother the next day immediately found a few friends to take eight hours of the car car to Guangzhou to find me, coincidentally, he came to Guangzhou in the car just to see the MLM people pulling me around the stamping point, my brother directly rushed to the car and pulled me down to make me feel better. Get out of the car a tugging at me to let me go back with him, but my ID card was seized by the marketing people are not willing to hand over, my brother directly expose them also said to the police before they are willing to take me back to get my ID card back to me.
? After returning home, my aunt took me to Zhanjiang, she will take over the furniture store to work, it seems that everything is settled, I am still in their eyes a good and diligent girl, smart and hard work, every day to work, from work back to my uncle's house to help do housework and then go to help my aunt's new house to do health.
Meet love meet him is in the network, the year into the Internet cafe people in the eyes of others are bad children, basically not a few people have a computer at home, which time there is no camera, the rich people's cell phones are black and white straight version of the ordinary people with a BB machine, the most popular QQ, voice chat rooms, shoot the big head stickers.
I have learned the computer, but not typing, do not understand the Internet, the best hair little old pull me to the Internet cafe with her on the Internet, open the music to me to listen to her next to chat QQ.
Time is long, I also learned to QQ, which is still a cousin to me, called 100 degrees boy, I directly change to 100 degrees girl, and he is the first to add my people. The request passed directly sent a message, you can be my wife? The first thing I did was to ask for a favor, and I was able to get it back, and I was able to get it back.
The year I 17, he 18, his first year of high school, I was in Guangdong, he was in Hebei, online dating was not common, because very few people on the Internet, online dating is even less, and this is in the eyes of the people is a nightmare. Next we meet every day on the overnight, about a year or so, in his sophomore year of high school when he dropped out to go to Tangshan to work in an iron ore mine, so I saved up every day to save up the breakfast money early in the phone store door waiting for the door to open to buy a telephone magnetic card to call him, save up the wages to buy a second-hand flip phone to facilitate the night shift in his chat with him overnight, because he was in the transfer of extensions, so five minutes to break a time, but we are still happy to dial! The first time I saw this, I was in the middle of the night with a cell phone, and then I saw a cell phone, and then I saw a cell phone, and then I saw a cell phone, and then I saw a cell phone.
In April 2004, I took an eight-hour bus ride from Maoming to Guangzhou Railway Station, waited all night to buy a ticket to Beijing, took a 24-hour train ride to Beijing West and took a few hours of bus to Tangshan, and then gave him a phone call to say that I came to see him, and he didn't believe that I thought I was joking. It was late at night when I took a two-hour cab ride to the entrance of a very remote iron ore mine, starving, with a big backpack and only 64 yuan left! The first time out to pick me up his coworkers, he was working in another door farther away, a lot of people tease me that they are Yang Yongbin, he has been hiding in the corner smiling not to say anything, I ran directly to his front to let him say something, he opened his mouth and said: say what? I laughed out, the voice I am most familiar with, then excited heart to jump out, separated by thousands of miles, day and night thinking of people right now in front of me, how marvelous, and finally know what he looks like.
? My arrival to the lonely iron mine exploded, his uncle hurried to talk to him, said it is not reliable, take a thousand dollars to let me hurry back, but he was very determined to say I stay he stayed, I go he went. Which moment I am very sure that between us is love, with each other what looks like has nothing to do! (Because I was long just general, but also a little black), later, the iron ore mine on a man in Henan molested me, he and the department of all the guys with Henan gang fight, but also cut people, 110/120 came, they were taken away for the whole night, and then his uncle took hundreds of thousands of compensation to settle the matter, and then his entire department was all fired, so he took me back to his home in Handan. I met him, I feel like I spent a lifetime of good luck, and the hurt I experienced before is not worth mentioning.
? In his home days like walking into paradise, which is a particularly pure and simple village, his parents treat me better than the pro-life, for fear that I'm not used to eating to me another stove, what I want to eat his father stepped on half a meter of thick snow to go to the town of more than a dozen miles to buy back for me, the family has a good meal is always given to me to eat first, eat the rest of the them to eat, his mother love to take me to catch up with me to buy me a wide variety of things every week, to give me money to take me to the next day, to give me the money to take me to the next day, I will not be able to take the money to buy me to buy me to buy me a variety of things, every week. Give me money for him to take me down to the restaurant; he took me to catch ancient nymphs, pick lotus, pick corn, every day driving a motorcycle to take me around the tour, half a year later, I backed my family secretly married him, before the wedding, the fire burned the bed, the wedding photos were photographer accidentally and inexplicably all exposed, a did not stay, perhaps all this is destiny, leading to the breakup of us can even reminisce about things are not.
? After marriage we have been also quite happy, but has not been pregnant with a baby, the nightmare of infertility shattered the beauty of all this!!!! A chance quarrel, I returned to Guangdong, because I have not been pregnant to do the examination, can find out a lot of reasons for infertility, can not find out there, in the face of the results of this I realize what is called a thunderbolt from the sky, although he does not mind, his family will not mind, but my life is how much I would like to give him a child ah to give me a cure, then he which is not a rich family will be dragged down by me, I do not dare to think of! Because help me and let his family smash pots and pans of the tragic situation, not cure, in which time to get married no hours will be giorgio drowned, light behind the finger pointing I can not withstand, and my father is a heart attack gone, I also often heart tattoo pain, the heart rate has been uneven, I'm more afraid that I suddenly sick like my father, which I love him the rest of his life how to do! I panicked, I couldn't think of anything to do, all I knew was that we wouldn't be able to have a baby in this lifetime, and all I could think of was to leave him! Leave him! Leave him! Let him die, hate me in order to let him fall in love with someone else later with others happy, so I thought I was clever to plan a cheating plot, so that he and his family heartbroken and then heartlessly left (commented on 100 I update this relationship after thirteen years of follow-up) marriage to leave the first love a few years later, in fact, but also met a two love me very much, but one because of my infertility and chose to go behind my back to get married to a pregnant ex-girlfriend, at the time I learned that I decided to break up. I learned that I was determined to break up, the other play powerful dance group to know the small my four years of age boy for my thousands of years of hard work when the army transferred to my my city, because I refused to be ruthless and revenge I slept with my god-sister and became my sister's ex-boyfriend. 2014, is the first nine years I left my first love, introduced by a friend of mine and a boy who just came out of prison in the second face of the meeting to register, there is no love, but only that he needs a wife! I needed a marriage and bonded. Experienced so much, love I am not likely to heart to anyone again, I also no longer believe who can love me for life, I just want to find a can respect me, to my good people to build a family with each other, together for the family to go to add bricks and mortar, and abide by each other to old age, so I do not need him to love me. Before the wedding, my family still did not escape the clutches of the marketing, my sister was her classmates cheated all the savings for more than 10 years, with my brother's counted more than 100,000 yuan! But for my wedding mom took out her last 10,000 savings for me to do the banquet, brother and sister-in-law swiped the credit card to me to add dowry, sister sent me a washing machine, the man just gave 8888 dowry, my family back to more than 30,000 more than 70,000 worth of dowry, because all the furniture is my sister-in-law use the authority of the factory price, I know my family is afraid that I married into the people to be despised so desperate to make me look married to a bit of scenery. I'm not sure if you're a good person, but I'm a good person. The man's home is a village, is a detached building, the family environment at that time can be, spent forty-five thousand to decorate, the wedding received a gift of one did not give me, in-laws also asked me to my family to give me all of the gift of money to hand over, I did not agree to, only gave half. A week before the wedding also accidentally mistakenly take his fish salt to make soup as a result of one of my poisoning, I still remember them in order to send wedding invitations and sent me to the hospital threw down three hundred dollars left a even life-saving money did not say words on the way out. Doctors are giving me a checkup while cursing, the bride is dying to marry with ghosts? I heart bitter smile, renovation when I work twenty-four hours off twenty-four hours, rest time every day to twenty workers cooking, marriage you in order to pay insurance and not buy three gold to me and your son bargained with your son to give five thousand dollars to buy a ring, his ring cost four thousand eight hundred, my twelve thousand, your son to see me poor advance a month's salary for me to buy a necklace of more than two thousand, the wedding photo is our money, the gift car is also, all kinds of expenses, the wedding photo is our money, and the wedding photo is our money. The wedding photo is our money, the gift car is also, all sorts of expenses have spent a hair left, now blame me for not saving money, if not because I do not want my mother to be pointed out by the village people, this marriage I absolutely is not closed. A few days after the wedding took the money to do tubal surgery, but still impossible to conceive, and then they let me swallow a variety of prescriptions to the stomach, two years without a day without medication, has not been conceived attitude of 180 degrees cold, and then let me drag the sickly body to find a job, my mother-in-law also gave me to find a pot of work, and finally will not drink and will not wear high-heeled shoes I went to the KTV to do waitresses, and every day to work hard on how to earn tips, and then handed over to the idle at home husband, and I will not be able to get a job. Tips, and then handed over to idle at home husband to buy food, their own body even twenty-five make-up money are not every day by the supervisor criticized and warned. In the end, this job only worked for less than two months, because my sister which time checkup was suspected of cervical cancer and resigned to accompany her to run around. Finally came back to another place to do temporary work to sell mooncakes, live in a friend which, every day at work to eat fast food stomach cramps, my friend spent more than two thousand for me to play a week of injections are useless, stomach pain during the day to go to work, one to twelve o'clock at night on the pain can not stand up straight, the hair to the underwear can be lifted out of giorgio, two times giorgio are next door to the bed to help call the nurse for a change, a week thinned more than ten pounds, my brother sister can not stand to see from the Zhanjiang drive up to take me back to my mother's home, since then I have been living in my mother's house.
Career back to his mother's home for a month to regulate the stomach is good, people are also slowly fat some, so in the neighborhood to find a job in the milk tea, ten hours a day, 1600 a month, two days off, the work is not hard, but also quite good, anyway, it is the side of the body. Then the circle of friends began to send products, I remember in August 2013, when there is no micro-merchants this name, I want to earn a little extra money so help send the circle, and then there are people to take, each single earn thirty, the first month actually earned 900! Store owner to see me every day in the store shipments on the opinion, let me choose to continue to work for a period of time to open a branch in the past when the store manager or be dismissed, I found that this is a good business opportunity, so decided to resign, and finally he set me a hand and foot unclean trumped-up charges dismissed me, when the next door to the store owner out of 3,000 a month to let me go to work in her store was my refusal, I borrowed 1,500 with the money I earned to get a skin care products. Money to get a skin care agent, which is still popping up flooded the streets, I resolutely transition to do brand. Full-time at home my family is not optimistic, the first month only received a single business, anxious me fidgety, then I was ruthless to the hands of the product into a trial package to free delivery, free of charge thing more than people grab, a hair no, and then began to buy back, retail, referrals, agents, a few months I have developed to more than 100 agents on the team to become the first batch of monthly income of more than 10,000 micro-entrepreneurs. Later, I specifically go back to which milk tea store to ask the former boss to dinner, with the action to shake his face, the results of his cheeky let me take his wife to do micro-merchants! People shameless when really can to the extreme ah, from my departure after the store business began to fail, and now has been closed.
Micro business to do the second half of the second year when the bottleneck, can be said to be black in July, suddenly the entire micro business community collectively sell goods, with the then overwhelming questioning the destruction of the capital disk which time has sprung, in order to the bottom of the agent's income under the impulse of the team of more than 400 people I brought the collective transformation of the capital disk, invested in a few pots of the results of the collapse of the pot, I earned hundreds of thousands of micro-merchants giorgio, owed 40,000! External debt, team disintegration! At that time really hard to throw themselves a few palms, regret to the intestines are green, disheartened and muddle through three months, a hand up the big agents also went, after all, people have to earn money to eat, I will not blame them. Then I cleaned up the mood to do platform, two months to develop to 267 people to accumulate contacts, and then retired to the second line to start doing micro business, from the small team to do agents to the highest level, and then change the big team to go directly to take the high-level, from a single single retail to wholesale to the development of the team, and now I'm full of energy! Think about it from the beginning now have been doing full-time for four years, from a rely on hair to have their own team, fell and climbed up, and now running all over China, all the way really bloody!
Two months ago I finally ended the five-year marriage in name only, I will not hate my ex-husband's many betrayals, and I will not hate the harshness of the in-laws, and even in-laws lost two hundred and thirty thousand gambling debts borrowed loansharks willing to help pay off the debt, these years, I have been humiliated from a simple ignorance to the sophistication of an independent woman, I have learned to change themselves, positive and optimistic, and learn to dress up well and take care of it, and to practise! I have learned to change myself, be positive and optimistic, learn to dress well and take good care of myself, practice my ability to earn money, do my best to be good to my family, I have proved my worth, I am finally responsible for myself, and I am trying to fulfill my dad's last words!
In the second half of my life, I want to make myself better, meet a better version of myself, change more like once which I, always believe that fate closed a door, will give me to open a window!