Finally, I was finally able to pen a sentence, organizing my arms of grief, writing this texture for my father as a salt of the anniversary of the sacrifice, is still unable to restrain the tears weeping, the past is clear as yesterday, the appearance of the voice is still in front of us, but it is so painful for me to my heart and lungs!
More than four years ago in the morning, without any signs, but also without a little psychological preparation, uncle called, tone of voice, told me to let me hurry to take the child back to their hometown, and urgently asked the reason, said his father accidentally fell from a high place resulting in a cerebral hemorrhage, is in the hospital resuscitation. A hear rescue, and then think of the tone of the phone uncle, I have been all weak, heart over and over again praying for God to keep my old father, praying for my father to wait for me. But in fact, uncle called me when my father has been forever long sleep, the reason why that is worried about my acceptance of the expediency of a time. I still know the truth before the trip, the moment I as if the head encountered a stick, the boom did not know what to do, and so I was awake again, I only cry for heaven and earth, my heart aches ah, I want to grab all the things that hurt, as if that is the father's soul of the fading away, the heart of the time only one idea, the father can not be so give up us and go. When I rushed home all the way to dust, see the home door is posted on the black letter of the white paper couplets, the brain instantly blank, straight to feel my heart a petal broken open, this is how incredible the fact that ah, half a month ago, the Fourth of July holiday is also spent with my father, the father before the trip to send me as if it were yesterday, at this time, we have been separated, I was paralyzed in front of the door, and no longer can not take a step, flow of tears! Tears all the way out again, I called my father one after another, how many times to go home, my father is far away to pick me up ah, but, my heart-breaking call did not respond, I can no longer hear my father's answer, and no longer see my father every time to meet my smiling face, in despair, I was a lot of people to help to the home of the three joss sticks, kowtow to three heads, raised his head when the tears fell like rain, through the case of the stove of the green smoke, I Saw my father, or that familiar face, full of grooves in the record of his life's pay and harvest, sparse white hair told me all his hard work and labor, my father quietly lying, eyes closed, like sleeping, but also like waiting for, seemingly peaceful, but also sad, yes, how could a father who left suddenly without any attachments? The whole day around the knees of the young grandson was three years old, is just cute and naughty time, he was full of yard play, told everyone that grandpa fell asleep, the father must be difficult to give up that intergenerational pro-family fun, the second uncle passed away six years ago, leaving young cousins have not yet started a family, as the uncle's father shouldered the responsibility to worry about the heart, how can he feel at ease to leave, and the mother, there are still children, which is not a heart and hung up on the heart? However, the father is still gone, gone in such a hurry, gone he did not expect! If there is a road to the Yellow Springs, the father how to open that difficult to leave the footsteps, if there is a platform to look at the countryside, the father and how to step a look back?
I began to watch the night for my father, kneeling beside him night after night, looking at him all night long, recalling what my father had told me about his life, imagining my father's journey, and I told him that I was full of words, even though my father couldn't hear them any more, and that I only hoped that the few days with my father would pass slower and slower, and that I would be able to see my father for only a few days. In those days, my feelings were always wandering between doubt and sobriety, sometimes I felt that my father was with me, and my home was still as warm as before, and sometimes I told myself that my father was really gone, and that I would never see him again in this world. Until I watched my father's coffin was buried by a shovel of yellow soil, until my face is a pile of new new yellow soil, I believe, my heart once again torn open, empty without support, I wooden kneeling, a kind of never-before-seen cold from the soles of my feet, wrapped me, I want to cry but can not shed a tear, my heart has been hurt to the extent that I have lost consciousness!
My father's sudden death, leaving me often wake up in the middle of the night, I always dream of my father in the middle of the night, but also to determine whether my father has really passed away, always dreaming that my father is alive in the old home or back from the dead, the surprise to see my father again, often in a daze, I can not distinguish between dream and reality. I can't help but think of my father, think of the past, the shadows of my father are everywhere in the house, and every trace of him is touching and evocative! Everyone in the family, look at each other without words, but the heart is in the same, this kind of loss of loved ones, blood and blood pain, can only be borne alone, alone to resolve. Often guide yourself, but life's most natural law of old age, illness and death, who can not change, as the old family relatives advised me the same: you just think about some of it, even if your father live a eighty or ninety years old, or even a hundred years old you still can not let go! It's best for your father to go like this, without suffering a bit! But how can I let go, when the ladder linking life suddenly breaks, how can my heart bear such pain? How many times I went back to the home where I was born and raised, everything is still the same, but things are not the same, there is no father's home through a kind of desolate mutilation, and even, even at one time I was afraid to go home for fear of that sadness, for fear that my sadness touches all of my loved ones. How many years, is the father with his wisdom and perseverance to support our family, is the father to give us the warmth and strength, each of us, in fact, have long been accustomed to the life of a father's opinion, but he went, went in such a hurry, and even too late to leave a word, let his children to see his last look! Those days, even think as if not dare, has been so painful, night and day tears, in this world, who else can hold up a side of the sky for me without rain? Once, how peacefully I enjoyed the care from my parents, and so have their own home, and so do their own mother, day by day, only to know that this love needs to pay how much effort and energy, only to y appreciate my parents to raise my pain and hardship, yes, raising children know parents grace, in that era, that hard and poor family circumstances, as the head of the family's father, the weight of the shoulders can be imagined, and the young me and the weak and vulnerable. The young me and weak and sick, I must have cost my parents a lot of effort, it is not easy to raise, let alone my parents gave me today's life! Remember what my father used to say before he was born: parents' hearts on the children, children's hearts on the stone, since childhood, I have always relied so much on my father's selfless care, as a daughter, how much I did for my father, and this is what I can't face up to and hard to let go of the real and true pain. Once, I also had a dream, had a plan, there are many can be counted as filial wishes, but always because of many trivial this or that reason did not materialize, I finally I did not do my filial piety, and my father can no longer wait for me to do my filial piety, life is always such a lack of, the trees want to be quiet but the wind does not stop, the child wants to raise and not wait for his parents, regrets and self-reproach often make my heart suffered a lot of torment. I think I'm still hypocritical, not into the reality of filial piety, how can be considered filial piety, and how can I say filial piety to my father's spirit in heaven? Compared to my father's love for me like mountains and sea water, what I have done is not even a little bit!
I should have given my father the old age, so that he is also like me around the leisurely walk or the spirit of the old man who danced in the square as a happy and comfortable old age, and how I hope to be able to assist him, strolling in the river willow bank, that is how happy and warm, think about it all let a person touched, but this is all certainly unrealistic extravagance, I've been lost to my father forever and ever! How many times, in the dream of my father, my heart is still so warm, as in the old days, there is a father's love and care, but, every time, always unable to talk to him, I can not even hear his voice, can not clearly see his face, maybe it is the reason for the separation of the two, we are two worlds after all! I heard a friend say, if you dream of the deceased and come back to life, it is the deceased has been reincarnated, then, my father must now be a lively and lovely child. This is good, we can at least breathe in the same world. I remember, before covering the coffin for my father, and my father to do the last goodbye, my brother and I put our beloved things in his body, I hope that my father in the ground will not feel lonely, tucked in my father's clothes, looking at his face seems to be asleep I said: father, the next life to reincarnate in a good family, don't be as hard as in this life! I hope that my dear father is now enjoying a warm and rich family love, healthy and happy growth, but I still sad, my heart is still very painful, a trace of pain to the depths, how much I hope that this love, can be given by me, not for anything else, just for my life owes my father's great kindness!
Father's fourth anniversary of the day of sacrifice, the family went to pay tribute, so I want to call a father again, this incomparable warmth of the name, there has been a long time from my mouth, this only name, has been buried with his father, in addition to miss, from now on with me forever! I think, if there is a heaven, my father must be gazing at me from a high place, if we can get together, his old man must not be alone, the deceased relatives will be together, I do not know how far away heaven is, I can not imagine the distance between. Is heaven far away? As if it is not far away, across the pile of yellow earth, where my father is sleeping; heaven is close, it seems not close, through countless thoughts, we have never seen the possibility of meeting. Nevertheless, I am still superstitious and would rather believe that a greeting and a blessing can reach heaven and fall into my father's heart. There are always some things are eternal, such as our flesh and blood connected to the family, there are always some things are endless, such as my father's longing, I believe that the soul of the distance, in fact, only a stone's throw away, in my life's bag, loaded with my father to give me a high heaven and thick earth like the grace of nurturing! Memories of the past days, the taste of the father's hard work, those who flowed like water flowed through the years, the wheel like driving through the light of day, and do not pull my thoughts of the warp and woof, if the past are melted into droplets, they must have converged into a salty tidal wave in the sea of my heart gushing endlessly!
1 Why is it that harm can be done so far away, and comfort, but must be at the side of the body to do it?
2 I did not cry ah, just suddenly learned to miss it.
3 Dreams of this thing, is used to break it.
4 The fate of such a thing, and how can it be like a certain set of goals? As long as you work hard, you're sure to get it?
5 Those sentences that can start with "I hope you ......". I hope you don't get lost. I hope you learn the method of determining the coefficient of variation. I hope you make good friends. I hope you don't get bullied again. I hope you are happy. I hope you are strong even when you are alone.
6 I like you. Not because I chose you, but because you chose me.
7 - We probably can never be irreplaceable for each other like we used to be.
-- We probably can never love as hard as we used to, until we both cry.
8 Maybe the good and ordinary Cinderella is not good, she is just ordinary; maybe the proud and vicious little princess is not vicious, she is just proud.
9 At that time, the phone can still get through? The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on a new one. I remember all of this. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new one, and you'll be able to do that.
10 Never mention the past again. The first thing you need to do is to get rid of all the stuff that you've been doing. It's not something you can take with you.
11 This end of the sky is the end of the world, and the other end of the sea is the cape. Even if you hate me, I just want to be "different" for you.
13 Youth can be wasted ...... But people can not ...... Some people once missed ...... It's a lifelong affair ......
14 I'm just afraid, afraid of my so many so many feelings ...... You don't care.
15 Years of clattering and twisting, but who ever appeared in whose memory these only know themselves.
16 Sometimes we fall in love not with him, but with memories.
17 As if everything has an expiration date, love or friendship, and much, much more!
18 Can't afford too much cruelty, but also can't afford too much love.
19 If - if the memory of you in the mind, with a point to represent words.
Then I could probably write an ellipsis long enough to stretch to the end of the universe.
...... But I missed the period.
20 Your heart, where do I live?
21 In fact, by liking someone, you give them the power to hurt you.
22 Not everyone has the opportunity to stand again at the crossroads of the beginning.
23 It's not that I don't love, but I don't know how else to love.
24 It turns out that as long as the people are separated, no matter how familiar the original, will slowly become distant.
25 I thought I was the only one, so you have always been by my side.
26 Those who used to say never to part, have been scattered in the end of the world.
27 For the world, you are a person; for someone, you are the whole world.
28 When reserve meets reserve, when waiting meets waiting, what is at work is whether it is self-esteem or inferiority complex.
29 Because of love, so low.
30 Naive vow, always be stranded one day.
31 The habit of this thing is terrible, especially when you have to face the change.
32 There will come a day when your hand will hold the hand of another person. And it will no longer be you standing by my side.
33 For your happiness, I can give up everything. Including you.
34 Accompany the king drunkenly laughing at thirty thousand scenes, not to tell the sadness of separation.
35 Some people say that the carousel is the most cruel game, chasing each other but there is an eternal distance ......
36 Thinking about and commemorating, will not be longer than my life.
37 I always think, what can I really do for you? Be good to you again, be good to you again, be good to you again ......
38 My grief is so far away, I can't comfort her.
39 Whoever, I miss you. Whoever whoever, I love you. Whoever, whoever, I want to be with you forever.
40 Even if the separation is far away, but overhead, will still be the same starry sky.
40 Even if the separation is far away, there will still be the same starry sky above your head.
41 is not willing, not willing to you on her like. Not willing to be ignored like this. That's why it's such a sad mood. Unwillingly, again and again to be sure.
42 Would love to chat and laugh with you, but sorry. I want to watch Isabella butterfly with you, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry, but I don't know if I'm going to be able to do that. I want to continue to like you, but I'm sorry. I want to be able to live a strong life. But I'm sorry ......
43 Fortunately, love is not everything, fortunately everything is not love.
44 Why can't we be good. Why can't we be pleasant. Why can't we be happy. So that I can leave you the so-called "memory" of the limited time, all good and warm. Because we have nothing to do with words like "eternity". Because we can't be emboldened. Because I and you, like all the people in the world, meet and leave each other, in each other's life is so small moment. So that we in the future without each other in the infinite time, warm memories are always forgotten very quickly, in order to that time, only with the present hurt and deep to remember it. I don't feel so sorry when I think of it this way.
45 Once I had, but inadvertently, I missed.
46 Those days. Those days with the playful sunshine and your bright smile, those days you see through and love, those days firmly believe that we will always be together, it turns out that I have been away from them for a long, long time.
47 Read. Forgotten. Be loved. Being hated. Adored. Being talked about. And then slowly forgotten ......
48 I turned the whole world upside down. I'm not going to be able to do that, but I'm going to be able to do it, and I'm going to have to do it.
49 In addition to sadness, what else do you have left. I'm not going to be able to do that, but I'm going to be able to do it.
50 - Fortunately, you can forget me. I'm glad you've forgotten about me, because the sadness of being in love but separated by a world of distance is something I can bear alone.
51 If this is what you like and choose, then my love, I wish you happiness.
52 Those carved in the chair after the love, will not be like the flowers on the cement, blooming no wind, lonely forest.
53 What we thought we would never forget is forgotten in the process of our forgetting.
54 If there is a day we are not together, but also like together.
55 Immature people in order to die for a great cause, mature people in order to live for a great cause and lowly.
56 I again how, you have to take me as a person is not?
57 I'm sorry I can't smile at you; I'm sorry I can't talk to you; it's a flower room full of cactus; I've been standing for a long time with a balloon called happiness.
58 The short summer was sad. The sad swing is forgotten by childhood. The forgotten key opens the wrong ancient door. The ancient door in the witch kissed the prince after she became a princess herself, the prince became a frog, the princess threw the frog into the well. In the well the sky is the same face year after year. The same face looking up season after season, an infinite cycle, short summer.
59 Because you are wood ah, so called you out to watch me play. I'm sure you won't be annoyed, right? You won't be angry, right? Because you're wooden, I'm telling you this. You won't tell anyone, will you? Yes, I'm a log. I won't get upset, I won't get angry, and I won't tell anyone. But I will be sad.
60 If all the "narrow road" in the world is to "meet" set.
61 Stubborn enough to not even say "yes", but very gentle to remind themselves that he is listening. He was listening, but he never took it to heart.
62 Birds of prey waiting for the moment to break through the clouds, even if the blazing sun will melt the wings, but also to insist on meeting with the light.
63 The sun goes down, the stars come up. In the abandoned railroad tracks wandering me, tightly pinch the expired a year of letters, quietly ask the sky clouds, the sentence, written at the end of: I like you.
64 I just want to cross the sky with you, like crossing the forever.
65 The tenderness in the infinite long time. A long time in infinite tenderness.
66 Outside countless birds rise up in the air, fluttering wings, scattered feathers, that is whose memory.
1, the loss of youth is not terrible, the terrible thing is to lose the courage to love life heart.
2, in love, emotionally, when you want to conquer each other, in fact, has been conquered to a certain extent by the other side. First of all, the other person's attraction to you, and then your desire to conquer each other.
3, the song formed by the space, let the years come and go freely, so still protected by the person's face does not change and a huge and did not fall hate
4, there will always be a day I will walk away from you silently, without any sound. I missed a lot, I'm always a person sad
5, the right time to meet the right person, is a lifetime of happiness; the right time to meet the wrong person, is a heartbreak; the wrong time to meet the right person, is a paragraph of absurdity; the wrong time to meet the wrong person is a sigh of relief.
6, life is inevitably encountered a variety of pain, born a lot of trouble, but we can not always cling to the trouble. If you keep staring at a few black spots on the white wall, the darkness will occupy all your sight. Similarly, if you always cling to certain pieces of your life, you will lose your complete life. Everything that has happened in life has a cause and effect, so believe in cause and effect, let yourself go, and do not torment yourself, which is also a kind of release.
7, fall in love with someone not because they give you what you need, but because they give you a feeling you have never had before ......
8, life is incomplete without experiencing love, and love is not profound without experiencing pain. Love makes life rich, and pain makes love sublimated.
9, when I tried my best to fight, to get back, and your head is not back; now you are reminiscing constantly, pessimism and negativity, do nothing, is doing complementary rituals? After the humility of the rest is the once ridiculous to the extreme and no regrets. Love is not waiting for you to be free to cherish!
10, silence does not simply mean that a flavor of not talking, can not be sedentary people are prone to failure, timely silence is a kind of wisdom, a skill, a kind of advantage in the grasp of the mind.
11, the world is not so much a long time, how many people can keep their promises? The first time I saw the movie, I was so happy to see you, and I was so happy to see you. This two thousand and twenty-three kilometers of persistence, in exchange for the loss and eternity. On this journey, the result is no longer important. The first thing I want to do is to get out of the car and get out of the car, and I want to get out of the car.
12, when I stubbornly backpack alone to start my brand new journey, I know, as long as only a few friends standing behind me staring. Their eyes are as pale and far-reaching as the setting sun, making me feel heavy.
13, I always thought that the mountain is the story of the water, the cloud is the story of the wind, you are my story, but do not know, I am not your story.
14, the years do not take away the memory, will only make me miss more. Time does not dilute everything, only in my heart rooted and sprouted, opened up the flower of thoughts.
15, if you do not believe in effort and time, then the first time will fail you. Don't deny your past, and don't use your past to involve your future. It's not because there is hope that you have to work hard, but you have to work hard to see hope. Mood phrases
16, she told me that her father wants her to go abroad, suddenly to let me feel is dreaming, how do I do
17, young, everyone should let go a little bit, indulge themselves, and occasionally even whisk away . Because again good and obedient, people still have to be old, once lived, to the lowest limit also stay a memory, can faintly smile, ambiguous, His Excellency really missed the bloom of the time.
18, to this world, many times for the body flavor, rather than enjoy. Only after experiencing the pain of the wound, it is possible to feel the happiness of the finished skin.
19, through the broken and restored simplicity is true. The past has been left in the world of the past, I went on the road alone, and gradually came to the present position. There is no desire for love, purified unlike the human world, but it is true. You have to believe that the love I look forward to accomplishing with you is not to push you into the abyss, don't see you bruised. I want you to be strong, stronger than you were before you knew me. Love is spirituality.
20, the rooster crows on the pillow, the night air square back, because I think the rest of life flat, prosperous and beautiful, all empty, fifty years, totaled a dream.
21, the original do not say forever, forever is very far away. Don't say how long, how long can't hold up the sky. Love one day, counting one day, go one day is one day, keep the promise, can not keep the fickle heart.
22, quietly watching you go, quiet thinking about you, quiet breathing.
23, when love is absent, learn to live their own lives. To live your own life is to fall in love with yourself, treat yourself as your lover, and spoil yourself.
24, away from your world, I think I will always be alone
25, we can not always live in their own imagination, can not fantastically envision that if they go to do a certain thing must be better than others. It is more important to transform the idea into action, step by step to approach the goal. Say mood phrases
26, nostalgia is the most impotent thing in life. Looking at the heart full of sores, you think you are old, in fact, that is you empty.
27, we always like to keep guessing each other's moods, keep guessing each other's ideas, and then began to panic, began to suffer, began to blame themselves where not good enough, experience tells you too much care is the beginning of the loss.
28, in Curcuma heart only a small corner but is in the deepest corner.
29, I do not know how many people in the world, obviously love each other but can not be together, but I know that if you have not made any efforts, just imagine the difficulties that will be encountered, will be bewildered, then, the feelings must not be sincere.
30, perhaps because the tears are too true, so some heart trembling.
Nowhere to put, our distant youthWoman . If a man says to you " break up ". You have to smile and say " wait for you this sentence for a long time っ
Mom, one of the most beautiful women in the world つ
The woman's heart can not see through, because the chest meat is too thick つ
Deceit is my unforgivable error ≈
Do not say that I am high and mighty, I just refused to deal with the beasts つ
Let me in the silence of the quiet
゛现实不丰满, 梦境也骨感
你说的天长到底又多长，地久到底又多久？
I'm sorry, the number you have dialed has caller ID enabled.
It is said that a woman's lack of talent is a virtue.
Please don't use your kissing mouth to say you love me
They go with the flow, I'm a maverick.
O people who once loved me, do you remember me. I am the one who is with you now, and everything is better than me.
I have been doing things that I regret
A woman like me is always in the form of a conundrum in the relationship.
With a mood as irritable as that , I've lost trust in you
It's not that I'm not sad, it's just that my disguised strength has blinded your eyes.
If there is a next life, I must be your heart. Because if I don't jump, you have to die.
Your plan is perfect, only the protagonist has not yet been shortlisted
Some people, with the process of becoming someone else's object. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty.
The first time I saw this, I was in the middle of the night, and I was in the middle of the night, and I was in the middle of the night, and I was in the middle of the night. I regret now, should be in the community is not good to find objects. Loyal elders advice.
I'm not a obedient child always feel that obedient children are too much like puppets on strings, indecisive and without initiative
Now I thought I forgot you, I will forget all the memories
It's as if I have never appeared in your world.
Now the Curcuma has to learn to look away, think far away
There is only one you in the whole world, how can I not cherish 〃
Nowhere to put, our distant youth
Dreams, is full of meat, flesh; the reality is that the bone, thin thin.
The smile lies in whether or not you will take off the mask of disguise
Dreams are always far away, is it time to give up
Sometimes, we change the signature so often, just want to let others know your mood, but we forget, perhaps others did not pay attention to it
How many children have been harmed by the exams, so that how many honest children have learned to cheatっって。
The class teacher, what is it, is a psychopath who destroys your friendship and then destroys your love and doesn't spare your affection っ
If you hate me, I don't mind at all, I'm not alive to please you っ
The man's commitment is to be more than the water °
Saying that erythraxis is not scolding tteteteteteteteti, but describing teteteteteteteteteteteteteteteteteti. Although I have no books, no notes, no classes, no review, but I have a heart that does not want to fail っ