Please ask how to eliminate the demonic obstacles in the heart, I'm now depression is plagued by the disease, recently read some Buddhist books, although some better but always feel that it is not com

Please ask how to eliminate the demonic obstacles in the heart, I'm now depression is plagued by the disease, recently read some Buddhist books, although some better but always feel that it is not complete, thank you! I am 30 years old. I used to be a very depressed person, and extremely afraid to socialize with people, see people will not speak, and do not dare to look at other people's eyes (which in psychology may be called "social phobia"). This makes me in secondary school, college during almost no friends, often alone; graduated from work, there are no friends in the company, many employees like company dinners, travel, for me, but it is a kind of torment, a kind of thing that I avoided. Also because I can't communicate with people, I often feel very hard and depressed at work, and have a feeling of hitting the wall. Therefore, I quit one company after another, and none of them lasted long. That kind of pain is hard to feel for those who have not experienced it. I was so depressed many times that I wanted to commit suicide, but fortunately, I heard that in religion, it is said that suicide is to go to hell. Because of this belief, I held the line and never took that step, no matter how painful it was.　　During this period, I tried all kinds of methods in the hope of relieving my pain: reading social books (such as Carnegie's books and Chicken Soup for the Soul, etc.), seeing a psychiatrist, and learning qigong, but basically these had no effect. It should be said that Carnegie's book is good, but in the face of my stubbornness seems to be no help at all. However, I remembered a sentence in the book, to the effect that when you try to help others, you will be ashamed to forget and even heal your pain. Just because I believed in this saying, I tried to do something good that I could, such as, donating money to the disaster area, volunteering, and so on. At that time, I was very active, sometimes braving the hot noon sun to go to the orphanage. Because, my pain made me feel that I was willing to do anything as long as I could be cured. I hoped that by doing these things I would forget my pain and become happier. The truth is that these good deeds sometimes temporarily made me feel a little bit better, but honestly, there was no cure for my depression and social fear, and over a long period of time, I became a little bit desperate about my symptoms, but I continued to do them while I was suffering. Credit where it's due, that's a true statement. Things turned around at the end of 2006.　　I wasn't very well at the time, and I sat in my office every day and didn't do much, but after a while I felt very tired. When I came home every day, the most common phrase I used was "physically and mentally exhausted". One day, I heard that eating more bananas can make you feel good, and eating vegetarian food can make you feel good physically and mentally. So I decided to start eating a vegetarian diet right away. At that time, I was very good, no matter what method, as long as it was said to be able to solve my problems, I would do it. After a period of time like this, my spirit was indeed much better and I did not get tired easily. Later on. In order to "accumulate blessings", I did some other good deeds. In May and June of 2007, in order to realize a certain wish of my own, I again speculatively donated money to do good deeds on the Internet. At that time, I found the article "Three Years of Release" on the Internet. I was attracted by the content of the article. Then I searched the Internet using the term "life release" and saw more articles about the changes in their bodies, minds, and environments after life release. I was sensitive to the fact that my life had taken a turn for the better.　　So, I decided to start life release. After work, I went to the market and bought frogs, recited the Buddha's name (Amitabha) for them in the rain, and then put them in the zoo. This was my first life release. That night, I was in a better mood than ever. So, I decided that I would release them all the time, all the time in the future. Then, I almost every weekend, and another friend with a bucket to release, we mostly put loach, pond lice, raw fish and carp (in fact, I want to put more kinds of, but suffer from the habits of animals do not know too much, do not dare to put into the river). We are like a guerrilla, sometimes here, sometimes there; sometimes in this stall to buy, sometimes in that stall to buy. Because we don't want to be discovered, so as not to be caught by others after releasing the fish here and there. Our release tools have improved, the first time with a plastic bag, found that a leakage of water at all, very passive; later changed to use a small bucket, bucket lid on the N holes to give the animals air; and then later, a water ebb tide, found that the original river is not usually very deep water, shallow water under a lot of rocks. This will be the fish down, I do not know whether the fish will be injured, so we have improved a bit, in the bucket above and below were tied to a rope, lifting the upper rope, like the water like the bucket down the river, the bucket fell to close to the surface of the river, the bottom of the rope to lift the bucket will be inverted, the fish fell down). Sometimes, I work in a bad mood, after work, I go alone to put, put back, the mood has become better. Usually people choose to travel when they are in a bad mood, but when I am in a bad mood, I go to release the fish.　　The effect of life release is really incredible. About four months later, I suddenly realized that my depression had gone somewhere, and I could often smile happily from the bottom of my heart. Moreover, I wasn't afraid of people anymore. Although I am still not good at socializing with people, there is a huge difference between "not good" and "afraid"!　　I've also found that my work is much more manageable. Also, I'm getting better at people, and some of my friends who didn't really want to hang out with me in the past have started to ask me out. （However, I didn't want to go because it would cost me money. Now that I've gotten a taste of it, I'm more willing to save my money and let it go.) In the past, I used to see other people would go out with a group of friends on weekends, while I was always alone and very bitter, but now I don't have this feeling.　　Now, I am very determined to release life, and I go every week. And vegetarianism is something I will stick to for the rest of my life.　　As to why eating vegetarian and releasing life has such a miraculous effect, I'm not quite sure I can say (I'll just say, at least, that you give other beings the chance to be happy and new life, and as a reaction, you get happy and new life yourself), anyway, it just does. If you are interested, you can search the Internet for "the merits of releasing life", and the words of the masters of the past generations will be more convincing to you.　　I can tell you that the above words are true, and they are all my personal experience. I write it here in the hope that if I can get out of my depression, you can get out of your depression too. If you don't believe me, just read it as a story; but if you have tried all kinds of methods and still can't solve your problems (just like I did before), you may as well give it a try. Vegetarianism, life release, insist on a year and a half, you look back, you are not a change?　　If there are ten friends reading this article, and one of them practices it and gets the benefits, then I have not wasted my efforts. Thank you all! This method also works for anxiety, OCD.　　----- reprinted ---- But it's true. I hope it helps you. Good luck to you.　　If a loved one has depression, anxiety, obsessive-compulsive disorder you can release the life for him, and then the merits of the release back to "give" to his grievances, the effect is extraordinary .