I thought after a long time, everything should have changed. But you're still so clear. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that.
--Title - Bai Xiaobai BOLG
Wen/Weiwei
(1)
When I met Bai Xiaobai, he was very thin. One by one, he smoked MID-SEVEN, which he said was her old favorite cigarette. It's hard to buy them sometimes. She also stubbornly refused to change brands. He also said that he didn't know why he smoked before and didn't ask. Thought it was just a habit. Now he realizes that it wasn't a habit. Rather, it was her insecurity. When she was tired or jaded, the smoke and nicotine gave him the greatest comfort. She was such a lonely little child. Everyone said she was dog-tempered. But they all spoiled her so much that no one wanted her to change. I always tell her, "It's okay, Willie, you're fine with that temper. It's true. Now that she's gone, we all miss her temper. We all want to tell her, "Wei Wei, come back, it's okay even if you throw a tantrum. But after all, there's no coming back. I've only smoked since she left. It's the only way I miss her. This is the only way I miss her, so I can feel that we are not too far away.
I watched the pampered sadness that filled his eyes. I listened to him talk about the girl. That soft, compassionate tone, like he was afraid the sound would hurt something. I look at him one by one accumulated MID-SEVEV small box, I finally understand how deep his love. My heart little by little twitching pain.
Bai Xiaobai, I don't want you to forget her. I can't do it either. But Bai Xiaobai, can you empty your heart a little place to leave me? A little bit is good, really, Bai Xiaobai, a little bit is good.
(2)
In fact, I know white Xiaobai for a long time. Freshman year just enrolled that year. He was secretly likened to the prince of the session by each girl's dormitory in the school, and was the topic of conversation before going to bed every night. It seemed that every girl was excited when they talked about him. He fit all the girls' initial fantasies of a prince. Clean, polite, elegant. Just not very chatty, except when his girlfriend comes over.
Everyone knows that Bai Xiaobai has a girlfriend that he loves to death. He doesn't allow others to say the slightest thing bad about that girl. There were once countless sisters who thought they were beautiful sent to the door. The man who said that there is no man who doesn't like beautiful women. But they all ended up losing in Bai Xiaobai. He didn't even look at them and couldn't remember their names. Very frustrated, they turned their anger on the girl. Talking her down.
I've never been involved in this kind of conversation, but I'm just a little more curious about Bai Xiaobai. I'm always in awe of persistent boys.
4)
I bought out his brother. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that, but I'm going to be able to do it," he said. His blog was full of her stories. I followed his posts every day. I told him that my name is Azure. He called me Weiwei. He said he liked that name. I didn't tell him that I knew him, that we were in the same school. I think I can watch his joys and sorrows like this, very contented.
I told him every day, Bai Xiaobai, you have to cheer up. She must have wanted you to be happy. She said you all have to be good. She will be watching you from heaven.
Finally one day he asked me. Do you know where my Wei Wei is?
I didn't know how to answer this question of his. I said, "Your Wei Wei is an angel. She is where she should be, back in beautiful heaven. And it doesn't matter who I am, does it
(5)
"Spring is here, and it's Willow's favorite season. She said she could smell April. She loved everything that was beautiful and thriving. Every time I think of her smiling face, filled with the smell of sunshine, splashing down little by little. My heart aches so much that I can't help myself. So innocent and cunning eyes. Whenever I close my eyes, it's like I can touch her. But in the end, it is barren.
The wildflowers on the roadside all swayed and bloomed, and my heart was suddenly filled with sadness. A large area, a large area. But I don't know what I'm mourning. Love it seems so far away from me, I can not distinguish its flavor.
The last time I saw Wei Wei, she was lying in such a white room, already unconscious. I was there. I was there. My brain was blank. Tears were falling down involuntarily. I ran over and held her hand, so soft and limp, not at all like the way she usually lived and breathed. My tears flowed onto her hands and body. I said Wei Wei, I'm Bai. Would you look at me? I'm wearing the outfit you said was the most handsome today. Baby, I know you can't leave me. There won't be anyone better behaved than me. Right? Honey, I know I'm late. Don't be mad at me, okay? When you're better, you can punish me any way you want. Don't ignore me, okay? Didn't we have an agreement? Wei Wei, I love you so much, we will always love each other and never leave each other, right?
I saw tears seeping from the corners of her eyes. She took off the oxygen mask strained to say to me, dear ...... I first ...... go, do not ...... feel sorry ...... me! ...... love ...... you, not away from ...... not ......
Her words were not finished before she left, she gradually cold. I want to give her all my body heat, I hold her tight, but I can not stop her far away. Her mom pulled me up and said, "Bai, Weiwei is no more, we all wish you well. She handed me an envelope. The usual girl's bossy tone. She said, I knew your mom couldn't be relied on and would definitely tell you about my illness. Silly me, you're mine, you can't run away. I don't want to suffer here anymore. So go first, be a good boy and give me a good life instead, look at the sun and the sky and the little children. Or I'll waste you later when we rendezvous." Trembling handwriting.
I take it out and read it from time to time. Azure was right, I'm going to take the place of Weiwei and live a good life. It was as if a memory was being stripped from my body. I gradually could not recall Weiwei's pale face. Instead, her smiling face is becoming more and more vivid. I thought maybe she was reminding me. Live well. Wei Wei, I promise you, I'll be good. But I, so so miss you." --Bai Xiaobai BOLG
(6)
Bai Xiaobai really came to class on time after updating that blog. Consistently clean dress. Hidden smile. Only he rarely played basketball anymore. Sometimes he would smoke by the basketball court. The eyes that he smoked, all of them are lost in the sadness of the memories.
I go to the classroom very early every day. I'm going to put the notes on the desk of Bai Xiaobai. Sometimes a glass of milk, sometimes a lollipop. I heard that he used to buy it for Wei Wei. I see him not moving to put things in the backpack when the psyche is sweet.
Bai Xiaobai still updates his blog frequently. He also began to chat with me about the weather. The first time I saw him, I was in the middle of the night, and he was in the middle of the night. Will trustingly tell me, Azure, I want her so much. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that, but I'm going to be able to do it. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it, and I'm sure I'll be able to do it. Only you are for her, and I am for you.
Never thought there would be that day. I'm still early that day. I'm not going to be able to get a good look at the whole thing, but I'm going to be able to see it. Suddenly I heard someone knocking on my desk. I raised my head and saw the face of Bai Xiaobai. He said, "Hello Azure. I froze for half a day and squeezed out a smile and said, Hello Bai Xiaobai. He asked me elegantly, can I sit next to you in the future? At that time I was a little silly. I nodded my head like a chicken pecking rice. I said well, of course. We were the only two people in the classroom at that time. The June sunlight all of a sudden crossed over from behind the heavy curtains, a bright.
After I became familiar with Bai Xiaobai, I asked him how he knew I was Azure. He always smiled but did not answer. But I really understand Bai Xiaobai's thoughtfulness. I'm not sure if I'm a good person, but I'm a good person, and I'm a good person, and I'm a good person, and I'm a good person, and I'm a good person. We would walk across the campus with lollipops in our mouths on sunny days.
Gradually, we are also quite inseparable, right? I'm not sure if I'm a good person, but I'm a good person," he said. The answer is who knows?
(7)
When I was not doing anything, I read the fairy tale to Bai Xiaobai. We sat in the quiet woods of the school. The sunlight passed through the leaves and crumbled on the ground, sprinkling on us . In the beginning, Xiaobai laughed at me and said, "Azure, you're so old, why still read fairy tales? He often slipped up when I read them. As time went on, he began to listen carefully. He said, "Azure, when you read the fairy tale is very beautiful, very quiet.
It seems to me that I have returned to the time when my mother told me fairy tales. When I listen to you read, my mood will gradually calm down. Forget some unhappy things. I heard him say, the heart is sweet. But then he said, Azure, is it true that all girls believe in fairy tales? I said yes, in the hours of every girl will have a prince and princess dream en.
Then Bai Xiaobai began to silence, I see his face is full of memories of the haze. He lit a cigarette and slowly began to say, Azure, there is a girl who grew up not believing in fairy tales. At that time I wanted to give her a dream, a dream about fairy tales. I wanted her to be the proudest princess in the world. I was willing to submit to her. I didn't know if I was her prince, but I wanted to give her everything I had. I love to hear her make noise and see her smile. I used to be a very self-absorbed little kid. But after having her, my world shone brightly, and she was so dazzling. I thought we would have a good good life. But ...... reality is too cruel. Azure, I have always believed in fairy tales. Always prayed for her religiously, but why? Why was our time so short? I want her to have the best life, but at the end of the day I realize I can't do anything. Azure, why? Shouldn't we really believe in fairy tales?
I saw Bai Xiaobai's tears slowly slide down. My heart was in immense pain. He said, Azure, I miss her. No matter where I am, what time of day, I think of her. I often think how wonderful it would be if she was still by my side. What would we be doing at this hour? Chatting or messing around? Even if I don't say anything, looking at him I feel immensely satisfied and happy. Even if the one who accompanies her is not me, I am willing, as long as she lives a good life. But what? I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to get out of this one, but I'm sure I'll be able to get out of it!
That was the first time I saw Bai Xiaobai's tears for the woman he loved. I began to doubt for the first time, Bai Xiaobai him, this life he will love another person?
(8)
Bai Xiaobai finally decided to participate in the grade basketball game. I persuaded him for a long time. I thought maybe this tournament would make him a little happier.
That day I sat in the center of the front row of the bleachers and watched Bai Xiaobai, wearing jersey No. 27 (Love Wife), running on the court. Watching him sweat as he valiantly snatched at the ball and fought. I know there was once a girl, sitting in this seat I'm sitting in, cheering and screaming for her Bai Xiaobai. The white boy on the court threw flying kisses at her. So taciturn. I look at the girl's mug shot printed on Bai Xiaobai's jersey. In a flash, I felt that the girl was right next to me, cheering for her prince. It's just that neither of us can hear or see. The reason is that it is the world of the two of them.
The game was over immediately, and Bai Xiaobai was ahead by more than 20 points. I finally couldn't resist getting up and shouting, Bai Xiaobai is so handsome, Bai Xiaobai is the best. The company's main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers. Bai Xiaobai subconsciously threw a flying kiss to this side. The excited crowd didn't stop their shouting. But I froze. Bai Xiaobai, Wei Wei has become your habit. Little by little, it has been accommodated into your life and cannot be tampered with. What about me?
The celebration banquet, Bai Xiaobai took me there. Because he said he should thank me for encouraging him. The banquet was hilarious. His teammates were all very jocular. We all had a lot of fun and drank a lot of wine. Some people said, "Bai Xiaobai, you're not enough! He didn't introduce his new girlfriend. Bai Xiaobai looked at me and didn't say anything. A big boy said, "Bai, some things should be forgotten. I'm glad you're back on the team. Let's all toast Azure and thank her for letting Bai find himself. Bai blocked it and said, "Azalea doesn't know how to drink. The big guy said, "Forget it, Bai, you used to say that Weiwei wouldn't drink. But then she packed a case and drank us all down! Have you forgotten? That Wei Wei is really called powerful, and his character is also good, and there is no frame at all ...... The big man was still talking, and someone next to him pulled him and secretly told him not to say it. The big man suddenly stopped. Bai Xiaobai raised his glass and smiled, he said, big man, I know you all miss Wei Wei. Come on, let's drink up. Many people in the team have red eyes, really miss that girl, she is always so happy, make people unconsciously happy. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty!
I know Wei Wei is a cheerful girl, big mouth drink big mouth eat meat free and bold. But Wei Wei, can you tell me? How can I make Bai Xiaobai happy. I know you love him, and I love him too. I think we have the same wish for him to be well. Don't you think so, Wei Wei? Can I not take your place and love him well?
(9)
That day we were eating in the cafeteria, Bai Xiaobai suddenly said, "Azure, Harry Potter is in theaters. Why don't you accompany me to see it? I almost choked on my rice, and I was busy nodding my head and saying yes! I love that series of movies the most.
At the movie theater, White bought a lot of delicious food. He looked especially happy today. The movie started, he watched it with great interest. When Dumbledore died, some people in the theater started to cry, including me. The end of the movie was depressing, not knowing what kind of difficulties were ahead for Harry. Ron and Hermione said to Harry, "We will always be by your side, no matter what kind of difficulties, we are all one". At this time White said to me, Azure thank you for being by my side. You made me less sad. I smiled faintly in the darkness. White Xiaobai, you are so easy to dominate my mood it.
On the way back Xiaobai said, this is the movie she has been looking forward to watching. I can tell her about it tonight. I don't know if she can hear it. I said yes. I'm sure she'll be able to hear it. Xiaobai, your Weiwei is an angel, she will be on high, continue to love you. Bai Xiaobai smiled at me. It's been a long, long time since I've seen his eyes sparkle like that. He said Azure, you're so understanding, you must have a lot of boys chasing after you, right? I somehow blushed.
On campus, I ran into my dormitory sisters. The first time they saw me and Bai Xiaobai, they ran over to me. Pulled me over and said, Azure, account. What happened? I looked back at Bai, I said no, we are just ordinary friends. The sisters made a big booing sound. "Ordinary friends? Have you ever seen White get close to any girl? Say, are you guys dating?" The sisters left me behind to interrogate Bai Xiaobai. "Handsome boy, have you ever treated us, Azure, well?" Bai Xiaobai smiled, revealing his white teeth, again with this killer smile. My heart was suddenly nervous. I didn't know what kind of question the sisters would ask, and I didn't know what kind of answer Bai would give. White said, "Yes, I have taken good care of her. And then continued to smile. Then just watch my flamboyant sisters keep flamboyant at people.
(10)
Bai Xiaobai was really nice to me. Will gently pull my hand when crossing the street, and then do not move to let go. Will send me back to the dormitory after the evening self-study class. He always protects me invisibly. There was always a wave in my heart. But Bai Xiaobai seemed like he was just doing what he was supposed to do. There's not much to do.
As the days go by, I see the smile of Bai Xiaobai from time to time. The winter bright sunshine blooming blooming white Xiaobai's smile. Almost the whole school knew we were inseparable, all thought we were in love. I was so immersed in this sweetness that I didn't want to think about it too much. I thought it would be good to stay like this.
At Christmas, I gave Bai Xiaobai his favorite pair of sneakers. He was so happy to see them. He gave me a big piece of crystal. There is my name on it. He said, "Azure, I still want to thank you. For more than a year, giving me care and love. They say if you give a crystal to a confidant, she'll be safe for the rest of her life. Azure, thank you for the affection you gave me. Azure I'm sorry, I'm leaving here.
It was as if a thunderbolt had come from a clear sky. I suddenly woke up from a beautiful dream. The news that Bai Xiaobai is going to study in Germany is spreading fast. I'm not sure if it's true or not, but I'm sure it is. It's really true. Bai Xiaobai is leaving. Taking my beautiful dream with him, leaving. The first thing I want to do is to get the best out of you, and I'm not going to be able to do that.
Bai Xiaobai, Azure does not want to be a confidant, Azure wants to be your lover.
(11)
Azure, I understand everything you have done to me. I'm sorry, but I don't know what to do with you. At that time, didn't you ask me how I knew you were the Azure on the Internet? I remember when Weiwei was still around, once she came to school to play. I was running back and forth with my little wife on my back, and a girl kept looking at us. My little wife told me, "Honey, another one of your suitors. I didn't believe her. I said she was just looking at us a couple of times. My little wife tapped me on the head and told me that women's intuition is the most accurate. She said, "Bai Xiaobai, if the two of us separate one day, then this girl is still not bad. She gives me a certain feeling that is different. I looked at my little wife and couldn't do anything with her. Azure, that day you wore a floral dress, very quiet. Full of envy and anticipation. It was a long time before I noticed you sitting behind me. When you turn around without thinking, you will sweep the side of your face.
Later someone with my posting, told me to be good. I knew it was you when I put notes on my desk and milk. My little wife was right. Oh Azure, I have never been able to say no to you because you resemble Wei Wei in some way, you are both so kind. Sometimes when we're together, I think I'm still surrounded by my girl, who has never left. Azure, she fills every corner of my heart. Filled up so empty.
Azure, after being with you, I began to be less afraid of the day. For so long, with your company, I am very full. I love listening to you read fairy tales with such a holy expression. It's like I'm listening to the Bible. Every time I hear it I feel I'm not so alone. Azure, sometimes I think I'm in love with you. I'm used to having you around. It's so comfortable. It's so natural for me to talk to you about her and about our old life.
Azure, you are different from other girls. You and my girl are both so idiosyncratic. Only one is flamboyant and the other is introverted. Azure, I am a quiet person. Some people used to say that my girl and I's personality is water and fire, we're not from the same world. But Azure, that way when we are together, we will have two worlds. No one knows the despondency behind my girl's wildness. Azure, I just want to love her. You're the second person I want to love, but Azur, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, but you're late.
Germany is Weiwei's favorite country, she loves the hops in Munich, the soccer and the dancing. I dreamed of her in my dream the other day. She said honey, be happy. Find new love. In the square in Munich. Azure, I think my Wei Wei will be waiting for me there. I don't think I'll ever love anyone else in my life but her. There's a feeling that's engraved in my heart. I think I'll be there, in Munich's square, dancing with them, waiting for Willow. She will come back, for sure.
Weiwei, you have to find your own happiness too. I'm sorry, I can't promise you anything. Whether it's this life, or the next or the next. I'm sorry Azure, there is a feeling that is y rooted.
Azure, I believe in fairy tales, I always have. I've always believed in it, but I prefer to create it with my own hands. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I will find him, no matter where in the world he is.
Azure, we all have to work hard for our own happiness.
(12)
I smiled in the cold wind with Bai Xiaobai's letter. His airplane has taken off. Slowly, it took off with her and his dreams. The sun was blinding.
Yes, Bai Xiaobai, we all have to cheer for our own happiness yet. You know what? You are my happiness. Bai Xiaobai I also believe in fairy tales. Even if Snow White is not saved, the prince can still be in love with Cinderella.
I hold the next flight ticket to Munich, I think Bai Xiaobai, I will find my happiness.
Bai Xiaobai, you're right, I'm an introverted person, but I will also fight for my love. I am not afraid. I will be as brave as Weiwei. Bai Xiaobai, it doesn't matter, no matter how long it takes I can wait. To be by your side is my happiness.
The marquee rang with the song:
Back to back / under the eaves of yesterday / you raised your smiling face / flawless eyes / looking at the sky / I listened to you loudly make a wish for the future / you want to go to the location / I accompanied you on the adventure / shoulder to shoulder / the setting sun how piercing / I pretended not to find / the tears in the corner of your eyes / remembered / you dreamed of breaking into the sky alone / not afraid of the arduous journey / the glowing process / life is finally complete / the other side of the ocean is the harbor of the dream / perhaps inevitably failed occasionally lonely / always catch up / if a small wind cold / my heart has always been warm for you
You know / I will never leave / across a sea is the harbor you are in / although inevitably failed occasionally lonely / I can understand / efforts to accept the challenges in front of me / my heart has always been with you / I know / you have always been the most The wind is blowing gently / send your card / you said life is busy / lost a lot of weight / remember / we often go to the breakfast store at the end of the alley / love to squeeze a seat / a cup of coffee / talk about the unknown tomorrow / that gradually understand the girl / still embracing the naive and lovely / you know / I'm waiting for you to come back
My dear, let's put on a heavy scarf in the sunshine unique to Germany, and meet on the square of Munich. Munich's square to meet. I'll say to you with a smile, Hello, Whitey!